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Chapter 10 – Avoiding Wants of the Heart
"Alex!" Randy couldn't believe his luck. It was only a goodbye kiss to Stacy and Alex just happened to walk around that corner at the same moment. When Randy saw Alex's face, it crushed him. Her eyes were usually so full of life whether she was happy, angry, or sad. This though, was beyond all of those emotions. This time her eyes showed pure and simple defeat.
Randy thought if he could just catch her though, he could explain everything and they could finally move on. Randy didn't want to hurt Stacy, but Alex truly was the reason he had wanted to break up with Stacy. He couldn't date someone when he knew that he was absolutely in love with someone else.
"Alex!" Randy was running down the hall, trying to figure out where Alex had gone. He just wanted to explain what happened with Stacy, to her. He just hoped that she would be willing to listen.
Alex could hear Randy's calls but she refused to stop. She just couldn't handle listening to Randy anymore. Alex had been searching for him so that she could tell him how much she wanted to be with him, only to find him in the arms of another woman. How was she supposed to talk to him after something like that?
So, she did the only thing she could think of to lose him. She quickly snuck into a dark room and quietly closed the door. She listened as she heard Randy run by. Then when she was sure he was gone, she exited the room and went back the way she had come. Randy continued down the hallway searching for Alex. He finally gave up after not being able to find her and started to head back to the locker room. He needed to get ready to wrestle in the show anyways.
Alex quickly left the arena. It wasn't like she really had to be there for a house show anyways. She had decided to go just because she wanted to talk to Randy but that was the last thing she wanted to do now so she headed back to the hotel for the night.
After his performance that night, Randy wanted to try and find Alex. Instead though he ended up running into Sandra. At first he walked by her, forgetting for a moment who she was. Then he remembered that she was Alex's roommate and fellow writer so he thought that maybe she knew where Alex was. He quickly turned around and caught up to her.
"Hey Sandra." Randy said with a smile.
Sandra turned to face him. "Hey Randy. Is there something that you need?"
"Actually yeah, you're Alex's roommate right?"
Sandra looked at Randy questioningly. "Yeah."
"Okay, so do you know where she is?"
"I'm sorry Randy…but I have no idea where Alex is. She might have gone back to the hotel though."
"Would there be any chance of you telling me what hotel room that is?" Randy questioned cautiously.
Sandra sighed. "Randy, I really don't think that is your best plan. Why can't you find her? Did you two have an argument?"
"Not really." Randy answered truthfully since it wasn't like they actually had a fight. "She just might be mad at me for something that I did."
Sandra smirked. "I see. Do you want my opinion then?" Randy just nodded. "Leave her alone for a little while. She probably just needs to calm down. I'm sure the last thing she wants to do right now is talk to you."
Randy nodded understanding Sandra's logic. "Alright, I understand. Thanks for the help."
"No problem." Sandra said with a smile as she continued down the hall. Alex had told her that Randy would come looking for her. Alex had also told her to not tell him where she was because she didn't want to talk to him. Sandra just laughed to herself at the relationship between Alex and Randy. From an outsider's point of view it was actually quite interesting. Anyone could see how they both felt about each other, even while Randy was dating Stacy. Sandra figured at some point she would be able to help them get together but for now she decided to just do as Alex asked.
Randy just stood there pondering what Sandra had just said. Alex probably did just want to be left alone but Randy really wanted to explain everything to her. He didn't know how to do that tonight though so he just went back to the locker room, packed up his stuff, and returned to the hotel.
It had been two weeks and Randy still hadn't seen Alex. She had avoided him quite diligently at all WWE functions over the past two weeks. When Alex had gone home for her days off during the week she had asked a couple of her close friends their opinions of the situation and she had even called Cameran and asked her. They all agreed that eventually she had to talk to him. Alex had accepted their advice warmly but she hadn't followed through with it yet. She just continued avoiding him. She knew that Randy was getting antsy though because he kept bothering Sandra about where she was and Sandra continued to not give her away.
As for Desiree, she had gone back to her regular day-to-day routine in Boston. At least she had tried to go back to her regular day-to-day routine. The problem was that she was constantly thinking about John, which made it quite difficult to continue on with her life. She knew that she had to find John, wherever he was, and talk to him about everything she was feeling. No matter how much she wanted to though she just couldn't bring herself to take that leap.
Desiree had taken that leap at another time, with another guy, only to have her heart crushed. She knew that she wouldn't be able to handle having that happen to her again, which was why she was so cautious when it came to her relationship with John. Their original relationship had been nice but it had still ended. On peaceful and friendly terms thankfully, but it did end. Desiree just couldn't keep that out of her brain. If it had ended the first time…then, what made it different this time? What would keep them together? The answer to this question came in the form of four positive pregnancy tests. After the fourth test, Desiree finally realized that she absolutely needed to talk to John. For the good of everyone involved, especially the baby growing inside of her, she needed to talk to John.
At Raw that week, Randy arrived at the arena earlier than he had to because this was the night that he was determined to find Alex and talk to her. Of course after searching for close to an hour, she was again eluding him. He did run into John sitting on an equipment crate though. He looked sadder than his usual upbeat self.
"Hey man, what's going on?" Randy asked as he approached John.
"Hey Randy. Nothing really, just getting ready for tonight."
Randy looked at John suspiciously. He noticed no script and no gear anywhere near him so he didn't really see how John could be getting ready for anything as he claimed he was. "Really? And how exactly are you doing that without your script or your gear?"
John smiled slightly. "Alright, you caught me." John sighed. "I was just thinking about Rae again."
Randy sat down on the crate next to John with a sigh. "You haven't heard from her, huh?"
"No." John said sadly.
"Well, have you tried calling her?" Randy questioned.
"Yeah, I left her a couple of messages but she has yet to get back to me on any of them."
"Oh, I'm sorry man." Randy said with genuine concern for his friend's spirits.
John shrugged. "Its alright. I knew she didn't want to change our relationship and I was kind of forcing it on her."
"Well, why don't you cheer up? You have a couple days off coming up and you're going back to Boston right?" Randy questioned even though he already knew the answers. John just nodded. "Why don't you go out with some of your old friends then and just take your mind off of Desiree?"
"I don't know if I'm ready to move on to another girl yet."
"No, I'm not saying move on to another girl. I'm just saying, go out and have a few beers with your friends. If you meet a girl…well, then what you do then is completely up to you."
John looked at Randy questioningly. "You know, you're right. Thanks, I think I'll do that." John stood up from the equipment crate. "I really do have to go get ready now though, so I'll see you around."
"Okay, bye John." Randy replied to John as he was walking away.
Randy stood up from the crate and sighed. There was one female situation partly fixed. Now, if he could only find Alex, he could fully fix another one. Randy decided that his one way to find her depended on Sandra. He knew that Sandra had been covering for Alex at every situation throughout the past two weeks. Randy just hoped he could get through to her and make her see that he really needed to find Alex.
Alex was pacing in the writer's office with Sandra just watching her with a smirk. "What are you smiling at?" Alex questioned with slight aggravation.
"You." Sandra stated simply.
Alex crossed her arms across her chest. "Yeah, well why?"
Sandra just laughed. "You know you want to see him."
"Who Randy?" Alex laughed sarcastically. "Right…I've been avoiding him for these past two weeks just because I really want to see him."
"I think you do. You just don't know what to say to him and that is why you've been avoiding him."
"Well, what would I say to him? Hey, I just wanted to tell you that I love you…a lot…and it hurt…a lot to see you kissing another woman." Alex spat out sarcastically. "Is that what I should say?"
"Well, at least that would get the point across." Sandra said with a smile. Alex just threw up her hands in defeat and started pacing again. "I'm going to go get us some water. I'll be right back."
Sandra headed down to catering just shaking her head. Sandra knew that Alex was all kinds of crazy about Randy, she was just afraid. Then by chance, Sandra saw Randy and knew this was her chance to finally do something.
Randy noticed Sandra and immediately went over to her. "Hey Sandra. Have you seen Alex tonight?"
Sandra smiled. "Actually, I have. You knew that though, right? The question you really want to ask is if I'm going to finally tell you where she is."
Randy smirked. "You caught me." Then his confidence dwindled when Sandra didn't continue and he started fidgeting. "Umm, so are you going to tell me or not?"
Sandra smiled. "Actually…I am." Randy immediately perked up. Sandra quickly continued. "But…I'm only telling you because I think it's for the best. I'll have you know though, that Alex really doesn't want me to tell you." Then Sandra stopped unsure if she really should go on.
"Well…" Randy questioned.
After grappling with her conscience a little bit more, Sandra decided it really was for the best. "She's over in the writer's office by herself, so the two of you should be able to finally talk."
Randy smiled. "Thank you so much Sandra."
"You're welcome. But…you better be good to her." Sandra said as she crossed her arms across her chest.
"Of course." Randy said as he smiled and headed towards the office. When he reached the door he paused for a few seconds, took a deep breath, and then entered.
A/N – I'm sorry! It seems like I say that a lot but I really am. I ran into a severe case of writer's block. Plus I got loaded with a ton of work for school so I just haven't had the time to update in what seems like ages…(maybe it was only three weeks)…but anyways, here is the update. Stay tuned for the next chapter with the Randy and Alex conversation and some more unfolding of the John and Desiree drama. I hope you all enjoyed this! Thanks for the continued reviewing. Oh, and don't forget to review for this chapter too!
Kim
