Disclaimer : Yes yes.. they aren't mine.. ;;
Author's notes :
ohMG.. It has been a long long time since the last time I updated this fic. Well, lots of thing happened. I ever felt that I didn't want to continue this fic anymore because of some reasons. But after a year, I finally changed my mind. As always, thank you so much to my reviewers. Love you all!
Hope you like this fic.. please leave me some comments okay? Thanks for reading!
…Chapter 7 : You're The One Who Really Understands Me…
The backstage almost empty. Eiji had gone home about fifteen minutes ago, while Fuji was still in his private room in the backstage, sitting on the floor with his back facing the wall. He had thought a lot that night. Quite a lot that could make his head spinning.
'How is my real feeling? Who is the one I really love? Is it Tezuka? Or is it Eiji?'
He thought about times when he was both with Tezuka and Eiji.
Tezuka definitely was a charming person. Just looking at his eyes made people (especially girls) melted. Fuji was also captivated by the captain's eyes. When he was around, Fuji felt proud because they some kind of shining like a perfect couple. But, when the stern man was angry, he felt scared though he didn't seem to show it. At another time when Tezuka wasn't with him, Fuji missed him, but the feelings could be washed away easily by busying himself doing something, for example, practising tennis.
When he was with Eiji, Fuji felt warm. It wasn't that Eiji wasn't popular among boys or girls. Eiji sure had his own fans, but still, the charm he spread was different from Tezuka's. Being with Eiji meant that his day was cheerful, out of the darkness, and as he thought before.. it was warm. When he thought Eiji was angry with him, he couldn't help but felt a ton of weight was being thrown at him. When Eiji wasn't on his side, his chest hurted and he was so longing for the time when he could see the other as soon as possible. It continued, even until this time when he wasn't with Eiji anymore. Yeah.. it was so different from what he felt with Tezuka.
Finally, Fuji realized that the feeling he had for Tezuka wasn't love. He liked Tezuka.. a lot, but that feeling wasn't as deep to be with him as his partner for a lifetime. He adored Tezuka and felt proud when being his lover. Fuji also realized that the feeling he had when he saw Tezuka with someone else was just a mere feeling of jealous when someone you adored so much being with someone else. It wasn't fair being Tezuka's lover just for the proudness you had when everyone saw you with him. Fuji couldn't imagine if it was Eiji he saw being with someone else. Maybe he better die than saw that. So.. yeah.. the thing he felt for Tezuka.. it wasn't love ..
KNOCK KNOCK.
"Fuji-kun? Fuji-kun, are you still there?"
The knock on the door and the voice of his classmate made Fuji came back to reality. He answered,
"oh.. yes, I'm still here, Nami-san.."
"are you okay, Fuji-kun? Do you need any help?" that voice was full of concern.
"oh.. no, thanks. I will manage this alright by myself."
"well then.. see you next week at school! Jya ne.."
"aa.. see you then.."
Suddenly, Fuji realized how much time he spent on that backstage. He prepared himself and his things and was ready to go home. But, when he arrived at the gate, he saw someone familiar there..
"Tezuka.."
"what took you so long?" asked the so called person.
"ah.. I.." Fuji couldn't fine any excuses, yet couldn't tell the truth.
"what's with that hug and 'I love you' thing at the stage? Do you really mean it?" Tezuka's voice was so cold.
Actually, Fuji felt too tired to talk about all these things. But suddenly he thought, he must've end all this missunderstanding right now. He felt sorry for Tezuka, but he must said the truth because it was the best for Tezuka and himself.
"Tezuka.. I.."
"What? You've just realized that you really love Eiji, don't you? That's the reason why you took so long time on the backstage, I guess?"
Fuji stunned. He didn't know that Tezuka would say those things so easily.
"..yes.. I'm sorry Tezuka. But I think what I felt for you isn't love. I like you a lot, but it's just different.."
"fine.. I understand.."
"..it's just that? You aren't angry with me?"
"well, at first I thought that I'm in love with you too. But, in the end, I also realize that it isn't love, but lust. And I found that you finally realized your own feeling too at the stage. So, I guess this is the end of our special relationship?"
Fuji couldn't even blink when he heard Tezuka said all those words. Tezuka sure looked calm, but he know he must felt some kind of hurt too inside.
"..yeah.. I guess this is it. But we are still friends, right?"
"yeah, sure.." Tezuka sighed then smiled a bit. "Listen to this, Fuji. Because maybe I never said this again.. You're so irresistible. Find your own happiness, and maybe someday I'll find mine too.."
Fuji smiled back. "thank you Tezuka. I'm sure you'll find it soon.."
One pressure had been lifted from his shoulder, but Fuji still had another problem. And it was the main problem actually. It was his relationship with Eiji. Seigaku was in holiday for a week. So, he didn't have a chance to meet Eiji since their performance before. And he still didn't have the courage to especially go to Eiji's house. Moreover, he thought that Eiji's feeling for him might've been changed because the fault Fuji did by breaking his heart.
So, because of this and that reason, Fuji still had not made up with Eiji.
While then, in the other side of the town..
That afternoon, Eiji had just come back from buying some stuff at the department store. In the street, he bumped into someone.
"oops.. I'm sorry.." said Eiji immediately.
"it's okay, are you alright?" said the other.
"yes, I'm okaa.. Tezuka!" Eiji shocked when he realized whom he was talking to and was bumped into.
'ahh.. how I want to be him right now he must've been very happy being with Fuji..' Eiji thought on his mind because he still had not know about Fuji and Tezuka's breaking up. 'no no.. it's not good, Eiji.. you may not envy someone like that. Furthermore, I must think about Fuji's happiness among all things'
"oh.. Eiji ka? (Isn't it Eiji?)"
"ah, saki gomen Tezuka. Omae hitori dake? (Sorry about before, Tezuka. Are you alone?)"
"yeah. I wanna go home. Just came back from the library."
"oh I see.. umm.. aren't you with Fuji? He loves to go to the library too, doesn't he?"
"… Eiji, you haven't know, have you?" Tezuka said while sighing.
"..huh? about what?"
"Fuji and I broke up.."
"NANIIII! (what!)" shouted Eiji without ignoring the other people at the street was looking at him.
"yeah. And I think that's all I can tell you. If you want to know more, ask Fuji yourself.. jya ne.." Tezuka went away.
"hey.. wait! Tezuka! Hey!" but Tezuka left Eiji alone at the street wandering about thousand things.
Well, not alone actually, because there are still lots of people who was still staring at him strangely. ;;
'What! Fuji and Tezuka had broke up! Why was that! It can't be that Fuji… no! no! If he wanted to go back with me, he must have meet me days ago. But, I didn't even hear any single news about him. Maybe he had his own reason? Ahh What should I do!'
Both Eiji and Fuji was confused at that time. But if they didn't do anything, the situation between them might've not change until the end of the world..
The situation kept on like that until that afternoon..
Eiji was sweeping the fall out leaves in front of his house.
"erai ne.. Souji.. (what a great/dilligent boy you are, Souji)" suddenly he heard a very familiar voice near him.
Eiji was shocked hearing that voice. He almost dropped his broom. He looked up at the source of the voice..
"Aren't I your great brother, aniki?" Eiji smiled at Fuji who was his big brother at the class drama before.
"sure you are.." Fuji smiled back at him.
For a few seconds, there was nothing between them beside silence. Both of them stunned at their position and didn't say anything.
"Eiji.. I.." Fuji broke the awkwardness between them. "I.. broke up with Tezuka.."
"…yeah.. I knew it already.." said Eiji calmly.
"what? You knew?"
"Fuji, I think we better talk about this in my room. At the street in front of this house isn't a very good place for a nice conversation, you know?" said Eiji while still smiling to lighten the strange atmosphere between them.
"yeah.. I think so.."
After they already was in Eiji's room..
"my family was out today. They went shopping together. You know my sisters.." said Eiji, when Fuji seemed realized the lack of person in Eiji's usually noisy house.
"oh.. I see.."
"well, please sit wherever you want.." grinned Eiji. "do you want anything to drink?"
"no, thanks.."
Eiji seated himself on the corner of his bed.
"well, Fuji.. about before.. I already knew it from Tezuka. I bumped into him at the street a few days ago.."
".. I see.. what did he say to you?"
"nothing besides that. He said that if I want to know more, I have to ask you."
"oh.."
"may I ask why did you break up with him? Or you don't want to say that? It's okay if you don't want to.. Or maybe you had something else to tell me today?" asked Eiji patiently, just like before when he was still Fuji's bestfriend who listened to everyword Fuji said, and Fuji did the same for him when he had a problem.
"I.. Eiji.. I broke up with Tezuka because I realized that I don't love him.."
"oh? Is that so? But I thought.."
"yeah.. at first, I thought I love him. That's why I want to have a relationship with him. But.. after I think carefully again.. I realized that I don't love him. I like him very much, I adore him, but it's just that. It isn't love.."
"………" Eiji couldn't find a word to give Fuji any advice or even any comment.
"at that time, I also thought about my feelings for you. I thought about all our times together, about when you were angry with me, or the times when you weren't besides me. So, when I realized my feelings for Tezuka isn't love, I also find that it was my feelings for YOU that is what people called LOVE.. I love you, Eiji.."
Eiji couldn't even blink when he heard all Fuji's words and confession to him.
"…Fuji.."
"I know I already did lots of mistakes, I know I hurt you.."
"Fuji.."
"I also know that I broke your feelings so easily and now I want to come back to you as easily as that, I know I don't have the rights to ask your forgiveness, but I.."
"Fuji.."
"I still want to be with you.. I.."
"FUJI! ENOUGH!"
Eiji stood up from his place and approached the other, leaned down..
"Eiji.."
And kissed him full on the lips..
When realized Eiji WAS kissing him, Fuji closed his eyes. Tears slowly came down to his cheek..
'yeah.. this is Eiji.. he is so warm.. Eiji, I love you so much..'
When finally they broke apart, Eiji smiled at Fuji and brushed the tears away from his loved one..
"Fuji, you don't need to say anything. I understand. And.. I love you too. There's no doubt at it.. I love you so much.."
"Eiji.. I'm sorry.."
"sshh.. I'm not angry with you.."
"so, can I ask you to be with me again?"
"sure you can.. but.."
"but?"
"well, as you know Fuji.." Eiji walked around his room with his made up arrogant-and-strange-cheerfulness attitude, and said, "you're the one who said you did mistakes, aren't you!"
Fuji blinked. "well, yes.. I did.."
'what! Eiji said he isn't mad at me.. but why is he..'
"so, as you know, the bad boy must be punished.." said Eiji again coldly.
"huh? But, what do you want me to do?" Fuji said, quite terrified at Eiji's cold voice.
"well, if you want to be forgiven that much.." the red hair boy still at his cold voice, but suddenly changed into the very cheerful voice.. "you must treat me ice cream, unagi sushi, unagi-don, steak, burger, french fries, movies, etc etc.."
Fuji sweatdropped. 'what the..!'
"Eiji I thought you're still mad at me, you greedy pig!"
"muahahaha! I'm sorry.. but, treat me unagi-don, okay!"
"it's.. quite expensive, you know.."
"Fuji come on treat me! Treat me!"
So then, their relationship came back to normal. They were still bestfriends and also lover to each other. Maybe it was their strong-based friendship that was made them so happy and so understanding towards another. Well, congratulations to both of them. :)
"I'll treat you wasabi sushi.."
"nooo... do you want to kill me with that wasabi!"
"but it's good for your health.."
"yeah.. it'll fasten my death. Fujiiii.. I want unagiiiii.. come on Fujiiii.. unagiii.."
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Haaahh at last, I finished this fic! Oh yeah, I think unagi is Eiji's favourite sushi. You can see it in the anime. It's eel sushi and it's so delicious! (well, at least for me.. ;;) unagi-don is slices of eel with rice. It's delicious too but incredibly expensive.. ha.haha.hahaha..
while wasabi, if you haven't known it yet.. it's a kind of Japanese spices colored green and it's incredibly.. spicy! uurrgghh I can't take it! I wonder how can Fuji like something like that..
Thanks for reading, you guys. Make sure you leave a comment for me, okay? Or.. maybe, should I make another chapter about Tezuka? Who is the most suitable partner for him? Haha.. see ya!
