Tommy had been gone for 1 week, Tommy had been gone for 1 week, 1 day, and 8 hours. Jude walked around in a daze, it was like someone had filled the room with smoke and she couldn't see through it anymore. She couldn't even breath. Darius had freaked out when he found out that Tommy had just disappeared, Jude told him she had no idea where he went and what he was doing, but she said she didn't think he was coming back. Sadie was very worried about her little sister who was still sick with the flu and told Jude that as soon as her classes finished in 3 weeks, she would fly where Jude's tour was stopped at and join her for the rest of it, Jude appreciated the attempt to cheer her up and thanked Sadie telling her that it would be great. Jude finally moved through her haze enough to start writing a new song. She decided she was going to perform it at her next concert, which was in New York tomorrow afternoon. (By the way this all happened after when I come around so she has not performed "another thin line" Or "there's us").
Jude had been on her tour for 5 days now and she was just starting to get used to being in a different state every two days.
Day 1/2 had been Ottawa, Day 3/4 Lansing, Day 5/6 New York City. Jude looked out her hotel window down at Time Square and watched the people walking back and forth.
JudeT: What if I was just one of those faceless people, no Tommy to worry about, no concerts, no Darius, no Mom, no dad, no Yvette. Life would be so much simpler. What if I could just disappear into the crowd? No, it'll never happen, and you know it Jude, so stop thinking like that and get back to your song.
scene changes to Jude on stage in New York
Jude: Hey everyone, I'd like to perform one of my new songs for you, it came from my heart, I hope you like it. ("There's us" by Alexz Johnson)
There's me,
Looking down at my shoes
The one
smiling like the sun
That's you
What were you thinking
What
was the song inside your head
There's us
Going on about a
band
Working out how we play our hand
I lay there
dreaming
Later all alone in my bed
If I were stupid
Maybe
careless
So were you
Not everything is supposed to come
true
Some words are best unsaid
Some love is not really love at
all
I'll keep everything I shared with you
And that's
enough
There's us
Freeze frame
I'm not about to cry
It's
too late for us to change
Why try
I've got a camera
Tucked
away inside my heart
If i'm a loser
Or just unlucky
So are
you
Not everything is supposed to come true
Some words are
best unsaid
Some love is not really love at all
I'll keep
everything I shared with you
And that's enough
There's
us
Somewhere between then and now
I looked away
When you
said we will never change
And if you think what might have
been
You'll lose today
And we've got songs to play
Not
everything is supposed to come true
Some words are best
unsaid
Some love is not really love at all
I'll keep everything
I shared with you
And that's enough
There's us
Tears are falling down Jude's cheeks as she finished her song.
Jude: Thank you New York, good night.
Jude silently put her guitar in it's case and walked off the stage. She walked around New York for hours that night, She could hardly believe that her life began and ended in a 3 week period. She'd had the best day of her life, and the worst. Funny how both began and ended with Tommy. Why does he have this power over my life? Why can't I stop loving him?
JudeT: At least you'll get a good song or two out of this Jude, that's something.
Jude walked back to her hotel room that night, she had been getting tired early lately, probably fatigue from the flu, but seriously she was getting sick of throwing up all the time, it was gross.
The next 2 and a half weeks went by in a blur, the one thing Jude was actually looking forward to since Tommy left was Sadie joining the tour, Jude was on her way to the air port to pick her up that minute.
Jude was standing in the waiting area of the airport when she saw a familiar blonde with pink luggage, Jude smiled. She had never been so happy to see her sister's dorky smile and luggage than she was at that moment. Jude and Sadie ran to each other and enveloped each other in a massive hug that knocked the breath out of them both, they hadn't realized how much they actually needed each other until they had no one left.
Jude: I can't believe I'm about to say this but God I missed you
Jude laughs
Sadie: Me too brat, me too.
Jude is helping Sadie with her luggage when she gets a really bad case of dizziness and almost falls over, Sadie alarmed grabs onto Jude and helps her over to a chair.
Sadie: Jude what's wrong?
Jude: Nothing, just part of the flu, I've had for the last month.
Sadie looking worried "Are you sure"? A month is a long time to have the flu, have you been to the doctors?
Jude: Irritably "No Sadie, I haven't it's just the damned flu ok".
Sadie looking hurt "Ok Jude I'm sorry I'm just concerned".
Jude: sighs "no Sadie, I'm sorry I've just been really irritable lately probably from lack of sleep due to barfing".
Sadie grins, dizziness, puking, and irritability and fatigue, if I didn't know better I'd think you were pregnant.
Jude's eyes bulged, she hadn't even considered the possibility, she wasn't sure if her and Tommy had used anything the first time, but she knew they hadn't the second.
Sadie staring at Jude's wide eyes, finally has a realization "Oh god Jude, tell me you didn't sleep with Tom"?
Jude just put her head down and started crying
Jude: I didn't even think about it Sadie, how stupid is that? This whole time it all makes so much sense, and I never even considered it. What will I do if I am? Tommy is gone, oh god Tommy's gone, what if I'm pregnant.
Sadie: Holding her sister, it's gonna be ok Jude, if you are, we will deal with it, we're in this together ok, I'm here for you whether you are or not, first what we need to do is go to a drug store and buy a test ok. Lets go.
Tommy looked around at his new home, his new family. Some how it just didn't seem right, He had never loved Kim, he was just a kid himself when they were together, she was a fun distraction, but his distraction cost him the ultimate sacrifice, it cost him a happy life with Jude. He glanced down at Christopher, this quiet 5 and a half year old kid who was supposed to be his son, the first time he had looked into his chocolate brown eyes a month ago when he had walked up to him at the airport, he thought in the back of his mind "he's not yours" "he can't be". Tommy chose to ignore it, and treated him as though he were his son, he had to be, if he wasn't then that would mean he had left Jude for nothing. It was a theory Tommy couldn't quite face right now, for now he would try and get to know this kid, and try and be a good father.
scene switches to Sadie pacing outside of Jude's hotel bathroom while Jude is still inside
Sadie's head jerks up as she hears the bathroom door open she looks at Jude expectantly.
Sadie: Well?
Jude: Looking worried "I don't know yet, it say's to wait 2-3 minutes for the results so I left it on the counter".
Sadie and Jude sit on one of the queen size beds in Jude's hotel suite, Sadie grabs Jude's hand and they anxiously wait for the most important 2 minutes of Jude's life.
Jude finally gets up and goes into the bathroom, a minute passed, then two, two turned into 5 and Sadie began to worry.
Sadie: Jude, are you ok? Please come out and talk to me.
No response
Sadie unable to contain herself walked up to the door and knocked "Jude" "I'm coming in".
Sadie opened the bathroom door and saw her little sister sitting on the floor in front of the toilet with her head in her hands, Sadie placed a hand on Jude's shoulder, Jude looked up and her eyes were mysteriously calmer than they had been when she first walked into the bathroom. So Sadie assumed the test was negative.
Sadie: Oh thank god, I'm so happy for you Jude.
Jude: Tommy is gone Sadie and he isn't coming back, I've accepted that, even if he did come back, I wouldn't want him. I know what I have to do now, I have to take care of my baby, I'm going to be a good mom, I'm going to show this baby how much I love him or her and it will never have to deal with Tommy Quincy or the fact that he walked out on us.
JudeT: Your lying Jude, you want him back, you need him. No I don't, I'm going to do this myself, and he'll never know, I wont let him know, he lost that right the day he walked away and didn't even say goodbye.
A tear slowly dropped from Jude's eye but she quickly brushed it away, no more tears.
Sadie just sat next to Jude with a blank look on her face, she knew that in the 2 minutes that it took for the little stick in Jude's hand to turn blue, both of their lives had changed, forever.
