This is a random, but necessary chapter. It is really just two big blow outs.
Just Can't Keep It Together
"Hey" Dean said when Rory awoke, finding herself in much the same situation as at the hotel with Logan.
"Are you comfortable? Am I killing your arm?" Rory asked, adjusting her head which was resting on his arm. She wanted to do the right thing. She wanted him to be happy. She didn't love him, but she needed to be loved. She needed someone to take away the hurt of what Logan had done. Though, by all means, Dean didn't have the best record when it came to hurting her.
"My arm is fine"
"And I'm happy, are you happy?" Rory asked, wanting to do the right thing.
"I'm just… trying to make sure that all this is really happening" Dean said, exasperatedly
"It is. This is right. Hey, you know what I think we need?"
"What?"
"A song. Like a song that's "our song"
"Ok..."
Something romantic, but not mushy, something that will make us remember this" o remember this, or to forget Logan? Rory wondered
"Ah, believe me, I'm remembering this" Dean chuckled
"Oh, I know" Rory reached over loaded CD into the player, "Okay. Perfect. So, from now on, no matter what you're doing, where you are, you'll stop and think of me when you hear this"Rory clicked the remote and the sounds of Sammy Davis Jr.'s "The Candy Man" began to play
"That's not gonna be our song"
"Why not? It's perfect. It's happy. It's hopeful. It has the word 'candy' in it. Hey, what is more hot than candy?"
"Pick something else. I can't stand this song" Dean grabbed the remote from Rory
"Who can take the sunrise… sprinkle it with dew" Rory sang, before Dean turned off the CD player
"God Rory, can't you be serious? Your just like your mother. You are really immature sometimes"
"Hey!"
"Calm down. You don't have the right to be angry with me, your the one that showed up out of the blue, unannounced, after months with no contact whatsoever"
"We were broken up! You don't usually contact your ex!"
"Jesus Rory, didn't you know that I loved you? I love you!"
"I... I..." Rory stammered, even though she wasn't sure why
"Rory? Say something! I just told you I love you! Thats a big deal for me to say that! You know that!"
"I'm sorry Dean"
"What? If you don't love me, then why did you just fucking have sex with me?" Dean was up and yelling now. Rory began to realize the reason she left in the first place
"I'm sorry Dean, but this is too soon for me to say if I love you"
"What do you mean too soon! I've known you for years!"
"But we stopped dating a while ago. I can't fall back in love in an overnight"
"Do you know how much I'm risking by being with you? Do you know!"
"Dean, I..."
"I'm married Rory!" Dean yelled, "I got married when you left me. I have a wife, I have my mom, dad, Clara, and the rest of the family, and who knows, I might be starting one with Lindsay. I dropped out of school Rory and got a job,five jobs to be exact. I'm risking everything, and your to vain to just say that one simple phrase to me"
"I'm leaving" Rory said quietly
"Shit Rory, why do you always do that? Always a baby, running away when things get complicated. Thats the only difference between you and your mother, she was smart enough to find who she loved and get a head start on life. You will always be alone Rory" Dean called after her as she fled down the stairs. Rory was crying, crying harder than ever before. She couldn't go talk to her mother, though she really wanted to, because she was afraid that the breakup with Logan would earn her a "told you so" and that the thing with Dean would get her a "What were you thinking!". Her mother was always there for her, but she just wouldn't understand. Twice. Twice with in a week, Rory had had her heart broken. Not that she had loved Dean, but he had still crushed her. I'm not vain, am I? Rory thought, I'm not afraid. I won't be alone forever, I just need a guy thats actually reliable. God, why is this happening to me? Everything is falling apart. Stupid, stupid, stupid. How could I have been so stupid? Rory cried the whole way back to Yale, lamenting herself with thoughts of self-doubt.
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"Rory!" Rory wheeled around from the front door, to find that there was someone sitting on her dorm couch
"What are you doing here?" Rory asked, anger and menace in her voice
"Would you mind explaining to me what the hell is going on?" Logan said, for that was who it was
"What do you mean? I have nothing to explain, it's you who does"
"No, for starters, where were you last night? I came by after being yelled at by Steph, and you weren't here. Your crazy roommate let me stay the night on the couch"
"I was out doing the same thing as you were, probably"
"What were you doing?" Logan looked concerned
"Went to Deans. Had sex. Woke up. Had a fight. Came back here" Rory said curtly
"Well that sounds like the abridged version of the story. Why the heck were you with Dean?"
"Why were you with Tara!"
"What?"
"Tara Hall, redhead, chews disgusting peppermint gum, calls you her boyfriend, waits for you outside your apartment when I go to see you. You wouldn't remember, she was probably nothing but another of your conquests, drawn into thinking that you actually cared about her and had finally committed"
"Wha... Oh! No, no, Ace, it's not like that! I swear"
"Don't call me Ace, thats a pet name. My name is Rory, but I'm not sure I should even let someone as lowly as you call me that"
"Ace, Tara was an old friend"
"She didn't seem to think so"
"No, well, I'm almost embarrassed to say this. When you left me all those messages, saying that you couldn't be with me, after that night you spent at my place, after the Tristan thing, I was depressed Rory"
"So you went and dialed up all of the girls you used over the years? You just went back as if nothing had happened, fucked them, and broke their hearts again?"
Logan was stunned, hearing the mild mannered Rory talk like this, "No, I just called one girl. I didn't even call her, I just went to a bar and started solving my problems how Finn solves everything, drinking. Tara happened to be there. We both were upset, and both were drunk.."
Rory cut him off, "Right, you and her both just 'happened' to be there,you both 'happened' to be drinking,you both 'happened' to be heartbroken, Logan I'm the one thats heartbroken!"
"Just listen to me! I, in my depressed drunken state, agreed to take her back to my apartment. We both passed out within five minuets of arriving"
"Logan, you have hurt me, hurt me a lot. Please don't make it worse by giving me your lies"
"Rory..."
"I just can't keep it together. Everything keeps falling apart. I tried to pick up the pieces, I tried to get new ones, but this puzzle has a permanent default"
"Rory, believe me, Tara was nothing, is nothing, and will never be anything, esspecially because I have you, which is better than everything. She's nothing"
"Then I guess neither am I" Rory shoved Logan out the door and slammed it in his face. Once again, Rory had done something that should have made her feel better, but it just made her feel worse.
No cliffhanger this time, sorry. However, part of my little twist happened there. Nothing special, except Rory also went and kinda cheated on Logan because she was depressed, just like he did. The twist on Bridemaids Revisited has begun, but believe me, you will know when it goes full throttle
