DISCLAIMER: I do not own Naruto, and never will.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: So I just made this during my free time in school, just today. I'm not very much of a poet, but let's just say I was very much inspired to write today, that's why I came up with this. Enjoy!
If
I Embrace Them Now
By:
Gensomaden-Saiyuki
Sai
x Sakura
No
matter how truly skilled are my hands,
I
tend to wonder why I can't hold you
No
matter how countless the works I have painted,
I
can't seem to see the need to paint you
No
matter how much stoic I can get,
I
never thought you'll pull off the truth from me
Somebody
told me you were full of enthusiasm,
Yet,
when he has gone to betray us,
Your
joyous endeavor seemed to have vanished,
And
instead, a smile ever plastered on your lips…
I
wonder how effortless your smile can be,
Though
I know your hurt, your tears, beyond that
Somebody
told me your eyes glistened then,
But
now, I see them dull, lifeless… sad
I
almost fooled myself when I looked —
Looked
into those deep, emerald green orbs of yours…
I
fooled myself; I thought everything was fine,
Yet
I never knew how your world has been so badly ripped apart
Then
you asked me: "why do I fake a smile?"
Ah
yes, you must have noticed! Why not?
Are
you not the master pretender of smiles?
I
fake a smile because I can fool them —
I
can fool the many; fool them that I have emotions,
Which
in truth, I don't possess
Then
you queried: "Why don't I name my works?"
"Are
not paintings supposed to have names?" you say,
Ah
yes, I have painted countless works,
Yet
it became a habit for me not to name them
For
I, myself, question my own real name, my own identity,
So
why should I name things created by an unnamed person such as myself?
But
after such a time,
I
decided to keep the name my master gave me,
For
I have known a little about myself already,
I
also decided to stay with you and with the team a little longer,
I
thought it mustn't hurt,
But
I guess… I thought wrong
Inspired
by you, I painted a portrait —
A
portrait of you, and me, and with our teammates,
I
decided to entitle it, "Friends"
… Ah,
the first portrait I ever named
Then,
I realized the dangers...
The
dangers of having emotions
If
I should embrace them now,
What
hurt should I encounter?
If
I embrace them now,
Would
I allow myself to feel for you?
Should
I embrace these emotions now,
Must
I wipe away your tears and take away your sorrow?
What
is this I feel?
Perhaps
a new emotion surfacing…
The
want to hold you, the want to see you,
The
need to make you happy, the need to…
Then
it struck me hard now —
I
already loved you
Come,
that day when the odds of Fate will reign,
I
would give up everything,
Just
to see you give me a real smile…
Just
to see your eyes glisten again…
Just
to see… you. You, in total perfection —
You're
all that I need
… And
I'm thankful that now was that day —
The
day when I finally give in to what I feel —
to
what I feel exclusively for you…
Here
you are, safe in my arms, my lips upon yours,
I
promise: no one will ever harm you, for I will protect you…
I
love you... Sakura, I love you…
Fin
Please feel free to tell me what you think about this one.
Exclusively,
+Releina
Artemis+
