Ok guys this is it. The moment you've all been waiting for! Lol I think you guys will love how i've chosen to end this. This is the last chapter and then there is a short epilogue. I believe in happy endings and making what you want from an ending so I ended it in a way that I think covers most of the bases. I hope you guys like it. Please review and tell me what ya think. I've enjoyed writing this story alot and I hope you enjoyed reading it. I have another Fan Fic posted it is called "Can you put the past away". So please read and review that one too! Luv, Adrienne
Jude sat in bed late at night a week later. She was watching infomercials on TV and working on a song that was stuck somewhere in the back of her head.
JudeT: you know why the song won't come Jude, it's because your producer hates you and you haven't seen him in a week.
Jude: Shut up and stop talking to yourself you weirdo.
She really had messed up though. The whole week after the wedding she kept expecting him to show up at the studio and to accept her apology. No such luck. She had no idea where he was. All Jerry would tell her was "He's taken a leave of absence". What the hell was that supposed to mean? He's just gone? Could he really have just left her all over again? It's not like she didn't deserve it this time but now he knew about his daughter and he'd left. So basically what she'd thought would have happened did, she was right about that. How did everything get so messed up? She had plenty of time to think about things lately. Mason was gone on his tour. She smiled thinking of a few days before when he'd offered to cancel his tour so that she wouldn't be alone. He was such a good friend. Jude had told him to stop being silly and to get his but back on the bus. He was going on that tour and when he came back in 2 months everything would be fine again. So he did. Jude just wished she had felt the same confidence in her declaration then she really did. So here she was alone again with no one to love her. She glanced down at her sleeping daughter. Ok I'm not alone, I have the best thing in the world. My little girl but still she deserves a father, what was I thinking? He had a right, no matter what he did he had a right to know about her. Now I'm no better than Kim. She sighed in disgust at herself.
She got up and turned the baby monitor on her nightstand on. She walked downstairs to make herself a snack. She glanced at the clock on the counter it read 2:35am. She knew Kaitlyn would be up in less than 4 hours so she would have to hurry up and get some sleep. She looked through the freezer and then shut it. She opened the cupboard and found a box of strawberry poptart's and smiled thinking of their first morning together.
Flashback
Tommy and Jude are on their second cups of coffee, and are eating pop tarts and eggs.
Jude: I really like this food combo here, I mean you have healthy, and she picks up her pop tart "yummy goodness"
Tommy: Laughing at Jude, well no one ever accused you of being normal
Jude: "Yeah, but you love that about me". She looks over at him hoping what he said the night before, hadn't just been said in the moment.
Tommy: Without even blinking says, "Yeah, you're right, I do"
End Flashback
How can things be so different now? She sighed and took a poptart from the box and walked to the breakfast nook and sat down. No sooner than she sat down someone knocked on the door.
Tommy was sitting in his stool at the bar and honestly had no idea why he was there. He knew he should just suck up his pride and call Jude but he didn't. Why? I'm such a jackass Tommy thought to himself. Instead of calling Jude like he should he just told the bartender to pour him another one. He stared down into the cup he had in his hand and put it down as fast as he could. He jumped up from the stool as if he'd been shocked.
TommyT: Why am I here? I'm no better than him. I'm running away from my problems and drowning them in alcohol what have I become?
Tommy paid the bartender and then pulled out his cell. He figured he should probably call a cab with as drunk as he was he knew driving was out of the question. He sat out front of the bar waiting for the cab to show up. Once it did he stumbled over to the car and got in.
Cab driver: Where to?
Tommy: 5th and Central.
The driver could sense that it was not a time to make light conversation and left Tommy to his thoughts which were at the moment taking over his brain. 20 minutes later and the cab pulled up in front of a pretty 2 story condo in the heart of La. Tommy threw a 50 at the cab driver mumbling a "thanks" and "keep the change".
Tommy walked to the door trying to steady himself as he got to the door he felt as though he was going to be sick to his stomach. He took deep breaths and told himself to calm down and get it over with. He knocked lightly on the door. He was about to knock again when he heard the chain being slid over and the dead bolt unlocking.
:Tommy? What are you doing here?
Tommy drunkly slurring his words "Hi baby, I've missed you can I come in"?
Jude: Tommy what are you doing here?
Tommy was obviously drunk when he replied "Hi baby, I've missed you can I come in"?
Tommy started to stumble a bit as he lost his balance and fell forward. Jude caught him just in time but it was definitely quite challenging trying to keep up a man that out weighed her by a good 50 lbs. She stumbled with him to the couch and laid him down.
Jude looked down at Tommy and smiled. He was already unconscious before he had even hit the couch. She walked over and closed the door then walked to the closet in the hallway and grabbed a thick blanket and a pillow. She laid the blanket on Tommy and picked his head up and laid the pillow beneath him. She just stood there staring at him sleep for a few minutes then leaned down and kissed him on the cheek.
Jude: I love you Tommy she whispered then walked up the stairs to go sleep with their little girl.
When Tommy opened his eyes the next morning he closed them immediately. Why was this room so damn bright? He had no idea where he was but wherever it was there was bacon cooking and coffee brewing and that was enough for him to attempt to join the land of the living once more. Once he did he managed to keep them open for a few moments. He felt as though he'd been hit by a bus and what the hell was all that noise coming from? Tommy stood up and followed the smell of coffee towards the kitchen. He was a few feet away when he saw Jude standing at the stove singing "someday" and talking to Kaitlyn who was sitting in her highchair making unintelligible noises. He just stood back and watched the scene unfold. This was right. He realized that everything in the past didn't matter anymore this is where he belonged. Waking up to Jude's voice singing to their daughter. Daughter? God he was a father for real this time and it didn't feel anything like the Christopher situation, he could feel it in his bones. This was his family now and he was going to fix things so that they could be together for real.
Tommy: This is right Jude.
Jude jumped. She hadn't known he was standing there. She turned around and asked him how he was feeling after the bottle of tequila he'd been courting that night from the looks of him. Tommy smiled at her.
Tommy: your not mad about me showing up at your place at what time was it anyways?
Jude: around 3
Tommy: I'm sorry about that Jude.
Jude walked over to Tommy "No Tommy I'm sorry. I'm the one that's been messing things up lately".
Tommy: Yeah but I've done my fair share of messing things up too. I'm ready to stop this Jude if you are? I don't want anything keeping us apart anymore. We belong together, the 3 of us.
Tommy looked over at his little girl who was playing with her spagettios and getting them everywhere. She was beautiful he couldn't believe he'd helped make her.
Jude could see where his gaze had shifted "Do you want to hold her"?
Tommy nodded. Jude walked over to where Kaitlyn was making her mess and grabbed the washcloth off of the table and began to wipe her up. She started to fuss as she always did when she had to get clean. Jude picked her up from her highchair and handed her to Tommy. He looked so scared.
Tommy: What if I drop her?
Jude: I'll have to kill you.
Tommy looked horrified. Jude laughed "I'm kidding Tommy, your not going to drop her" Just make sure you support her head ok?
Tommy looked down at the little girl in his arms. She had stopped fussing the second Jude had laid her in his arms. She was staring up into his eyes and started laughing when Tommy smiled at her. He started talking to her and she would reach up and play with his face and in that moment Tommy fell in love for the first time since he had met Jude. His heart was no longer his it belonged to the beautiful little girl in his arms that he had made with the other beautiful girl that held his heart for the past 4 years. He looked over at Jude with tears in his eyes.
Tommy: She's really mine isn't she?
Jude: yeah she is, we did good Tommy, we did good.
Tommy: Is it crazy Jude? Is it crazy that I already love her? More than I've ever loved anyone in the world even you.
Jude smiled, she knew exactly what he meant "no Tommy I know what you mean, the first time I saw her all I could think about was how can I love this tiny person so much when we just met? She was beautiful then too. Your dark hair and sapphire eyes. I have some pictures if you want to see them. Jude walked over to the shelf in the living room and picked up a photo album. When she looked back Kaitlyn had fallen asleep in Tommy's arms. He looked as if he was going to cry. He held her like he would a porcelain doll. It was the cutest thing Jude had ever seen.
Jude walked over to Tommy and pointed to the crib where he could put her down. Tommy looked hesitant to put her down but did so gently non the less. Jude turned to sit on the couch with the photo album in her hands but Tommy turned her to face him. Jude looked up into Tommy's eyes. There was so much she could see in them. Hurt, joy, happiness,failure. She just wanted to make It go away for him.
Jude: You'll never know how much I've beat myself up for lying to you all this time Tommy but I hope you can understand that I did it for Kaitlyn and myself. When you left I thought I'd die, but I didn't. I found out I was pregnant on tour a month after you left and I didn't know what to do. Sadie was with me and she took care of me until I had Kaitlyn. We moved into the mountains an hour from here and I honestly thought that I could live like that just holed up with my little girl while everyone else continued on with their lives but I was wrong Tommy. I needed my music, I needed my friends, and I'll just say it, I needed you most of all. That little girl needs her father. I knew it but I tried to ignore it and pretend that I was enough but I'm not. She needs you and she deserves to have you. You deserve to have each other and I'm so sorry for taking that away from you.
Tommy watched intently as Jude confessed everything that was in her heart. He loved her he knew but he was afraid that they would mess things up again.
Tommy: I love you Jude. I don't think I'd be able to take it if we screwed things up again. I want to be a father, I want to be everything you two need and most of all I want to be a husband, your husband.
Jude had a look of shock on her face "What"?
Tommy smiled "You heard me. I want to be your husband".
Tommy pulled a ring out of his pocket and got down on one knee. He held the ring up to her hands it was beautiful it had a thin white gold band and tiny diamonds in the shape of a small star.
Tommy: I know we've both screwed up Jude but when I think back to the days I've been without you and Kaitlyn. They were the worst of my life. I didn't know which way was up or down and all I knew was that if you felt even a quarter of what I was feeling then it must be love. I saw you at your concert and the sadness on your face almost killed me but it also gave me hope. Hope that you still loved me and would give me a second chance. You were right, I never would have ran out if I'd known about Kaitlyn because I'm not that kind of guy but I can understand that you wanted me to want you for you and not just because we have a child. Well the truth is I bought this ring before I knew about Kaitlyn and I would have proposed without her being here but she was a gift I never could have foresaw. So please make me the happiest man alive and marry me? Let's be a family and have a life together?
Jude had silent tears of joy streaming down her face. For the past 4 years her life had been leading down to this moment right here. All the heartache had been worth it. She finally had her man and she wasn't going to lose him again.
Jude: I love you too Tommy, the answers yes, YES!
Jude tackled Tommy in a bear hug and ran kisses all over his face. They were both laughing and had tears on their cheeks. Tommy stopped her long enough to pull her in for a deep but tender kiss filled with passion and longing.
Jude/Tommy: I love you.
