All So Hidden
Author's Note: I think the latest chapter was really short; however, it was so dramatic… and I think that you guys enjoyed my poem too. Thanks for all the reviews and other supports.
Disclaimer: All the characters and places are extreme property of the anime entitled Inuyasha. Only the plot and the whole endeavor of this story is my own logical product
Uncontrollable Fear
… but as she expected, she had another… may be something that will last forever.
Every time people try to look, their eyes seem to go watery and blear, every time people try to listen their ears seem to burn in fire, every time they try to speak their mouth seems they have been scratched and scared a hundred times. Each and every people encounter the same thing but does our heart also count? Will it ever be the same as other senses of the body? Just like the falling leaves in winter and blooming of flowers in spring? Will it change a person's life to a better or worse? Is it one of the unsolved secrets this world carries? If you can say that it is to better than how can you lighten the mind of the young who suffers everyday? If you can say that it is to worse than how can you explain the meaning inside her and the flying sensation others feel?
-Flash Back-
"Never you worry…" spoke a man
"No… Don't go, please don't leave me alone." pleaded Kagome
"I told you about the pendant, remember? That will always connect us together."
"B-But, you can't leave me like this. You just can't!"
"May be next time; perhaps in our next life."
"Promise you will stay with me until our death in the next life?"
"Yes, I promise. Because I Love You."
"Then I won't cry anymore. Perchance we weren't meant to be-"
"Don't say that you make me feel as if you don't love me anymore…"
"NO! Of course not, it's just that…"
"Shhh, everything is going to be okay. So(coughs blood and the woman starts to sob.) never you worry."
With a melodic sound made by the wind caressing the tree leaves and branches… one man's eyes closed in peace, as if his mission was accomplished and there was nothing to fret about.
"No… SESSHOMARU!"
-End of Flash Back-
"AAAAAHHHHHHH!" with a scream Kagome found herself on the bed with perspiration all over her face. She sat up automatically and looked around her, they were the same as yesterday. But that dream… it was unforgettable. Her head was hurting and the sun didn't stop glaring at her with a strong ray of morning light. When she glanced over the electronic clock it read 9:45. It was lucky of her not to be heard, since by this time everyone in the hospital were awake. It appeared to her that her family didn't come back after the visit before Inuyasha. Not able to take anymore of the heat she pulled the curtain down and helped herself with a cool drink. She couldn't stop thinking about her dream, rather a nightmare, that actually told her the mysterious person who always came out with such a hazy figure that she couldn't identify who… but now she knows, the person who appeared on her dream; Sesshomaru. She felt like one of her biggest question has been dropped off and felt her shoulders lighten. Yet, there were still many more questions that flouted around her mind. Especially the question 'Is this the next life?'. After that, she gave out a sheepish smile; for a split she thought she was going mad, or was she? Everything was disturbing and exasperating. She felt so uncomfortable, as if a chilopod of scolopendrids are crawling around and on her body. She wanted to go out. She needed the fresh air. She needed somewhere cooler. She didn't like this place at all, even if it was big it didn't have as good air as her house. She never went out of her room after all. Now she was curious, she wanted to go out of her room. Forget everything that happened and enjoy the outside world… at least for now.
The doorway leading to the park inside the hospital was empty, advantage for Kagome for she didn't want to walk in front of many people right now. She walked through the hallway and tried not to think of anything that happened but the memory from last night kept on bothering her. She closed her eyes shot tightly to get lead of the insecurity in her mind, raising with her leg to the exit… not noticing she was there-
BAM!
Kagome fell to the floor after having to hit the glass door leading to the garden. Now, she was embarrassed. What if there was someone watching or saw her?
She was getting nervous and impatient. Before hearing a word she raised up from the floor and pushed the door wide open, when she opened her eyes she saw a bunch of patients with their guardians staring at her. Well, it was a transparent glass door. She felt really stupid now. She ran as far and as fast her leg carried her… forgetting about the boundary line in the garden. She found a bench that was empty near a big old tree, and the air seemed too perfect; fresh and cool. She sat down and relaxed taking in the rural like air. The sensation of the wind that swept her cheek carefully was so soothing and made her fall a sleep. After, what seemed like an hour, Kagome woke up from her deep "nap". She found her head lying down on a man's lap and her upper body blanketed by a thick jacket. Knowing it was a guy, she blushed hard, looked up trying to find out the identity of the person… It was him! And he was wearing the hospital uniform for patients, was he also a patient? She tried to slip away but he was holding her firmly with his hand as if he would lose her if he would let go. She didn't know what to do and she was stuck. She tried to get out of the hold as lightly and quietly as possible, but failed miserablely. Yet, she tried again…and again…
"Stop." said he
"…S-Sorry." Said Kagome, not knowing why she needed to apologize.
"(Smirk) You are weird. Why do you apologize?" asked he
"I am not weird! You are the one who is weird! So can you let me go now!"
"No." he joked, somehow he wanted to fool her around, as if she was the only person in the world to talk to.
"Er… Come on, let me go. Please?" begged Kagome
"It's your fault for sleeping outside and being caught by my eyes. To be caught by my heart that won't let go. As if you are the only one to hold on to. A person whom I can always run into, a person whom I can cry aloud within… it's all your fault." stated he with such a dignity in his voice that might have cracked if he went farther on.
"Se-Sessyomaru? W-What are you talking about? I-I don't understand… Hm? Please, Sess?" Kagome wanted an answer but only emptiness was felt, only the swiping of the grass and the rustle of the tree leaves. "Sess… Sess… Sess!" screamed Kagome exploding in tears. Finally, they were out… the tears that were locked inside, holding on, which needed to be kept and hidden. They mustn't have shown… they mustn't have. But, why now? Why here?
'I thought I could hold them… why is it so sudden? Why do I always feel broken down in front of him! Why do I feel like I am the one who caused the problem? Why am I the one to feel so guilty? Why do I feel like I can give up everything and show him everything? With him… was I? Were we?' thought Kagome with despair.
Was life always this unfair? Did it always have so many sacrifices? Did it only carry pain? Wasn't there any hope when a thing is done? Was there a future when everything is broken down? Shuttered into pieces? Can't it erase bad memories into the deepest part of the soil with the snow that poured down for years? The roaring sea and the flaming fire that needs to be calmed down… the heart that only beats fast and hard only to be met by sorrow, anger, hatred, and revenge. What can he do when he lost all his strength, all his courage, and all his hope? What can she do when everything abandoned her, everything blames her, everything pierce her heart, that she can't breath a single second? One seating in distress and one lying down on his lap crying with endless tears for the answers… for the end.
-While inside the hospital room-
"Doctor! Where do you think Kagome have gone! Where could she go! She doesn't even know where this place is… I need to find her." interjected Kagome's mom.
"MOM! Calm down! She will be back! May be she just went for a walk or something." pointed out Kikyo.
"Where could she go for a walk? This is a hospital."
"The garden mom. It's located right beside this hallway." said the doctor.
"Okay… I'll bring her here." said Mrs. Higurashi.
"…No, I'll go mom." stated Kikyo with a voice of disgust.
-In the hallway leading to the garden-
She closed the door behind her and started walking to the glass door that will surely lead her to Kagome, until…
"Kikyo?" said a man, sounded rather cute though.
She didn't need to turn around to know who it was. It must him, who else could call her name in such a stupid way?
"Hey, Inuyasha.." whispered Kiyo in boredom and started to walk again, now with a faster foot steps.
"Is Kagome in there?" asked Inuyasha.
'I knew it. Who else could he be looking for? You are such a fool, Kikyo. But, at least…' thought Kikyo "Why don't you find that out yourself? You are her boyfriend now after all." she replied.
Then she continued to walk, no, run. Not looking back. Not wanting to hear more. She thought she could be strong. Stronger and straighter than before. She thought she could take them and erase them even if it takes a hundred years… she thought she could. She believed that she can start a new one, because that's what she did and thought was right. But, this one was different, it felt as though she have never felt it before, as though things around her never left her alone. Somehow, Kagome isn't the only one who feels the sorrow after all. Somehow, she isn't the first one to feel that way.
For the left one… will they always be left alone? Or find a way that could lead him to another? Was he actually happy, was he contented? Or did he feel the regret? Why can't a person be straight and up-right when he set his goal? When he decided one or two? Must he always need to hesitate? Was it his destiny? Did he even have a destination? Everything seemed unclear for him.
Everyone's life was now in mess. Who could have guessed that one person or one's affection could make a chaos in mind and heart? Was this the real power of Love?
