DISCLAIMER: I do not own Naruto, and never will.


AUTHOR'S NOTES: So I just made this during my free time in school, just today. I'm not very much of a poet, but let's just say I was very much inspired to write today, that's why I came up with this. Enjoy!


If I Embrace Them Now
By: Gensomaden-Saiyuki
Sai x Sakura


No matter how truly skilled are my hands,
I tend to wonder why I can't hold you
No matter how countless the works I have painted,
I can't seem to see the need to paint you
No matter how much stoic I can get,
I never thought you'll pull off the truth from me

Somebody told me you were full of enthusiasm,
Yet, when he has gone to betray us,
Your joyous endeavor seemed to have vanished,
And instead, a smile ever plastered on your lips…
I wonder how effortless your smile can be,
Though I know your hurt, your tears, beyond that

Somebody told me your eyes glistened then,
But now, I see them dull, lifeless… sad
I almost fooled myself when I looked —
Looked into those deep, emerald green orbs of yours…
I fooled myself; I thought everything was fine,
Yet I never knew how your world has been so badly ripped apart

Then you asked me: "why do I fake a smile?"
Ah yes, you must have noticed! Why not?
Are you not the master pretender of smiles?
I fake a smile because I can fool them —
I can fool the many; fool them that I have emotions,
Which in truth, I don't possess

Then you queried: "Why don't I name my works?"
"Are not paintings supposed to have names?" you say,
Ah yes, I have painted countless works,
Yet it became a habit for me not to name them
For I, myself, question my own real name, my own identity,
So why should I name things created by an unnamed person such as myself?

But after such a time,
I decided to keep the name my master gave me,
For I have known a little about myself already,
I also decided to stay with you and with the team a little longer,
I thought it mustn't hurt,
But I guess… I thought wrong

Inspired by you, I painted a portrait —
A portrait of you, and me, and with our teammates,
I decided to entitle it, "Friends"
… Ah, the first portrait I ever named
Then, I realized the dangers...
The dangers of having emotions

If I should embrace them now,
What hurt should I encounter?
If I embrace them now,
Would I allow myself to feel for you?
Should I embrace these emotions now,
Must I wipe away your tears and take away your sorrow?

What is this I feel?
Perhaps a new emotion surfacing…
The want to hold you, the want to see you,
The need to make you happy, the need to…
Then it struck me hard now —
I already loved you

Come, that day when the odds of Fate will reign,
I would give up everything,
Just to see you give me a real smile…
Just to see your eyes glisten again…
Just to see… you. You, in total perfection —
You're all that I need

… And I'm thankful that now was that day —
The day when I finally give in to what I feel —
to what I feel exclusively for you…
Here you are, safe in my arms, my lips upon yours,
I promise: no one will ever harm you, for I will protect you…
I love you... Sakura, I love you…


Fin


Please feel free to tell me what you think about this one.

Exclusively,
+Releina Artemis+