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Chapter 20
For a little while, things went normally for the Marauders, or as normal as they ever were. Pranking Snape, teasing Snape, and annoying Snape. Not much else. Classes were getting harder, and every teacher seemed to be giving them more homework then in years past. The Marauders studied, and always seemed to get them done. Maybe not to the best of their ability, but still, they always seemed to keep their grades where they were.
James and Lily seemed to enjoy having their own rooms. (The other Marauders were sure that they only used one of those rooms, but it was never mentioned one way or the other, just a known fact.) They also both enjoyed being Head Boy and Girl. James maybe more than Lily, but, that was to be expected. James enjoyed the power of being Head Boy. Lily was all, "It's a great honor and responsibility."
She was right. It was. James and less time to spend with the other Marauders, and Lily, less with Stacey. Stacey spent most of her time with Peter, Remus, and Sirius. Peter didn't spend that much time in the dormitory when Sirius and Remus were in there. He spent more of his time down in the Common Room with Stacey if they were up there, and if Stacey wasn't there, he would go up anyway, and interrupt them. Stacey was usually down there, though. If she wasn't, she was with Snape, spending time with him. (Why they could never figure out. They knew that they were just friends, so they assumed that she felt sorry for him, and they were probably right.)
James always had time to spend "marauding" with the "Marauders". Marauders they are and always will be. Nothing will be able to separate them and what they shared…. Not even death…
That's what things were like nowadays mostly. They were not really that bad. Things were quite normal for them… until one day when a letter arrived for Remus from the most unexpected person…. with the most unexpected message…
During the normal mail time one day, an owl came to Remus with a letter addressed to him, which was strange as Remus never got mail. All of his friends looked at him as he read the letter. His eyes widened when he realized who it was from… What would Sirius' dad have to say to him?
Dear Remus,
Hello, this is Angus Black, Sirius' father. I know this is probably most unexpected, but I feel it is necessary. You can choose to tell Sirius about this or not, but I advise that you read the letter first before telling him. Of course, what you tell him is your business, not mine. Only a piece of advice…
Anyway, there is something I feel that you should know: I will die. I know this. It is inevitable, I fear. No, Sirius does not know, and I would like to keep it that way. I know that I will die. I don't know how long from now, but I don't think I have very long before my life is ended.
Remus, there is something that I know that you don't know I know.
I know about you and my son, and your relationship. I realized it when you two and James were here for Christmas. Yes, you two are painfully obvious and very much in love as my wife and I realized.
Don't fret, there's no need to worry. I know you're probably worried about what I think about my son being gay… and you being his partner… I think nothing of it, but that you two are very much love obviously and deserve each other. I know you are much more level-headed and will keep my son's… rebellious… ways in check.
I approve. I do. I want you to take care of him and be there for him when I no longer can be, which will be sooner than I want obviously. He's going to need your love and devotion for him very soon.
I approve, and I wish you two the best of luck and happiness, and I hope that you two live the rest of your lives together.
Sincerely,
Angus Black
P.S. I hope you understand why I don't want my son knowing. You might want to keep this to yourself. Of course, you can tell him when you want and when you feel it's right, but I would prefer if you waited until after my death before you told him, but if you want to tell him sooner, I can't stop you. Thank you for you time – Angus
Remus looked in shock at the letter. He knew? He approved? He… Remus froze… He was going to die and he knew it, and Sirius didn't know… Poor Sirius… He looked at him. How could he tell him? He couldn't. He was going to have to keep it to himself. This was certainly unexpected… Remus sighed.
"Who was that from?" Sirius asked, looking at him.
Remus looked at him and smiled. "No one, nothing, it's nothing, Sirius, don't worry."
Sirius didn't seem to believe him, but nodded and gave him the benefit of the doubt. Remus put the letter inside his robe, and tried to put it out of his mind, but couldn't seem to. This was not something he wanted to know….
Anyway, Sirius and Remus found that their relationship had intensified greatly over the summer. To Peter's knowledge and distress, they snogged intensely every night, leaving them both breathless. Sirius pushed the limits of Remus' desire and control every night. He constantly tested him, pushing him, knowing what Remus really wanted, but wouldn't allow himself to have.
Sirius would press himself against Remus, making him feel everything that he knew he felt. Remus would gasp and arch, and whisper Sirius' name. Sirius would want to push him even farther, but he knew that was probably not a good idea, so he wouldn't go any farther than he thought Remus would approve.
One night, Remus was lying in bed, while Sirius was at Quidditch Practice. (James had been made captain, and their first game was coming up.) He lay there, waiting for him, thinking. As he was thinking, he felt… certain things that disturbed him… The full moon was in a few days, and the thoughts he was having must have been related to that.
They were about Sirius… and the werewolf… and the werewolf's flat-out desire and want for Sirius Black. Remus had been having more and more of these thoughts the closer (and farther) he and Sirius got. As he started to think about what he and Sirius would do when he got back, the urges and feelings got stronger. Remus wasn't sure if he could ignore them or fight them, especially when Sirius got here, and they actually started doing what he was thinking about. I mean, after all, he was just thinking about snogging him, he wasn't actually doing it, and that's what scared him.
Remus took a big shuddering breath. This was bad… Sirius couldn't be around him, not now. He didn't know what he would do, and not having control over his feelings and emotions scared him…
He heard Sirius and James talking and walking up the stairs. They would be here soon… Remus turned over so he couldn't see them come in. They came in, and Sirius must've thought that he was asleep, because he came over, and quietly sat in the bed next to him. Remus, not turning over, not looking at him, and not opening his eyes, took one of his arms and pushed Sirius with and said, curtly albeit, "Go away, Sirius. I don't want you around me tonight." He knew Sirius was hurt, but it was for his own good.
"What?" Sirius said, the hurt reflecting his voice, and, he was sure, his beautiful blue eyes… "Remus…" He reached out and touched him.
Remus jerked the hand off of him and repeated what he told him before. "I don't want to be with you tonight."
"You're crazy, Remus." He was still hurt at his words. Hell, Remus was hurt, too. Do you think he wanted to say this to the man he loved? Sirius reached out, and turned him over so he could look at him, and Remus opened his eyes as he did so. "What are you talking about?"
The curtness left his voice. "I am talking about what I've been telling you. I don't want you around me, and I don't want to be with you tonight, so get up and go sleep in your bed." He pushed him again.
"What if I don't want to?" Sirius asked.
Remus sat up, and gave Sirius a very hard and rough push, and sent Sirius to the other side of Remus' bed. "What are you doing?" Remus cried. "Go away! I can't be around you tonight!" Tears started to flow down Remus' cheeks. "Please, Sirius…" Sirius started to get closer to him, and Remus pushed him away again. "I can't control myself around you this close to the full moon, I don't… I…" Tears flowed freely, and Remus sobbed.
Sirius drag Remus to him, and put his arms around him and embraced, shushing him as he Remus cried. "Sh, it's ok. It's ok." He gave him a kiss on the forehead. "I'll leave you alone, ok? For the next week."
Remus looked up at him. "You promise? Until my energy is up after the full moon?"
"As long as I can start sleeping with you in the same bed again after the full moon." Sirius said.
Remus smiled softly. "Deal."
"Ok, then, deal." Sirius smiled. He gave Remus one last kiss on the lips, and got up, got dressed and went to bed in his own bed for once.
Remus smiled at Sirius and lay back down, and went to sleep.
It wasn't easy for Sirius not to be with Remus, but he managed. It was, after all, for his own good as he realized. He knew it wasn't easy for Remus either, but they both knew that it had to be done.
A/n: Sorry it took so long to update. Today I sat down a forced myself to write and finish this chapter, and here it is! Well, I hoped you enjoyed it, and R/R! Thank you!
