Hello, my name if Tiffany and this is my fic Deity. It is a sakura x Kakashi, gaara x OC fic. AUish in the sense that timelines have been twisted or completely thrown out the window for my writing pleasure.

Summary: What they had was forbidden, and they knew it. But they were willing to face the consequences. Now, 15 years later, will the love that Sakura and Kakashi had for each other be enough to win against the secrets of the world?

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Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto or any of the characters with are in any way, shape or form dealing with the series.

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Many people ask how I came to be. Well, that is a very difficult question. You see, it weaves in and out of my life where even the most insignificant detail maybe the answer, or it may just be another piece of the puzzle. The actions I took when I was younger impacted my life in such a way that none of your kind can understand. But then again, humans do not try to understand, they just try to annihilate all that they do not know because they do not understand new and hate change. Change is about to happen whether your kind, the humans, like it or not.

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Deity

Part One: Of What Was Lost

Chapter One: Of Returning

The small breeze gave the pink haired girl goose bumps. She lay still atop the house sized boulder, just letting the sun warm her back up again. She shifts slightly, not wanting to feel the pain of lying on the rock for the entire day when she leaves. She opened her eyes and watched the trees sway gently. A small giggle escaped her throat when the falling leaves landed on her legs, softly tickling her.

He couldn't help the small sigh that escaped his lips at the sounds of her laughter. He sat in a tree to her left, just watching over her. His eye looked at how her porcelain skin glowed, and how her short pink locks gently dance over the rocks rough surface in the breeze. He looked at her lips, wanting to know if they are as soft as he thought or they were just a trick of his imagination wanting to make her perfect. But what if she is perfect? What if she is exactly how he remembers her? What if she is still as sweet as she used to be? What if she still blushes easily? What if she feels the same way as I do? What if we could be with each other? Would she love me or –. Kakashi shook his head, trying to rid himself of his thoughts.

"Kakashi, are you gonna stay up there all day or what?"

He smiled sheepishly and scratched the back of his head, embarrassed about being caught.

"How long did you know I was here?" he asked as her landed on the boulder beside her. She didn't blink, or even flinch, in acknowledgement of him landing next to her.

"Ever since you got here about an hour and forty six minutes ago baka. Besides, how could I miss a shock of silver in a world of green?" She said with a small smile playing on her lips.

He lay next to her and she turned her body perpendicular to his so she could use his stomach as a pillow. He gently ran his fingers through her silky pink locks, wishing that they could stay like this for ever. 'No,' he thought to himself, 'she can't know, she can never know.'

Kakashi and Sakura lay together for what seemed like forever, but the time wasn't nearly long enough for either of them.

"Kakashi?" she started, breaking the companionable silence that had only been broken by the sound of leaves softly hitting the forest floor until that point.

"Yes Sakura?"

"Can I train with you again?" He sighed. She rolled onto her stomach, propping herself up on her elbows so that she could look him in his eye.

"I told you already, I will not be your sensei again," 'because,' he silently added, 'if I did, I would be proving to myself that I can't have you. And I can't do that.' "Besides, your chuunin now, you don't need my help."

"I know that," she said, not completely concealing the agitation in her voice. But then her face fell along with all the annoyance that was in her brilliant green eyes. He also couldn't see the determination in them that drove her to become chuunin and then complete Tsunade's training within one year. It was remarkable. Only two were greater than her in the eyes of the village: Naruto and Sasuke. "And I don't want you to be." He was glad he had his mask on, because it was helping (albeit very little) to hide his joy. "I have the speed, the power, and the skill thanks to you and Tsuada-sama, but I need to hone the techniques I do know and learn as much as I can. I don't want you to be my sensei. I want you to be my partner, my equal, my friend."

He smiled. He couldn't help it. There was another reason as to why he couldn't be her sensei again. He didn't want to feel that he was failing her. Again.

She stood up to leave, taking his silence as his accepting. She turned around just as she was about to just off of the boulder, a look of sorrow in her face. "Please stop blaming yourself Kakashi. I never blamed you, you know that," she said. A single tear rolled down her cheek and he felt his heart rip to pieces as she jumped over the edge. He didn't hear a sound, not the crunch of leaves as she walked away or even the soft thud as she landed on the soft earth. He rolled over and looked over the edge of the rock that he now occupied alone. He gave a soft smile as the last of the air borne sakura petals noiselessly hit the ground.

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The twenty nine old kunoichi walked through the village, trying to make her way quickly to the hospital through the crowded marketplace. She heard whispers from all around as people slowly started to recognize her. She wore her pink locks in a tight bun, chop sticks keeping it up, senbon needles strewn throughout. She cut her bangs; they hung at the bottom of her cheekbones. She kept them in her eyes, so that she could see her surroundings if need be, but her surroundings couldn't see her eyes; as it had to be.

The inhabitants of Konoha couldn't help but stare at the girl, no, woman that had suddenly appeared after missing for fifteen years. The only way they could recognize the once outgoing, lovable, slightly temperamental girl was by her pink hair. And even then, the vibrant pink hair that used to gently fall to her shoulder blades was now kept up in a tight bun. All except her bangs, which she kept in her eyes.

She didn't even dress like their Sakura. Instead of her usual red dress with black shorts, she had a black, skin tight, tank-top and black, baggy, cargo pants. Where many ninja used white wrappings to hold their weapons to their legs, she used black wrappings. A single, thick black ribbon was wrapped around her neck, a stark contrast to her pale complexion. Her footfall was silent, her demeanor calm and quiet.

Even the hilts of her wakizashi, one over each shoulder, and her katana that rest on her left hip were black. Her pouches that every shinobi carried were black. A leather pouch about sixteen inches in length hangs from her right hip, black, and a leather tube across her back came over her right shoulder above the hilt of one of her wakizashi. It too was black.

The only white on the girl was in the form of ruins running down the right shoulder blade of her black vest. Ruins that no one understood.

She stopped walking. Just stopped. The villagers that were giving her an extremely wide berth were afraid. Even the jounin in the crowd were afraid. She turned. The crowd was silent as she walked up the steps of the building that housed the Hokage's office. Fear for the Hokage's life put the guards' fear aside enough for them to step in her way, efficiently blocking the doorway. "Step aside, I have business with the Hokage," was all she said, bangs still covering her eyes. They just stood there, nervously looking at each other. "So, your not gonna let me in then, huh?" she said with a smirk on her face. "Oh well." She disappeared in a bust of sakura blossoms.

It all started when I turned fourteen. That was the day I passed the jounin exam, the day I went 'missing', and the day I started to show.

"Hello Tsunade," she said when she appeared in Hokage's office. She took a seat in front of the fifths desk.

"Sakura? I see you survived. And you even made it through the village without being killed. Are my hunter-nin that frightened of you? "

"Yes, I have survived that hell you put me through, but it was worth it. I died, and now I know the truth about your old partner." She watched as the color drained from the Hokage's face. She put her boots on top of the desk and casually lay back as if this meeting was no more than a casual call. The Hokage watched the girl that used to train under her, tried to find the girl that was so kind, so caring. Instead, she found a woman that knew her deepest secret just sitting there cleaning her nails with an extremely sharp kunai as if nothing has happened these past two years.

"So," she continued, completely ignoring the older woman's discomfort and the comment about the nin, "how has my team been? I haven't heard any news about them for a while."

Tsunade swallowed the lump of fear in her throat and tried to calm herself down as she waited anxiously for the shinobi's arrival. "Well, Naruto finished his training while you were gone and he went out to find Sasuke. Sasuke is doing much better now, but Itachi is still on the loose." She continued watching the girl, no sign of any emotion as she continued cleaning her nails. "Kakashi should actually be here any second now," Sakura paused; only momentarily at the mention of his name, but then resumed her impassive state as if nothing happened.

He came in through the window and landed next to the desk. He didn't pay any mind to the person sitting across the Hokage. He felt no strong chakra, so he figured it was a civilian; until he heard a voice from his past, one that has been haunting his dreams for the past fifteen years.

"Why has your eye been bothering you so much Kakashi?"

It was a simple, blunt question really. She didn't understand why it was taking him so long to answer, or the sudden look of pride on the Hokage's face.

Tsunade was amazed. Even she couldn't sense the pain that the man standing beside her was feeling.

I came to the Hokage's office; a messenger brought me a scroll saying that I was required and that it was extremely important. I didn't know that I would mean me losing all my friends because the Hokage declared me a missing-nin within hours of my leaving. I didn't know that I would leave with out telling him my secrets that would change not only the lives of the people in this village, but his life as well. I didn't know that I was being trained as a weapon, more deadly than any ninja. I didn't know that when he ignored me to be with his 'special' students that I should not cry because I was special too. He just didn't pay enough attention to me to realize it.

She gave a small grin. "Fine, then don't answer." Sakura stood to walk out; Kakashi just stared at her. HHe didn't know what else to do.

"Wait!"

It was what she was waiting for, but not from the person that she wanted it from.

She turned, Tsunade was smiling at her. Kakashi just stood there, his jaw on the floor looking as if he were trying to catch dust bunnies.

"You can move your hair now," Tsunade stated as she closed Kakashi's mouth for him since he was having so much trouble. "We planted more trees inside the village since you left. There are even some evergreens planted where you most frequented before you left. That way, if there is a difference, it shouldn't be noticeable. Oh, and he's waiting for you. You'll find him in your old apartment."

Sakura gave a small smile and bowed before Tsunade brushed her bangs from her face. In a matter of seconds they changed from a dull, foggy grey to the sea foam green that people in the village recognized her with.

As Sakura was walking out the door, she looked over he shoulder with a playful smirk on her face, "Oh yeah, about your hunter ninja, all your ninja really, are quite good," her smirk grew even more. "But I'm better."

She closed the door behind her and exited the building and made her way down the street, back to the kunoichi that had first entered the village, mask firmly in place. She made her way to her old apartment, excitement unseen racing through her.

Kakashi still stood there. She was back. His love was back.

But I would go through that hell again, just to see the pride in my beautiful daughter's eyes when she looks at me.

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Sorry so short, but I am still working out the kinks in the plot. Ok, so every other section will be present tense, and the others will be flashbacks. If you need me to, ill put the flashbacks in italics, but I have faith in you guys. The sections dealing with present tense will be in chronological order, but the flashbacks will not.

At the end of each chapter I will tell where in Sakura's life the flashback takes place. In this chapter, she is thirteen, early thirteen, in the flashback.

Please review, and I hope to have the second chapter out shortly due to the fact that I am working on this fic and I am writing another on called Love: Radio with a sakura x gaara pairing which I hope to have out soon.

Thank you for your time, and I hope you enjoy this fic and if there are any questions regarding anything in this storyline, please feel free to email or review with your questions and I will answer or tell you when it will be answered in the duration of the story.