Title: Untitled
Warning: This is a sad and depressing fic, atleast in the beginning... just to warn ya!
Disclaimer: i own nothing!
As I looked around my apartment, which was covered in boxes and such, I realized that I didn't want to unpack. I just wanted to go to sleep. Depression ate at my mind like a disease and I just sat curled up in a corner of the couch in my front room not wanting to have to deal with anything but the feeling that ached in my chest. I know that I really should get over it and become the bright bubbly girl everyone knows but every time I try, all I can think is, 'This act isn't good enough for anyone.'
Across the room, I heard the phone ring loudly, its piercing cry constant in my ears, there were times when I thought not having a phone might be better then having one but my mother was known for making a call every day to check up on me so I kept it even though the very sound of it made my head ache. I know I should answer it but I am tired and I don't care who is it. After what seemed like the eighth ring, my answering machine picked up and my voice came out of it saying, "Leave a message after the beep." I know its not very inventive but it worked. When the annoying chime went off to show that it was time to leave a message I then heard Yukari's voice, which had a tone of worry but also of exasperation. Throughout the entire time I had known her she often had that tone, but it seemed to be a constant thing since my "incident". That's what they all called it. My "incident" like I had a accident or something. They never really understood that I had gone to another world and found that I was not alone.
"Hitomi I know you are there... Pick up..." She waited for a minute then sighed audibly, "Or don't. Amano wanted me to ask you if you would come to dinner tomorrow night. We still love you Tomi-chan..." Her voice trailed off then I heard a faint click of her hanging up. I knew she didn't know what to say. We hadn't really talked much since my "incident" three years ago. Funny how I would say that going to Gaea made me a better person but when you come home and tell your best friend what happened to try and see if it was real, they tell your mother and you are put in the Psych ward. I spent the first two years in the psych ward since my mother wanted me there, saying I was a danger to my self and others. HA. The nurses all became my friend and since I never showed any sign of being crazy they let me get away with things. As my mind went on that train of thought I curled up tighter in a ball a migraine beginning in the back of my eyes. Soon it got to the point I was crying because it hurt so badly. So I got up, switched the light out and then walked to my bedroom. The bed was the only thing I got made up before I grew tired and lethargic.
I lay down on my bed and closed my eyes willing the migraine to explode my head so I could wait in heaven for my one true love. When I was in high school I thought Amano was the love of my life, but after spending time in Gaea I realized it was all just a dream. A dream that quickly died.
My thoughts often went back the dark haired boy who even when he was cold to me, knew he cared about me. Like I was special. The day I left him there next to Escaflowne, I knew I would regret it. But I am not queen material. So pray that he finds love and makes lots of babies while I stay on the "mystic Moon" and mourn the loss of the one man who understood me. The clock on my night stand screamed at me in bright red numbers that it was only five o'clock, but I laid in my bed, hidden under the covers, praying that when I woke up I would be gone from this place and have the wings I craved. Sleep came slowly and I felt it dull my mind in stages. I let it move over me slowly and felt the migraine, which had been threatening to bust my brain open, also begin to recede like the tide as if threatening to come back with vengeance when I woke up. I hadn't had migraines before my "incident" but when I got home I began to get them on a regular basis. I still finished High school at the top of my class but Yukari had begun to call less and my track time had slowed to a crawl. After high school I had stopped running and I could feel that my body had realized that. But I ignored it and fell into a dreamless sleep.Well thats the ending of the first chapter. I know its short but its early in the morning and i am tired. So please review and tell me what you think even if its to tell me that it sucks... Well that would suck anyway...
