Don't worry guys Tommy plays a significant role in this FF it just takes a little while for him to get here. I hope you enjoy the next part and thank you for reviewing they mean alot to me. So keep reviewing and I can't wait to post the rest.
Kaitlyn Marie Harrison Quincy was born at 12:46pm on her daddy's birthday January 30th. She was 7 lbs 8 ounces, she had a full head of dark brown hair and ocean blue eyes. She was the most beautiful thing Jude had ever seen in her life. She held her daughter in her hands after a grueling 12 hours of labor and knew in her heart that every second of heartache and pain she had endured in the past 9 months was worth it, she looked into her baby girls eyes and knew that nothing would ever amount to what she had just experienced, her whole life had changed she couldn't be selfish anymore, everything she did now would have to be for her Kaitlyn, her beautiful Kaitlyn. Jude looked over at Mason who was asleep in a chair next to her bed, he had really come through for her. The whole time when Jude wanted to give up he was right there yelling and telling her that she couldn't and supported her 100. It's funny everyone that came into the room thought he was the babies father and well Jude didn't correct them, it was much easier than explaining the truth. Jude had already called Sadie and she would be there later in the day to give Jude a chance to rest. She couldn't believe it. She was a mother now, she looked down at her daughter and took a deep breath.
JudeT: She looks so much like him, she's beautiful.
Kaitlyn had been a good baby so far, she just gurgled and went back to sleep. Jude couldn't wait for the next chapter of her life to start and she knew it had begun when she had the beautiful little angel in her hands. Even if it meant going without Tommy, she missed him now more than ever, she was wondering if she had made the right decision to leave or not, she really didn't know. She wished he was there, holding her hand and looking at the daughter they had made out of love. He wasn't though, he was off at the studio, how could he be so close yet so far away? Just then Jude had the perfect Idea for a song. She put her baby back into her little incubator and leaned over to her night stand and pulled out a pad of paper and a pen and began writing lyrics down. About 2 hours later she had her full song and knew it would have been a hit if she had it recorded. She missed music so much she didn't know what to do, she couldn't exactly show back up in Toronto and ask for her job back, but she couldn't not sing anymore either. She didn't want to deal with all these thoughts so she went to sleep and didn't stir again until Sadie came to visit.
Sadie walked into Jude's hospital room and ran over to her little sister and gave her a huge hug.
Sadie: Wake up sleepy. Where's my neice?
Jude opened her eyes sleepily: She is in the nursery, I'll buzz a nurse and have them bring her out.
Jude did so and waited patiently for them to bring Kaitlyn to her room. Mason had woken up and the three of them shared mindless conversation until Kaitlyn was brought into the room. Sadie let out a small gasp.
Sadie: Oh my gosh Jude she's beautiful, she looks just like you and To….oh I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that.
Sadie had a look of horror on her face.
Jude smiled at her sister: It's ok Sades that's the first thing I thought of too. She does look so much like him and I love her all the same, love her more than I thought was possible. Jude just sighed and stared at her new family. Sadie, Mason, and Kaitlyn.
Jude and her daughter stayed at the hospital that night and the next day officially moved into Mason's apartment. He had a 3 room condo and plenty of room and wanted to help Jude with the baby. So they decided it was the logical thing to do. Mason was always working and didn't really have any new friends in La and they just missed each others company. Kaitlyn had her own room and so did Jude.
Tommy woke up on the day of his birthday and something just didn't feel right with his world. He hadn't seen Jude in so long, unless you count the girl he had seen the week before but he couldn't be sure it was her. In his heart he knew it had been but he was in a sort of denial about it. He felt old, really old. He was 25 years old and felt like a failure. A year ago he was a hot producer with a great career, He had Jude, and everything was right with his world. Today he was 25 without a wife, kids, or that great of a career. He didn't have Jude and that is what killed him the most. The whole day he just walked around his house in a daze, he hadn't shaved in days, and knew he could have used a shower but couldn't seem to care. He sat down on the couch around 4pm and flipped through the channels stopping only when he had seen Jude's face. It was the music video that had been released about a 4 months after he had left, he hadn't even known it existed.
The scene starts with Jude laying awake in bed, the alarm clock reads 3am. She is crying and staring at a picture of her and a man that looks remarkably like Tommy.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
The scene switches to Jude and the man that looks exactly like Tommy and there are a ton of flash back scene's of them together, some with them arguing and Jude crying, and then there was one where the man was crying and Jude was wiping his tears, and vice versa
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
The scene is of Jude staring up into the eyes of the man lovingly as they embraced each other
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Scene switches to Jude sitting on the floor of a bathroom crying and holding her stomach like she was in pain.
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
Jude tossing and turning in nightmares
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
Jude standing and watching as a moving truck drives away down the street she is crying and heart broken
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
The video ends with Jude drying her tears and walking away with guitar in hand to write a song
Tommy just watched the video in awe, he knew he had hurt her by leaving but he never knew he could have hurt her that bad, to see the pain in her eyes as the video went on had broken his heart and he knew that if he could get Jude to forgive him it would be a miracle and for the first time in a long time he broke down and cried because he was terrified he would never get the chance to make it up to her.
Jude stared down at the full journal in her hands, she had written 3 quarters of her 4th album and couldn't record it, she was so frustrated. She had all this inspiration in the 3 months since she had Kaitlyn and needed a place to channel it but the only thing that ever worked for her was singing and writing songs. She was so torn, she loved being a fulltime mother and just hanging out with Kaitlyn and Mason but her bank account was slowly dwindling and she knew that she would have to do something she told herself that she never would again. She was going to have to eat crow and tell Darius that she wanted to come back to work for him, but she had a few tricks up her sleeve yet. She wasn't going to be coming back to Toronto there was nothing there for her, she knew that. She had been talking to Mason about joining the G Major in California and he was understandably worried that she wouldn't be able to work with Tommy, but she was adamant that she could do her job, and she would do it great.
Jude wasn't so sure though. She missed Tommy with every waking moment, it was easier when she would spend time with her daughter because she filled part of the hole that Tommy had left but she knew that no one could fix her entirely but him. Spending time with her family always made her feel better but it hurt to watch Sadie and her boyfriend Caleb holding hands and stealing kisses, It just reminded her of Tommy, but she was happy that her sister finally found someone who she connected so deeply with and they were on the same level. She could tell they were in love and Sadie had confessed to Jude that she thought he might propose next month it would be their un official 6 month anniversary. Caleb had been the tour guide of the campus the first day that Sadie had went to the campus and it had been love at first sight for both of them but they hadn't officially gotten together until Sadie had moved into her dorm 2 months later. Caleb was a senior and would be graduating in June he wanted to be a lawyer and Jude thought they made the cutest couple and she wished them the best. She'd never seen Sadie so happy and sexy Sadie had finally become a mature grown up.
It was bittersweet seeing her sister so happy and being with the one she loved. If Tommy had never left maybe we'd be married right now Jude thought to herself. Hmm can't focus on the past, only the future and as she heard the baby cry she smiled, and the present.
