They all stood there

"God what the hell is her problem?" yelled Inuyasha

"She has been through a lot," said Ayame

"Yes that is true," said Miroku

"Still she can't always do this, she doesn't have to be alone and she needs to realize that" said Sango "She is right though, you can be surrounded by people that care for you or even be with the person you love with all your heart and that still doesn't change anything because you will always be alone" said Mitsukia

"Always alone" said Rin.

Mitsukia looked at her family then to Sesshomaru

"If you so do get Kagome to love you again, we will respect you on terms of familyship but that does not mean we will support my mothers decision" then they all flapped their dark wings and they were off back to the land of death.

Two Days Later

Sesshomaru waited in the ruins of the western castle as a swirl of darkness was seen then it blew out of existence and there stood Kagome in all her dark evil glory

"Good morning Sesshomaru" she stated bitterly

"Welcome Kagome" he answered.

Kagome walked past him through the ruins of her former home

"I can remember the time when I was a human and I used to travel with Inuyasha and the others looking for the Shikon shards," said Kagome touching a painting on the wall

"That was a long time ago," stated Sesshomaru

"Yes but I can remember it like it was only days ago, so much has happened since then" she said "Much has happened since then" he answered

"I know". Sesshomaru walked to stand next to her

"What was it like where you were Kagome?" he asked

"I'll show you," said Kagome touching his hand they were both teleported to a place that was white just white that's all there was

"You had to stay like this?" he asked again

"Wait a second," said Kagome.

They both floated in the void of nothingness before Sesshomaru felt like his bones were being ripped out from his body like his head was splitting, his body was heating up to the point where he could see the red steam of his blood around his body he felt his demon blood vaporizing it turned into human blood and tried to refunnel back into his body but he tried to keep it away.

Kagome saw this and teleported them back into his castle as he panted

"That is how I was for over 100,000,000 billion years," explained Kagome,

"That is how it was for you?" he asked really shocked

"They tried to purify my blood," she growled out

"That must have been complete horror," he said in thought.

Sesshomaru stared at Kagome as she wandered around the once prosperous castle

'That was what it was like for her, if I had only believed Mitsukia and helped them look for her instead of mating that lizard whore' he thought angrily

"Sesshomaru?" said Kagome causing him to snap out of his self-loathing

"Yes what is it Kagome?" he answered back, Kagome's body began to glow a golden black color it spread throughout the castle refurnishing the place creating the illusion about how it was when it was not in ruins

"This is my castle," he said

"Back then" she said leading him back to the ballroom they watched as a grand ball was being thrown and there was Sesshomaru and Kagome before.

Sesshomaru's eyes widen

"That was us," he stated

"Yes that was us once, happy in love it all sickens me," said Kagome

"Kagome everyone has a fence around their heart but you have a one-hundred foot stone wall with vicious dragons guarding it on top of a ice glacial mountain" said Sesshomaru some what sarcastically

"Time Sesshomaru Time" said Kagome

"Time is all you need," said Sesshomaru

"Let the rain of time wash away the memories," said Kagome watching her former self dance

"Kagome is your decision to give me a chance or not?" he asked suddenly

"I have made a decision" she stated turning towards him

"I have decided that I will give you a year", Sesshomaru let out the breath he was holding

"Thank You" he answered.

Kagome had her army rebuild Sesshomaru's entire castle to what it once was then after that the servants of his own were reinstated it was exactly how it was before

"Listen Sesshomaru you must treat me as you treated me before" said Kagome

"But…" he started

"No listen to me dammit be the cold hearted Sesshomaru you use to be other than that you can do anything you want," she explained.

Sesshomaru thought this over for a second then nodded

"Ok wench I told you where your room was, dinner is at 6 sharp" his icy cold voice spoke with hatred towards her, Kagome nodded in satisfaction

"What are you nodding at wench get to your room" he said viciously as she walked towards her room.

2 Months Later (I am not going into Detail about what goes on between them ok)

Things went on like they had so long ago Kagome was Kagome and Sesshomaru was back to his emotionless self, Kagome was sitting at her desk when a knock was heard

"Lady Kagome Lord Sesshomaru requests your presence," said the young girl as Kagome opened the door

"I will show you to him" said the girl.

Kagome was led through to the garden where she saw Sesshomaru standing under a tree

"You wished to see me," said Kagome

"Yes I am to go on a scouting trip throughout my former lands," he instructed

"And you wish to tell me that at?" stated Kagome

"You are to come with me," he stated

"Why?" asked Kagome

"Because I wish it," he said

"Fine" she answered.

The two left to scout out the area for Kagome was having it rebuilt or in this case back to the way it was.

They settled in a valley for the night

"So what ever happened to Jaken?" asked Kagome

"He was killed long ago and I just didn't feel like bringing him back," said Sesshomaru

"Interesting" said Kagome.

The two slept across from each other both knowing that the other was not asleep they were just both thinking

'This is hard, I can't make her love me but I know that I could gain her love again one day' he thought 'Does he not understand the extend of my hatred?' she asked.

The next morning they moved to cover the villages or what was left of the villages, as soon as they saw the two leaders they bowed down

"This village seems to be fine," said Kagome while Sesshomaru nodded then they left only to run into some lizard demons that knew Kurei

"We will destroy you," shouted the leader

"You wish," said Kagome her 21st century self-coming back.

Sesshomaru easily killed them then they walked on.

Back To The Castle To Go

Kagome was called to the garden once again to find Sesshomaru standing again under a tree so she walked over to stand next to him

"What is it?" she asked him, before he turned to face her then he turned away again

"Ok Kagome this is hard I don't like treating you like this and besides when we first met we became best friends" he said looking up

"I understand Sesshomaru but I don't know how to love you again," said Kagome

"I know, I don't want you to love me because I am trying to get you to love me I want you to love me because you want to" he explained

"I know and I am trying to remember why I loved you before but my mind is so blind with hatred I can't see anything else" said Kagome

"I get that and I can understand however I will not push myself over for you but I will not control you," he explained

"You know this reminds me of a saying Women were made from mans rib not from his head to top him nor from his feet to be walked upon but from his rib to be his partner of him, under his arm to be protected by him and near his heart to be loved by him" said Kagome.

(OK I TOTALLY DISAGREE WITH THIS SAYING)

Sesshomaru looked at the dark goddess

"That in your case is not true, you can take care of yourself you will never need my protection" he said "That is true but I need understanding" she said

"I can't imagine what it must have been like for you, I am not even going to try to pretend I know what you went through or are still going through but I will be here for you if you need comfort or support" he explained

"Thank you" she whispered.

The two just stood there looking up at the tree

"Come with me" he said holding out his hand, looking at it for a minute Kagome took his as he pulled her into a embrace his demonic cloud forming below them then shot them into the air flying towards Inuyasha's forest.

Kagome stared down at the forest looking at all the death and destruction and how it was all being rebuilt by the elemental nymphs

"I caused all of this," she whispered

"Yes you did," said Sesshomaru, while Kagome looked at it, it was the truth that Kagome loved death and destruction but she also loved nature and seeing the consequences of her actions made her realize things.

Kagome sighed then closed her eyes

"Is something wrong Kagome?" asked Sesshomaru

"Nothing just thinking" said Kagome

"Well relax," he told her

"I suppose I should," said Kagome letting her mind blank as she fell into a light sleep.

Sesshomaru stared at the sleeping goddess that lay in his arms

'She truly is beautiful' he thought letting a smile grace his features, looking down at the slaughtered area of his brother's former forest he stopped and glided down to the Goshibuku Tree.

Sesshomaru gently whispered to Kagome

"Kagome wake up we're here," he said as she stirred

"Hmm" she said looking up

"The Goshibuku" she whispered walking out of his embrace to touch the diamond shaped mark embedded into the bark

"Kikyo's arrow mark" whispered Kagome

"Yes to pin Inuyasha to the tree" said Sesshomaru

"It seems like it was just yesterday that I was traveling with them with my little girl crush" laughed Kagome with a hollow laugh

"Yes but that was so long ago" said Sesshomaru

"Yes so very ago" whispered Kagome

"Do you miss those times Kagome?" he asked her

"I miss the times when everything was pretty simple," said Kagome

"Simple?" he asked raising a brow

"Yeah you know running around fighting demons, collecting shards, trying to keep my grades up in my era, getting attacked by you or Naraku and trying not to get killed" said Kagome like it was the most normal thing ever.

Sesshomaru just watched Kagome as she replayed the events of so long ago

"Me and my stupid middle school girl crush" she said bitterly

"Inuyasha" said Sesshomaru somewhat angrily

"Yes then when him and Koga used to fight over me, but I made Koga realize how much he really cared about Ayame," explained Kagome

"Everything has changed Kagome, stop living in the past," he said causing her to look at him.

Kagome growled, and she slapped him hard across the face

"I AM IN THE PAST!" she screamed

"I died IN THE PAST and suddenly I wake up here and you all think that I am suppose to understand everything that has happened I WASN'T HERE SESSHOMARU!" she yelled with tears threatening to pour down her face

"I wasn't here to watch my children grow up I wasn't here to live a happy life with my family, I wasn't here to sing my kits to sleep, I wasn't here to just chill with you all, I wasn't here FOR ANY OF IT! HOW DARE YOU!" she finally let the tears fall as she opened her arms and swung them around while spinning for emphasis on all of it.

Sesshomaru stared at her in realization

'She wasn't here' he thought looking at her falling tears "Kagome…." he said

"NO SESSHOMARU I AM TIRED OF THIS OK? I have been trying and you know what the only reason I crave power with such a passion is that I am making up for the love I don't have" she explained/screamed

"Love you don't have?" he asked her

"You all care yeah sure you do, but throughout it all you are always alone because I don't know any of you anymore and NONE of you know me about what happened or who I am now" she said

"Who you are now?" he questioned

"I've changed Sesshomaru I can't be everything I once was," she told him

"Kagome I'm sorry," he said

"I wish I could believe you Sesshomaru, and in some ways I do but things are just to different between us now, I am the one that is sorry" she said then turn to him and shimmered away. Sesshomaru stood there in pain

"KAGOME" he yelled tears falling from his eyes

'WHY?' he thought suicidally as he ran off towards his mountain castle.

Kagome appeared again in her dark castle that still illuminated the Earth as she watched Sesshomaru

'He's suicidal' she thought watching him run blindly through the trees cutting himself on everything his eyes bore with tears and rage.

She smiled a sad smile

'I'm sorry Sesshomaru I really am' then she turned away then looked over her shoulder one last time

"Good Bye Sesshomaru" she whispered one last tear hitting the floor then left into the darkness of the shadows.