Chapter 9

A new vision of love

Michiru passed from unconsciousness to sleep without awakening. She had dreamt of Haruka, a Haruka girl, but it was not the first time. She made those dreams so often. But when she awoke in the morning warm lights, she knew this time it was reality. Haruka was sleeping, kneeling on the floor, her head against the living room small table. Michiru didn't move. She was observing Haruka. She had put a pair of shorts and a large tee-shirt as if she was going to bed. Michiru could see now what she hadn't wanted to see before. She had girl's forms, it was obvious. And now she could see the forms of her breasts she knew she had been blind. She had been shocked, but at the same time, these images had always been in her mind. But what would she do… she wasn't against homosexuality… but she had been dating a man, and she loved Haruka as her boyfriend

Haruka suddenly awoke. Her first reaction was to check for Michiru who pretended to be asleep.

"My poor love… I'm not the guy of your dreams, honey… If only I wasn't myself. For you I would change my nature." Said Haruka to a sleeping-like Michiru.

She went to the kitchen to prepare the breakfast. Maybe Michiru would be angry when she would awake… but maybe she would just faint again.

Michiru reopened her eyes… Haruka's words had touched her. She could see her feminine forms in the morning sun. She was so beautiful… and… well… she had to admit… attractive. She wanted to get up, but she had no idea of what she would tell her… But Haruka felt her glance over her shoulder… she smiled. Michiru was playing with her… looking at her when she couldn't see, then pretend to be asleep… but it was cruel, like this she needn't talk, and Haruka was feeling like a mouse in a laboratory, evaluated… She suddenly returned to see Michiru half lying, half sitting. She suddenly fell on the sofa.

"I saw you." Said Haruka.

Michiru reopened her eyes and sat. She was scared to get up, scared to meet her lover's eyes… She was feeling like Eve after eating the snake's apple, like if some of her innocence had fade away. She discovered the world with other eyes… she was rediscovering her Haruka.

"I… I prepared you something to eat." Said Haruka.

Michiru was staring at her. Their eyes met for a while. Haruka returned to the kitchen, embarrassed. She knew she should have got dressed before doing anything else, she didn't like Michiru to see her this way… she herself didn't like to be like this when she awoke… so feminine. Michiru felt her love fot Haruka invading her… no she couldn't just stop there, she loved her to much… Michiru finally emerged from her paralysis. Now she knew what to do. She got up and followed Haruka. In a way… she had always knew she was a girl. She just trusted her too much to trust her intuition. And Haruka was Haruka, whatever her gender. Haruka was all she loved.

Haruka was cutting slices of bread in a nervous manner. Michiru knew she had to make the first step. Suddenly, Haruka felt two warm arms around her waist, and a body leaning on her back, then, sweet lips kissed her in the neck. She felt a great warm invading her body.

"Don't worry… everything's all right… I still love you."

Haruka returned and looked deeply in Michiru's eyes, there was love in them, as always when she looked at her, nothing had changed, except that now, Michuiru loved her… not him. She was relieved. All her stress and her anxiousness were gone. Michiru tightened their embrace and kissed her lovingly.

"I don't care you to be a man or a woman… I love you, that's all I need to know." Said Michiru.

"I'm sorry, I wanted to tell you everything since the first day…"

"You should have."

"I was scared, I fell in love with you at first sight when we met at the swimming pool… but later we met again… but I couldn't tell you…"

"That's not important now. Your secret will be kept, and I'll never leave you. Now everything's all right."

"You… you forgive me? I lied to you…"

"Of course I forgive you, but no more secrets between us. This one was… well… it was a big one."

"I… I'm sorry, and I'm glad. I know what I did was unforgivable, but you are still with me… I'm lucky, I'm in love with the most exceptional woman in the world, not many would have stayed with me…"

"Please, stop this now, I'm blushing. I just want us to continue to live like we did before. You know… I was surprised and… a bit shocked, but I kind of… always knew it. But I trusted you too much… I thought of it some times… you were so light, your waist was thin and the form of your eyes… but I just couldn't imagine you to have any secret for me. I'll show you something."

She went to the living room and took her drawings on the sofa, she never went anywhere without them. She showed them to Haruka.

"It's… me…"

"Yes, I think I unconsciously knew."

Haruka looked at the drawings… these images of her were beautiful. This was the first time she liked images of her as a girl. Michiru was gifted, no doubt. She hated her corpse and her femininity… but there… she liked the Michiru saw her… for the first time for so long, she was proud to be who she really was, because Michiru liked her this way. She accepted her as she was, a girl with men manners.

Everything was the same, but different in a way… Haruka went to her bedroom in order to dress. They had to go in class. Michiru stayed with her all the time. She saw her transform little by little in a man. Her clothes really transformed her. It was like she had her body. Then they left the apartment to go to Michiru's house, because she too had to get changed. Then they went to university.

Michiru was feeling strange. Everyone looked at them as they always did. They were such a perfect couple. Michiru was one of the most beautiful girls there and Haruka was the perfect guy for most of the girls around. Michiru was smiling. All those girls… they would never guess who Haruka really was. And those men who envied Haruka would never guess she was a lesbian.

The same evening, Haruka asked Michiru whether she wanted to come with her to her father's house. She was more confident now. And she hadn't forget the promise he had done to accept Michiru if she accepted her to be a girl. So she decided to introduce Michiru to her father as her girlfriend.

"Are you sure you want to do this? So early? Maybe you should talk to him before…"

"He promised. I know him. He will accept… but if you prefer to wait I'll understand. It's new for you."

"No, that's all right. It's not that new… it's like it has always been like this. Nothing really changed, only my vision of the things. You are the same, and my love for you is the same. Well… it's even stronger."

"I love you too. Before I always was worried, but now I can live my happiness without any doubt. I… I think I never been so happy in my whole life."

Michiru grabbed her hand tightly.

"So let's go and see your father…"

Haruka smiled and lead her to the car.

They arrived at the Tenoh's house before dinner time. Haruka entered the house. She had caught sight of her father car so he was home. Haruka was a little nervous. But the hand of Michiru caressing hers calmed her down.

"Dad! I'm home!" called Haruka. Her father came from the living room, a glass of scotch in his hand.

"Haruka. You home? It's been a long time. And I see you brought Miss Kaioh with you…"

"Yes. I wanted to… well… she knows everything, and she's still my girlfriend."

"Incredible… so you accepted my daughter for who she really is?" asked M. Tenoh. He couldn't hide his surprise.

"I do." Said simply Michiru.

"Well… that's… great. So I'll keep my promise. Welcome Miss Kaioh."

"Please call me Michiru." Said the girl.

"As you wish. I hope you won't blame Haruka for not telling you the truth earlier, I forbade her to do so. I don't know if she told you… but the secret of her gender must remain a secret. Her mother declared her as a boy. So if someone discovers she's a girl, we will have huge problems."

"I understand. It must have been difficult to keep this secret for so long…"

"She was born home, and then we never brought her to any hospital, we have a GP in the family who is the only other person to know about her… I must admit we've been lucky that nothing happened to her… I'm forgetting my good manners, maybe you two want to stay for dinner?"

Haruka felt relieved. Her father was acting perfectly normally, Michiru too. He had kept his promise. So they passed a nice evening with her father. Then Haruka brought Michiru back to her house and came back to her apartment. It was so empty. She had lived in it for about two months, but now that Michiru had slept in it, it seemed cold and empty without her. That night she didn't find sleep.

For her part, Michiru felt strange too… the house was so huge and cold, the only way she had to feel better was to lock herself in the room where she put her drawings and paintings. It was so different of Haruka's apartment in which she had awoken the same morning, warm and full of the sun morning, with Haruka in it. She had a new vision of the things now. She knew Haruka entirely, and she loved her more than ever. Now they hadn't any secret for each other. On her side, Haruka could leave her happiness fully. They had become nearer and being apart was so painful. Michiru didn't sleep either that night.

The following morning, a tired Haruka came to pick up Michiru at 9 a.m., there was no class and she wanted to bring her a last time to the beach before the autumn weather installs. These were probably the last sunny days of the year. And she had a plan, maybe risky, maybe premature, but she had to try. Michiru seemed as tired as she was, but when she caught sight of her, she forgot her tiredness and embraced Haruka who kissed her lovingly. Michiru passed tenderly her fingers in her short blonde hairs in a tender manner.

"I missed you so much… that's awful." Said Michiru.

"I missed you too… in fact… I didn't sleep."

"Me neither."

Maybe it was the moment. She had a chance, Michiru was feeling the same as her.

"Let's go now." Said Haruka.

While Haruka was driving, Michiru could see she was not in her normal state, she was nervous.

"Ruka… there is something wrong, tell me what is it." Said Michiru.

Haruka looked at her briefly.

"I… I'll tell you everything later."

They passed the whole day at the beach. They had come to a secret place, where nobody could see them, because Haruka couldn't just pass from a man dressing to her feminine swimming suit just like this. They swam, they kissed, they tanned… this was a perfect day, like all she passed with Michiru in fact. But she didn't tell her anything… They finally came back home at night. She thought she had to find something, in was not that difficult, she had to find a romantic setting… suddenly she stopped to the public garden. There was a splendid lake in it, and the moon was full, nothing could be more romantic than a moonlight on a lake...

"What are you doing?" asked Michiru.

"Nothing… we should go for a walk. The moon is beautiful tonight.

"Why not…"

They walked till the lake. Then Haruka returned stopped and began to talk. She had been silent all the way.

"Michiru… I have something to ask you…"

"So you will finally tell me what was in your mind all this time…"

"Yes. Well… Maybe you'll find it is premature, but… I'd like you to… I'd like to give you this."

She gave her a key decorated in blue.

"This is…"

"My apartment's key. What I'm trying to tell you is… that I'd like you to come and live with me. You know… this morning when I saw you asleep in the morning lights, when you grabbed me in the kitchen, when I awoke and that the first thing I saw was your face… I liked it. I'd like all my mornings to be this way, I want your face to be the first I see every morning when I open my eyes."

"Haruka…"

Michiru had tears in her eyes, but they were tears of joy. She threw herself in her arms and leaned her head on her chest.

"I feel the same, I want to see your face every morning too. I just can't live without you."

"You… you accept? That's… that's great!"

Haruka tightened their embrace and caressed her hairs tenderly, then she kissed her with passion. They left the lake and went home. Arriving to the apartment, the scene was nearly the same as the past night, with its kisses and embraces of wild passion, but this time, Haruka just let herself go. She drove Michiru to their bed. Haruka let Michiru lean her on the bed then they took of each other clothes… They kissed passionately.

"You… you sure this is what you want… isn't it too quick?" asked Haruka to a naked Michiru.

"You're all that I want." Answered Michiru.

Haruka smiled and grabbed Michiru to make her roll to be on top and they continued what they had began…

The following morning, Haruka awoke with a nice smelt of ocean in her nostrils and Michiru's warm naked body still in her arms.