((notes from author: good day ladys, gentlemen and those who ahve yet to deside. Its time for another chapter! i'm now 17, so i thought i'd(hee hee hee)use the best of my smut ablitys... anyways...

miss featherwings: i got kratos' hair from his hair brush. i couldn't find yuans hair brush so i waited till he was asleep and peeked under the covers ;) yuan does swear alot. in fact he says a certian word startin with "f" in this chapter.

meowzy-chan: the main reason for my short chapters is lack of computer time and that i type rather slow.

nife: OF COURSE I'LL WRITE MORE!

and so here is more. just to warn you, its a tad smutty and a tad sad. also yuan swears. and for those of you who aren't in metric a millimeter is like / that much, its tiny. oh yes and i hope you all enjoy/love. or smack me cause it's to predictable.))


Kratos stared at Yuan blankly for a moment.

One long moment for Yuan to realize what he had said.

One long moment for Kratos to realize what it meant.

"I… Yuan…" Kratos wrapped his arms around the half elves waist, "Do, do you mean that?"

"What are you? Stupid?" Yuan replied before grabbing the back of Kratos' head and kissing him hard on the lips. The first drops of rainfall spit down, misting them as they broke the kiss, Yuan's mouth moving to his neck in small sweet kisses. Kratos tilted back his head and gave a soft but noticeable groan.

"I missed you, you know," the human said softly, returning Yuan's kisses. He had pulled the half elf as close to him as possible, "When ever I was sent on some stupid job. I'd dream about you."

Yuan pulled off the humans shirt, "I'd follow you. Everywhere I'd go I'd hope to see you, hope to smell you. I kept telling myself it was because of my duties as a Renegade but inside I knew it wasn't. It was you, I needed to see you, if only from afar, I needed to hear your voice."

Kratos unclipped Yuan's hair and let his cape fall to the ground, "So that's why I always felt like I was being watched…" He kissed Yuan's lower lip.

Yuan laughed, "That's normal paranoia, Kratos. Everyone gets that."

They kissed on the lips again, a light drizzle of rain falling down upon them. Yuan undid one of Kratos' belts and Kratos peeled off Yuan's now wet shirt.

Yuan broke off and they both stood there, shirtless and breathing heavy. Arms entwined, bodies mere millimeters apart.

"I gave up. Seventeen years ago, I gave up on you," Yuan whispered.

Kratos wiped away a tear that had fallen down his friend's cheek, "Anna…?"

"I didn't know what to do, I didn't want you to be anyone's but mine. But you were happy, and I couldn't take that away from you…"

"Yuan…"

"And its my fault, it's my fault she died Kratos."

Kratos smiled lightly for his sake, "It couldn't be your fault, you-"

Yuan cut him off, "No Kratos. I was there. I was there that day. I was there."

"…?"

Tears poured down his face as he explained, "We had to re-infiltrate the ranch. We were near by when we heard Kvar. And he must have heard us too, because he came in our direction. I couldn't risk exposing my men so I came out and meet him. He recognized me, and thought I'd been sent by Yggdrasill," his voice bitter as he said Yggdrasill's name, "He told me he was having problems with a slave. That one was trying to escape with its lover. I didn't know it was Anna he spoke of and I couldn't blow cover, so I told him to remove her Exsphere."

"Yuan, I…"

"I stayed to see this conflict, even though inside I knew it was wrong I couldn't blow cover. My stupid fucking cover. I stayed hidden, and when I saw it was you, I… I couldn't move, I couldn't move to help you, couldn't help her, and couldn't help the baby. I had just… froze."

Tears fell down Kratos' cheeks as he gripped him closer, "Yuan. I don't blame you. It's not your fault. I got us caught in the first place."

"I'm so sorry Kratos," Yuan sobbed, moving to break apart from him.

Kratos held him tight, "Don't leave me then," he kissed him again, "Don't leave me now."

Yuanrested his head on the swordsman's chest, kissing it tenderly, his hand sliding down to undo Kratos' final belt.


((oh looky! implied lemon! ur amazed! ur happy! (ur wishing i'd gone into WAY more detail) course i thought i'd leave the rest ur imagenation (kratosxyuan+no clothing+rain equals hot.) and now u shall review! oh yeah and heres ur present for reading!(hands out lollypops shaped like kratos and yuan) hee hee hee...))