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Author's note: Konnichiwa minna-san! Here's Chapter four. Just keep goin'.. just keep goin' even if yah suck. Still thanks for those who care on reviewing my fic! You're making my day extra-ordinary, extremely fabulous, complete! What was that? Whatever. Hey. I want to have a close friend here in Care to be one? And hey ByPasser. Thanks for the PM (personal message) yesterday, you're a great friend! We're now friends right? Just want to say I HEART YAH FRIEND! And to my beloved reviewers.. I HEART YAH TOO! Am not a secretive person so yah can ask me whatever yah want and I'd gladly answer whole-heartedly. Right ByPasser? Heh heh. Well.. That's it..
On with the fic.
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Tragisch
By: Waaa-I can't think of any
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Chapter four: Behruhren.Touque.Toucher.Tocco.Touch.
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Shinji's POV
"I want to die.."
"I really want to die.."
I wanted to end it all. After all, life's not that good and it's miserable. Never better. From the first place, why did I return? Here in this world that never gave me happiness, contentment, pleasure but hatred, self-pity, weakness. I hate this feeling. Ever since I stepped into this world, life's never been good. My mother died at my young age, I had an irresponsible father and no one ever loved me. I'm sick of pitying myself, sick of being a wimp. Every night I would cry and my roommate here was such a numb, being so careless. I don't need her! I know that she stopped me from leaving because she doesn't want to be alone. She's using me and that's it. I hate her but still I can't stay mad at her even for a minute or two. Yes, she's getting on my nerves especially when she came back from her normal bitchy self but I can't just leave her. Why? I don't know! We haven't spoke to each other since yesterday. What's with her? Tired of insulting me? Whatever. She's still the same old Asuka and maybe she's not in her normal self back when we were in that sea of LCL. Though the way she touched my cheek, very different from the typical arrogant girl that I knew back then. There's something on that touch that made me stopped in.. in.. I can't believe I almost kill her. I was having these kinds of thought not noticing that someone's softly knocking on my door and calling out my name. I keep on crying softly beside the bed, huddled in a ball, hugging my self while rocking back and forth when someone opened the door.
"Shinji?"
It was Miss Bitchy. Maybe she's going to yell at me now. She can't take it huh. I don't care, if she wanted to yell then yell. She can even kill me if she wants to. What I was expecting didn't happen though. I can hear her footsteps and after a minute she's kneeling in front of my huddled form.
"Shinji?"
I nevertheless care. I can hear her, her voice's shaking. Is she nervous? Why? That is when I felt something warm on my right shoulder. I shuddered then I look up to see her face. She had a look of concern on her face. Am I dreaming? Is she again sleepwalking? No! I can see her eyes, both of them wide open, not both crystalline because the other one's injured but it's full of care? No way. Maybe I am the one who's dreaming. But the touch, I can feel the heat of her hand through my shoulder. I look at her with tears flowing freely on my face. She again did something that I less expect she would ever do. She wiped the tears away as she say that single word over and over again.
"Sorry."
A single touch from her was okay and enough. I find it very.. comforting.
Now I can't even agree if I really hate her or not.
But one thing's for sure.
I need her.
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End of Chapter four
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