Apology
I'm sorry for so many things
Sorry I embarrassed you
Sorry I lied
Sorry I bothered you
It was foolish to try
I guess I was lonely
But when I saw you
I wanted to be more than just me
I thought if I threw myself at you
You'd be sure to notice
But inside I think I knew
I was just making things harder
You started to make excuses
Walking away when I came near
Not talking to me in class
Or when you did
It was short and fast
I tried harder
Hoping to get nearer to you
But your feelings were cold
And clear as dew
"I'm not ready for a girlfriend," you said,
and I thought "Yeah, right."
"He'll see, I'm better than the others."
But inside, a voice whispered,
"Yeah, right."
During rehearsals I tried to be cute
Sticking close to you
In the hopes that one day you would say,
"Hey, you're special. Want to go out with me?"
The voice in my head laughs
"See I told you it was foolish,
You've ruined all your chances
I told you you'd rue this!"
"Shut up," I told the voice,
with tears in my eyes
It must have been two hours
As I cried and cried
Finally I decided to make amends
But the voice and I both agree
"This is the end."
