Apology

I'm sorry for so many things

Sorry I embarrassed you

Sorry I lied

Sorry I bothered you

It was foolish to try

I guess I was lonely

But when I saw you

I wanted to be more than just me

I thought if I threw myself at you

You'd be sure to notice

But inside I think I knew

I was just making things harder

You started to make excuses

Walking away when I came near

Not talking to me in class

Or when you did

It was short and fast

I tried harder

Hoping to get nearer to you

But your feelings were cold

And clear as dew

"I'm not ready for a girlfriend," you said,

and I thought "Yeah, right."

"He'll see, I'm better than the others."

But inside, a voice whispered,

"Yeah, right."

During rehearsals I tried to be cute

Sticking close to you

In the hopes that one day you would say,

"Hey, you're special. Want to go out with me?"

The voice in my head laughs

"See I told you it was foolish,

You've ruined all your chances

I told you you'd rue this!"

"Shut up," I told the voice,

with tears in my eyes

It must have been two hours

As I cried and cried

Finally I decided to make amends

But the voice and I both agree

"This is the end."