A/N: First of all, lets thank ProFfeSseR, because she got a time in her vacation to proofread the story. And you guys know that she rocks on... so: THANKS!
Kylie1403 - Huahuahua. Well... I'm not going to say if they are going to work things out. Huahua. Roll. Because ya know... you wouldn't keep reading if I say "oh, they will be all lovey-dovey again sooner". Thanks for reviewing.
A-Karana - Yeah, it is always a chance. Rory is their daughter and they will talk, as they need to decide what is the best for her.
LoVeLuKe - off: I love Luke too! He is just so grumpy, the best friend that anyone can have, and ya know that tattoo... gosh he is hoootttt! Anyway I laughed hardly because of your review! I've forgot about the Ross/Rachel thing. But they won't be mad at each other, because they know how things happened. And well, if you kill me, the police will have to find out who did it. Then, they will check my e-mails and go after you. And once you're in jail you won't be able to write an end to the fanfic. And you don't know my password anyway. Huahuahua
LukeNLorelaifan - Divorce? Hum... let me think... yeah, they will. Oh wait a minute! No, they won't. Yeah they will...no they won't. As I would tell ya... hehe. You'll have to read and find out. It is good to be evil. :)
Monerly - Mon! Honey! There I was reading, when you said "by the way it's me! Hehe Carol." Huahuahua. I love you, friend. Thanks a lot for reviewing. I cried too when I wrote this part. Keep reading. Then you'll want to kill me as everyone wants right now.
VeroSNM- Yeah. She didn't tell Sookie, because she is too sad to talk about the thing. She isn't even talking with Luke... I am happy that you liked the flashback, it was very fun to write it.
VeroSNM - Again. Hehe. I know that was sad. I cried, and cried, and cried awhile I wrote the L/L talk. The tears rolled down my face, and sometimes I had to stop and take a break. So you like long chapter, huh? Me too. It takes the whole week to write but they are the best ones. I think. This one has 8 pages. Oh I LOVE you for loving the chapter. Thank you very much for letting this huge review.
Well. I still don't know when the next chapter will be up. And the reasons are two: Laura are still in vacation, and I didn't wrote anything. You would ask why as I am in vacation (it is getting over. Tuesday the classes starts again :( ) but I do have reasons, look:
I was reading Harry Potter and the half blood prince I was so sad because of the person that died on the book that I hadn't any will to write. When I was better, I've got a great idea for a fanfic about James and Lily (Harry Potter characters) and I had to write it. My little sister was sick so she was at home and I had to take care of her.But on Monday I'll start with the chapter 17. I promise. Okay, I won't say anything more, so you can read.
Chapter 16 – Getting even with "dad"
It was 9:10 p.m. and Rory was already becoming nervous. She arrived home early, 20 minutes ago, and didn't found her parents at home. She searched the house for a note from either one of them but found nothing. And now she really needed to talk to her mother, Lorelai's cell phone was off. When she heard the door opening, she ran towards it and saw Lorelai looking at her, miserable.
Red eyes, messy hair, messy outfit, wet face, tears never stopping to roll down. Even without knowing what happened, Rory wrapped her arms around her mother and hugged her tightly. Lorelai on the other hand stood still, her arms aimless, her knees weak.
When Rory pulled apart, she closed the door, placed her arm around Lorelai's waist and helped her mother towards the couch. Lorelai sat down.
They kept silent and Rory kept squeezing Lorelai's hand to let her know that she was there.
— Mom? — She lifted Lorelai's chin and she had to look up at her.
— Huh? — She moaned. Rory hesitated for a while, but she had to know what was going on before she could help her mother.
— What happened? What is going on these days?
— I don't... — her voice trailed off. Rory squeezed her hand a little tightly. — Our lives, Rory. — She murmured.
— What about our lives? — Rory was becoming even more nervous. What was going on?
— It's fading away. Slipping out of my hands. It is... — she shook her head sobbing.
— Mom. — Rory started seriously but still softly — I've wanted to talk to you about it the whole week. I know that you are really, really sad about the baby. And all the stuff we were going to have. I don't know how much you are suffering, because I am so sad mom, but I know that I can't be as sad as you are. But mommy — she caressed Lorelai's cheek — it's going to be okay. No one is going to replace the baby, but you can have another one. Even 2 or 3 if you want. — Rory forced a smile. She could feel that her hand became wet with the tears on her mother's cheek.
— It is over, Rory. It is over, — she kept repeating over and over. Rory hugged her.
— It is not over, the doc said you can still have another child. Please mom. — Rory started to cry as well — I don't like to see you like this. I don't like to see you suffering like you are right now. Mommy... — Rory hugged her tightly.
— Luke and me. — Lorelai said suddenly, Rory loosened her grip to look her mother straight in the eyes. — It is over. — Rory kept looking at her, trying to convince herself that she didn't heard what she heard. She looked at the floor, her shoes were suddenly very fascinating.
— Over over? Like divorce, over? — she asked quietly, still looking down.
— No! — Lorelai exclaimed — Divorce... no... divorce... — her voice trailed off. Divorce, she hadn't thought about that. They were in trouble, but divorce... divorce? Would they get divorced? — We... we aren't getting divorced... — Rory felt some kind of relief. She looked up again.
— But you said it is over mom... — her legs were trembling — What happened? — she asked softly. Lorelai turned to her, both of them gazing in each other eyes. Lorelai took a deep breath.
— Luke saw Chris and me. Chris kissed me and Luke misunderstood everything. — Rory was shocked. It is always about Christopher.
— He did what? — Rory yelled, taking Lorelai by surprise — Christopher did what? How could he? — Rory stood up angrily. — Why did he do it?
— Because... that jerk thinks that he can have a family. Him, you and me. — Lorelai shook her head disapprovingly — I still can't believe he did that.
Rory walked around the room in big steps, inhaling and exhaling, trying to calm herself. Christopher always had to do stuff like that. He always had to come into anybody else's life without asking permission. That twelve years old kid there was suffering because of a stupid mistake Christopher made.
— But it was his fault mom. Christopher's fault. — Rory was trying to assure her mom — Dad won't be mad. Look, he kissed you, but so what? You don't love him. You don't have to think that it is over between you and dad. Dad will understand. I am sure mom, positive, all the positive the world holds... he... — she stopped, crying again — He will understand, he will. — she said, more to herself then to her mother. She wanted it to be truth. Lorelai stood up and walked towards her. She opened her arms and Rory ran into it like a little girl.
— He saw us, babe. He saw us. — Lorelai rubbed Rory's hair, while the girl realized that her world was fading away just like Lorelai realized before, and like Luke realized before.
— Mom, please tell me that it isn't your fault. Tell me that you didn't want to kiss Christopher. Please mom, please. — Rory begged.
— I didn't kiss him back. I don't have anything to do with it. Maybe I am just too pretty so that no one can resist me. — she tried to joke.
— Explain everything to dad, you two have been together for so long. I can't remember my life before Dad appeared.
— He already understands baby. — Lorelai told her and that confused Rory even more.
— So why do you say that it's over?
— Rachel kissed him. — Lorelai said painfully.
— Is today the "Stars Hollow's official kiss a married person festival"! And who is Rachel? — Rory asked angrily.
— She is Luke's ex-girlfriend. His high school love, his teenage love... whatever that bitch is.
— Do I know her?
— I guess so. She was at the diner the other day, sitting on a stool near of us. She has blond curly hair... had a bag with her... and a camera...
— I do remember her, vaguely... — Rory stood still but she couldn't keep quiet when her life was falling apart — It was her fault. Wasn't it?
— Yeah. — Lorelai murmured.
— Dad has nothing to do with it.
— I know, babe. I know. — Lorelai said sadly, sitting back on the couch as she couldn't support her weight any longer.
— If you know that it was her fault, if Dad knows that it was Christopher's fault, why? Why it is over? You just decided that it's over? I mean, I know that you are sad because of the b... of what happened, but is it a reason enough to break up a marriage? — Rory asked nervously, sitting down next to Lorelai.
— We didn't break up. It's that I need some time off, to think about my life. I have to think about how I am going to work through these things. Rory, I know that this is difficult for you. Luke is your father, no matter what anyone else says. And if we really... — Lorelai swallowed hard — break up, or even... — she took a deep breath — divorce, he will always be "Luke, your daddy". No mater what. Understood? — Lorelai asked and Rory nodded.
— It's not me I'm concerned about, mom. I know that you'll always be my mom, and Luke will always be my dad. Because he chose it and we love each other. But what about your life, huh? What will happen with you two if it ends? What mom? — Lorelai kept silent — He is the love of your life. You are the love of his life. You can't deny it. — Rory bit her lips as Lorelai looked at her, more miserable than possible.
— I know, Rory. But we can't keep going on like we're doing now. Now that we had to support each other the most, we barely talked. We aren't acting as one person like we used to do. Like we're one. It feels like we're strangers Rory. Strangers in the same house, in the same bedroom, in the same bed. Strangers in a marriage. It can't go on like this.
— And taking a break of everything will make things better? If you do that, take this time off, you certainly won't come back to the way you were. The perfect couple. — Rory said softly but yet serious to let her mother know what she was doing.
— Nothing is perfect. — Lorelai said angrily — and nothing is forever. — she stood up.
— Where are you going? — Rory asked confused.
— Taking a bath... and to bed afterwards.
— Mom... — Rory started.
— I don't want to talk about it anymore. — Lorelai looked at Rory one last time. — Call me if you need anything. — Rory nodded.
— Okay.— and with that Lorelai climbed the stairs leaving a shocked and sad Rory sitting on the couch.
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— Boss? Are you here? — Caesar asked from the bottom stair. — Boss? Can I close the diner? — Caesar didn't hear an answer. He waited a little longer but nothing came. He seriously thought about entering the apartment. He knew that Luke was there and that he obviously didn't wanted to be bothered. Since the diner was in his charge he decided that he could close it — Okay. I will close. Bye boss. See you tomorrow. I'll open the diner again tomorrow so I will take the key with me.
Luke didn't answered again so Caesar just shrugged, locked the door and left.
Upstairs, Luke was sitting on his old bed with a bottle of beer in hands. Luke drinking beer in his apartment. It has been a long time since he did that last. He had broken up with Rachel. Rachel...
Rachel and Christopher... a match made in hell.
He lay down on his back, looking up at the ceiling not thinking about a thing. He just let the feeling of failure take him over as the alcohol hit his veins.
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Rory made a pot of coffee, opened the cookie box and grabbed a strawberry muffin. She put it all on a trail and went towards her mother's room. There she found the wardrobe open and Lorelai's dirty clothes in a corner on the floor. She put the trail on the nightstand and sat on the bed. Less then 3 minutes later, Lorelai came from the bathroom and looked at Rory confused. Rory looked at her mother and gave her a sympathetic smile. Lorelai faked one, just so her daughter wouldn't get even sadder. Rory walked towards her and kissed her cheek.
— Coffee, cookies, muffins... — Rory said temptingly. Lorelai gave her a small smile.
— Thanks, hon'. — Lorelai let herself sank into the blankets. — But I just want to rest.
— Are you sure? No coffee? — Rory asked. Lorelai shook her head in response.
— Not now.
— Okay. Do you want to watch some television? You always like having something to mock about.
— In fact, I want to be alone for a while.
— Oh. — Rory was surprised — okay then. Have a nice sleep.
Rory kissed her cheek and was about to leave the room when she added:
— I love you mommy, I really do. — Lorelai looked at her sweetly.
— I love you too, babe. You are the best daughter ever. — Rory smiled at her sympathetically and left.
She went towards her bedroom and stared at the door deciding what to do. She could read for a while, she could take a shower and go to sleep. But she also could...
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Christopher was just putting on a shirt when he heard a knock on the door. He frowned, wondering who would be at his door, as he didn't ordered anything. He walked towards the door and opened it. He pulled back, giving the person some space. Then he closed the door and gestured the person to sit down on the bed.
— How did you knew that I am here? — He asked referring to the Independence Inn.
— You want to bother mom again in the morning. — Rory said, not caring to be polite.
— What are you doing here? I thought you didn't want to talk to me.
— And after this conversation, you'll be right.
— What does that mean?
— That this is our final conversation. — Rory blinked, showing the tiredness she was feeling.
— Final conversation? — He asked frowning.
— And I expect a significant answer other than you just repeating what I say. — she said coldly. He looked at her even more surprised.
— So, what do you want to talk about? Me kissing Lorelai? — he asked. She shook her head.
— Not now. At the moment I just want to talk about things that you have been missing out on.
— For example?
— For example, when I started to crawl. When I said "mama" for the first time. When I took my first step. When I had a cold and mom freaked out about it. The first night that I slept without waking up to suckle. My first Halloween costume. My first bike, which I didn't get along with very well. My first book. — Rory started and Christopher listened to her with his arms crossed.
— All this is to point out that I am a bad father?
— I didn't finish yet. — she said seriously.
— Oooookay. — he raised his hands in the air.
— Then, you missed my addiction for coffee. My not so healthy choice in food. My first Barbie. When I got chicken-pox. When I used lipstick for the first time. When I started to be the person that I am now. When I stopped being a kid and became a girl. And how shocking is it to know that Luke was there? That my dad was there? How, Christopher, how? Not so much, huh? — she asked sarcastically.
— Rory — but she interrupted him.
— Do you know what is shocking me the most? That you are destroying my family. I always tried to be nice to you. I tried to be polite, for mom. But it has been a few months since I couldn't take it anymore. Because I wonder, and wonder, and wonder why a person that has nothing to do with me, who doesn't have to love me, who is way better for me, who really cares about me and treats me with so much respect when my real father is supposed to do it? Huh? Why? I've already studied about eggs, sperm and zygote. And I didn't figure out where Luke helped in the process. Did you?
— Rory, I... — she interrupted him once more.
— Now, the last question and I will give you time to respond: why are you destroying everything that I have, which I didn't got with your help?
He faced her, not knowing what to say or think. He knew that moment how selfish he was. How stupid he was. He had never been a real part of Rory's life, of his daughter's life. And now he just showed up to mess with it.
— I wanted to have a family with you and Lorelai. I still want.
— But you are too late.
— Now, maybe. But what about the time I proposed to your mother and she refused me? —Rory shook her head.
— Back then you were just trying to do the right thing. And it is obvious as you went to California when she "refused" you. And Christopher, you used this excuse too many times.
Christopher didn't know what to say. He didn't had something to say. She was right.
— I am so sorry. — he said sincerely. Rory looked inside his eyes and started to cry.
— When I was little I used to dream about the time that you would stop by the inn and take mom and me to move to California with you. I imagined so many times how we would have a picnic on the beach, like in those old movies. I imagined us laughing and playing... I guess that your apology was sincere. But it hurts to think that I never had it. That I needed another person to replace you. And now — she shrugged, her eyesight dimmed — just because you want to have what could have been yours before, you helped to break up my family. And no matter how many times you say you're sorry, I'll never forgive you for that. — Rory walked towards the door drying her tears.
— Rory don't go, please. — Christopher asked, almost begged. She turned around and saw a couple of tears on his cheeks.
— This time, listen to what I say. Don't come in my life again, or in my families. You've done enough damage. — And with that she closed the door behind her. Not even looking back at him. The last image of Christopher that she would have was him with a couple of tears on his cheeks.
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Lorelai's head was pounding hard and as she was crying it seemed like the ache was becoming even worse. She looked around and gazed towards her nightstand. She searched the drawers for the flask but got nothing. Then she remembered Luke had the flask in his drawer. Just the slight memory of his name made her feel terrible. But thinking about it would make her head ache worse, so she decided that she wouldn't think about him or about anything else that was sad. She visualized a scenario where she was wearing a beautiful long white dress and was running in a flower field. She shook her head at how pathetic it was. As she opened the drawer she remember the words Luke used the day they came back home from the hospital.
— You can cry. I'm here. — he said, but he didn't even had to say that as the tears were already on his shoulder — We're gonna... — she remembered that he stopped what he was saying
— We won't be okay. — she mumbled sadly, gazing him. Like she already knew what would happen
— We will, eventually. I don't know when, I don't know how, but we will. I promise you. — he whispered in her ear. She kissed his cheek and hugged him again.
The feeling of his arms holding her, supporting her, was one of the best feelings that existed. She missed it, she really did. But what she missed even more was the confidence in his voice. The confidence that he always had, but somehow that night, he didn't have it. She could see the sadness in his eyes as she could feel in hers.
'Don't think about Luke. Don't think about anything sad.' Impossible, mainly because it was all that crossed her mind.
She grabbed the flask but there weren't any pills left in it. She felt nothing but frustration. Everything was going wrong, everything. She walked towards her wardrobe and grabbed her purse because she was absolutely sure there was some aspirin in it. She grabbed it and unzipped it. She took the aspirin but when she was about to close the purse again she found a card that caught her attention. She looked at it and read.
" Doctor Patrick Wood,
Psychologist"
Lorelai kept gazing at it, but after some minutes she shook her head.
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Rory climbed the stairs and found her mother's bedroom door half opened. She looked inside and saw her mother laying, crying. She almost entered but she gave it a second thought. It was best to leave Lorelai alone, if that was what she wanted. Rory would come back later to make sure that she was covered.
The girl walked downstairs and decided to take a shower.
While the water was falling down her little body, Rory was thinking about how her life had changed in one night. She still couldn't believe that she finally told Christopher everything she had to say. The image of him looking at her asking her to forgive him made her cry. She had been so mean, she knew it. But she was so nervous.
It was no reason. When she talks to someone about Lorelai and herself, she always was the reasonable one, even being only 12 years old.
The real Rory would wait until the excitement of the moment was gone and would do something about it later. The real Rory didn't act impulsive.
But Christopher needed to know that all his acts had influence on Rory's life. And she had to tell Christopher not to show up again just because he's making too much damage. It was truth that she doesn't love him, but she also doesn't hate him. She didn't know why, because she has plenty of reason to hate him, but she just couldn't. She couldn't just walk over to him to tell him that she hates him. He was her father, if she wanted it or not. She can't choose who she loves, but she can choose who she hates and she decided that she doesn't hate Christopher.
Rory felt bad because of what she did. She felt bad because of everything she said to him. It wasn't the kind of thing she would normally do, saying something that could hurt someone else. But she did, and that proved her something she never wanted to know: she had something of her father. A little piece of her, a tiny piece of her was like her father. And this piece of her had turned against him.
Rory walked out off the bathroom, already dressed. She sat on the couch for a few minutes and then went to her bedroom and grabbed a book. When she finally realized that she was reading the same phrase over and over again for the past 10 minutes, she stood up and went towards the living room again. She grabbed the phone and walked back to her room. She made sure that she had closed the door when she dialed the number.
The phone rang 8 times and no one answered. Rory turned off the phone and decided to call again later, but something inside of her made her call again. After the tenth ring, the machine picked up.
— Daddy, it's me. Please pick the phone, please. Please daddy, I want to talk to… — she stopped talking when she heard him pick up the phone.
— Hi, Rory. — He said slightly. Rory felt her stomach fall when she heard his sad voice.
— Hey daddy. — she replied. But then she realized that she didn't know what to say. They both staid silence for almost a minute. — I love you daddy, really. You know that, right? — On the other side of the line Luke sighed heavily and nodded to himself.
— I know Rory. And I love you too, more than anything. — Rory felt the tears starting to well up again.
— Just make sure that you'll sleep okay. Cover yourself because it is very windy tonight and I don't want you to catch a cold or something. 'kay daddy? — she asked, her voice low.
— I will, Rory. I will. I promise.
— We are going to be okay daddy, the three of us. We'll all get back together and...— her voice trailed off — I just... — she took a deep breath — I know that we are going to find some way to work this all out. I know dad, I know. — she said, trying to reassure herself of the same.
— Look, Rory. I don't know what will happen. — he started but she interrupted him.
— Dad, nothing will happen.
— Rory, I don't know if everything will be... back to normal. And your mother doesn't know that either. We're going to discuss it. You are just too young to understand that. I know that you are very reasonable and that you are never too young to know something. But not when it comes to relationships... So please, Rory, don't delude yourself, okay? — he asked but she kept quiet. — Rory? — he asked softly. She took another breath to hold back a sob.
— Okay.
— Do you promise?
— I... I promise. — she lied.
— I'll always be your dad. No matter what happens between your mom and me, I'll always be your father and you will always be able to count on me. Okay?
— I'll always be your girl, your little girl. No matter what happens. — she smiled slightly.
— Now, you have to make sure that your mom will be covered tonight and that you will be covered. My little girl told me that it's getting very windy tonight. — Rory giggled and smiled.
— I will.
— Good. Good night, Rory.
— Night daddy.
— I love you.
— Back at ya. — with that both of them hung up.
Rory stared at the phone for a few seconds and put it on her nightstand. She laid in the bed, gazing at the ceiling, her head filled with thoughts. Slowly the tears started to fall down her cheeks and then on the sheets and pillow. She had tried as hard as she could not to cry. She was the one who was the strong when Lorelai lost the baby. But now, when Luke told her that maybe he and her mother wouldn't get back together, it finally hit her. Her mother had told her it was over, but she just thought that she was overreacting as always.
But now...
She held her pillow tight against her chest while she cried.
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Meanwhile...
Lorelai was completely sure she heard someone descend the stairs and after that she heard the noise of running water, probably the shower.
When she heard that, she finally realized that she didn't heard any noise for almost an hour. She wondered why Rory didn't made any noise. Maybe she was in her room reading... but wouldn't she make herself something to eat? Well, she probably ate a muffin or something like that.
When Lorelai didn't heard the water running anymore, she decided to go downstairs to check on Rory. She descended the stairs and heard Rory's voice in her bedroom. She wondered who her daughter was talking to, and she finally realized when she heard the word "dad" a couple of times. She heard her voice going from sad to giggling. Then Rory said "good bye" to him and after that she heard "back at ya". He probably said that he loves her. Lorelai face turned into what would be a shadow of a smile.
Luke was just too amazing. Lorelai went upstairs again, starting to cry once more, not realizing that her little Rory was crying as well.
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