Jude had hired a babysitter for her first day of work, she was so excited yet so scared. She didn't want to leave Kaitlyn with a babysitter so soon, it broke her heart but she knew she was doing the right thing. She had finalized all the paperwork just a week ago and was now an official client of G Major California. She smiled at the thought, but suddenly those fears snuck back into her mind the way they had since she'd made her decision. She was going to have to face Tommy again for the first time in more than a year.
Jude walked into G Major and took in the sight, she'd never really looked around the 2 times she had been there surprisingly it looked almost exactly like G major in Toronto just furniture placed around a little different. Jude walked into Jerry's office and smiled at the generously plump man about 45 years old.
Jude: Hi Jerry, I'm all set whenever you are.
Jerry: Hey there Jude, Ok well let's get you all set up in a studio with your producer ok?
Jude silently followed Jerry into Studio B, she was mentally preparing herself for the moment when her and Tommy would meet each other eye to eye for the first time in over a year.
There he was, he looked so handsome but he had a tragically sad look about him. He was sitting at the soundboard with his headphones on and a pen in this hand, he was writing stuff down as he bopped his head to whatever he was listening to. Jude looked over at the CD case in his other hand and realized he was listening to her 3rd album. She smiled, but it hurt her at the same time to know that he was still holding on. Jerry tapped Tommy on the shoulder and when he looked up and realized who was standing there, his eyes clouded over.
TommyT: God she's beautiful, look at her, she's an angel.
JudeT: Look at those eyes, no wonder I fell in love with him.
Jerry: Tommy you remember Jude right? Well your going to be her producer again, she just joined up and I want to have her 4th album out quick, D says if we can get it out in the next 6 months you both get a big bonus so let's get to work.
Tommy and Jude just stared at each other mumbling an "Ok" "yeah".
Once they were alone neither one wanted to be the first one to say anything but Tommy knew he'd screwed up so he decided to suck it up and just say something to her.
Tommy: You look great Jude, really. I mean you always looked great but your more beautiful than ever. He realized he was rambling like an idiot.
Jude: Thanks Tommy, you look good too.
Tommy knew she was lying, he hadn't shaved in days, he didn't even know if he'd showered that day, but was pretty sure he had. Truth was he was a wreck without her, and wasn't afraid to admit it, she brought the best out in him and he knew he had to get her back. He only hoped it wasn't too late.
Tommy: So wow, it's been a long time. How have you been? He looked at her earnestly, pleading with his eyes for some mercy, he wanted her to tell him that him leaving her was the worst thing that ever happened to her and she couldn't live without him.
She just smiled and said: I've been living Tommy. And that is all that she said.
Tommy and Jude worked in silence except for the occasional strumming of a guitar, and the random lyrics that Jude was trying to fit into a song. She had some great songs that she had written in the past 8 months and wanted to record those as soon as possible so she told Tommy that she had a lot of new material. Tommy agreed that they should record something quick because Jerry and D wanted a single on the charts asap. Jude pulled out her journal and looked through it, occasionally looking at Tommy while he was preoccupied. He noticed this and looked at her while she was reading her journal.
Jude finally looked at Tommy and said " Ok Tommy, I know what song I want to do first".
Jude started recording her song that day, and finally had it finished by 8pm that night. Tommy looked over at her with a smile on his face, they had recorded the first song together in over a year and it was going to be a hit, the lyrics hurt him though because he knew that they were about him. Then again not to sound conceited but she wrote her best music about him. Jude and Tommy took the disc with her first song on it over to Jerry's office and told him they had finished. He took the disc from Tommy and put it in the player and sat down listening to it. (What hurts the most by Rascal Flatts)
I can take the
rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I
can take a few tears now and then and just let 'em out
I'm not
afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you
gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend
I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the
most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And
watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have
been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to
do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere
I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when
I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up,
getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could
do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in
my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is
being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk
away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing
that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the
most was being
so close
And having so much to say
And
watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have
been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to
do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to
do
Tommy just stared at Jude while her sultry voice filled the room. He listened to every word and felt the heartache that they brought to her as if he had been the one to sing them. When the song was finally over Jude had to excuse herself from the room.
Tommy just stared after her.
Jerry: Wow, that was some powerful stuff. I think this is going to be a hit. Tell Jude I said "good job" and that we will probably release this to the radio stations as soon as I clear it with Darius.
Tommy mumbled a "great" as he quickly walked from the room to find Jude.
She was standing in the doorway gathering her things from the studio they had been working in that day. Tommy thought Jude was talking to herself at first but then realized she had a cell phone to her ear. He only caught the end of the conversation but it was enough to chill his blood.
Jude: Ok ok, I'll be there as soon as I can, I love you too.
Jude hung up her phone and grabbed the rest of her stuff and started to walk out of the room when she finally noticed Tommy standing there with an ocean of pain in his eyes.
Jude: Good night Tommy
She started walking again when Tommy grabbed her arm, it was the first physical contact they had in over a year, Jude jumped back at the touch as though she had been shocked.
Tommy said sadly "Are we ever going to talk about it Jude"?
Jude just as sadly "There's nothing left to talk about Tommy" and with that she left G Major.
Tommy sadly thought about what he had heard her say on the phone "I love you too" Could that have been her boyfriend? Fiancee? Husband? He realized he didn't know anything about her. He just shook his head and walked out of the studio, he knew he was headed for another night of loneliness and dreams of her.
