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Chapter 2
Visions of Dream's Past
When I woke up, one of the first things I noticed was that there was no bright light shining through my windows. All I saw was just the inky darkness that seemed to want to close around me and smother my very breath. I sat up and glanced at the clock, its glaring numbers telling me that I had slept for two hours. I laid my head against my pillows, closing my eyes against the screaming red number that kept telling me that yet again I would not be sleeping tonight. I laid in my bed thinking about the many pills I had been forced to take to help cure all my problems after my "incident" and how non of them worked, the darkness of my eyelids making me feel like maybe I could open them and see Van. But when I opened them I only saw my ceiling and got out of bed mumbling loudly, "Lovely… just lovely…" I climbed out of bed in a jumbling mess, the very darkness seeming to move out of my way. The time when I did anything gracefully had long since faded leaving an empty shell.
I got as far as the living room before I felt like my throat was closing off. I faintly felt my knees hitting the ground before the vision took me over. The first thing I saw was my pendent that I had given to Van. It filled my vision, and then began to swing, slowly at first then faster and faster. My attention was all on the pendent but then soon a voice also came to this vision, "Hitomi…. Hitomi Kanzaki… I should have told you before you left… I should have asked you to stay and be my queen… Then maybe you wouldn't have left me…" The voice sounded upset and I reached out feeling the vision start to open at my finger tips. As I came out of one part of the vision I was dropped into another part. I looked around absently and then I saw Van, He sat in a window seat, the surrounding room screaming wealth. I stepped closer to him and then I heard him speak again, "Hitomi… I miss your smile, and I miss your advice…" He was just about to open his mouth when a woman's voice pierced the air making him look up for a minute then quickly put the pendent back in his shirt and then look towards the door his face guarded like he was about to go into battle.
"Van-san?" I looked around angrily feeling like a fire and erupted in my belly making my entire body burn with it. The woman entered the room and I gasped softly. She was tall and lithe, but moved slowly as if weighted with some great… well weight. Then I noticed her belly. It was swollen and a little voice came into my mind making the fires douse immediately. That was Van's wife. Van's very pregnant wife. My Van's very pregnant wife… Well I guess he wasn't my Van any more now was he? I watched her walk around the room and felt faintly upset over the way she looked. She had long blond hair that ended just before her shoulders, its flawless waves making my short blond hair look like a rat's nest. The hair framed a flawless face, pale as milk with bright blue eyes that twinkled and sparked with a life I knew I would never have again. This was defiantly a girl in love or at least infatuation. Her entire face became a smile when Van turned to look at her seeming not to notice the guarded expression.
"Yes Toma-san?" Van asked his voice even, I knew that voice, he was trying not to show any extreme in emotion. He used to use it a lot on me when he was trying not to laugh too hard when I fell on my butt… or in extreme annoyance at Merle for being so over protective. I watched his face, memorizing every curve and wanting to run over and make him smile just to run that tired and sad look from his eyes. He had always meant the world to me and to see him this upset and his wife not seeming to notice made the boiling heat of rage build up in my belly again. Usually I am really good about keep my temper down and not loosing it but this twit almost made me think that maybe I didn't have good as control as I thought.
"Merle said you were not to be disturbed but I wanted to ask you that if this baby is born a girl-child. May I name her?" Her voice was soft and light yet it didn't seem to make Van smile it only seemed to make him hurt more. I took a step closer but then I saw Merle walk in. She looked much older and stared at the two people, the disgust in her eyes growing from disgust to hate. I couldn't help but smile, knowing we once again had a common enemy. Then I was forced to think about Toma's words.
"Merle said you should leave him alone and you still bothered him anyway. That explains why Merle thinks you are lower then dirt…" I mumbled to myself feeling rightfully angry.
"It up to you Toma-san. But you must know that if the people do not take to the child then you will be sent back to Austuria without hesitation. I will not have my people rebelling because I want the child of an ally to succeed me and they do not agree." His voice was firm and final and I went over to stand by Merle. She still wore the tan dress she always had but she had grown into quite the lady, her gainliness when I had known her had grown out to a very shapely woman. Merle now stood about three inches taller then me and even though she still had all the stripes they had grown into long and elegant stripes. Her eyes were intent on Toma's face so I looked back just in time to see her hide the look of shock on her face and regain her look of youthful happiness. I felt my dislike for her grow, but I watched her still stare at Van. Before long I looked from Toma's mask to Van's face seeing a look of quiet satisfaction hidden there. His eyes held that quiet smile that he never let overflow onto his face.
"Van-san… I understand that but… You also swore you would protect me and that this child would cement our marriage." Toma stood as she spoke, her light gown flowing around her lithe body as her face carefully formed in a look of ladylike anger.
"Yes but my people come before all, before me and before you or even our children. My parents were like that before me and my children will be like that after me." His voice firm and rather upset. I smiled knowing that I understood that and that was why I refused to stay. I would not have Van so worried about taking care of me that his time with his people would be cut back.
"Van-san… Why is it you sit in this room? I heard that it was the same room as the girl from the Mystic Moon… Do you seem to love her more then you love me? Would you protect her even if they people did not like the offspring she gave to you?" Obviously Toma knew she was grasping at straws and just being truly low, but she kept on. I sat and watched Van's face seeing the sadness slowly seep into his eyes as if it took everything he had not to cry. "What was her name, Van-san? Hitomi? I think you called me that a few times… do I look that much like her?" Her voice was nearly a scream and Merle took a few steps closer as if to restrain her.
"Please leave me Toma before you say something you regret and I am forced to send you back to Austuria in shame because you can't keep your mouth shut." He said as she rushed out in tears.
"Van-sama…" Merle whispered as if afraid of bothering him, her feet moving her single step closer. Van looked over when she called his name and smiled slightly, that one smile that seemed reserved for only her, and motioned her to come over and sit down. Merle then ran over on all fours and perched her self right next to his feet, calmly cleaning her paws and smiling like some kitten that ate the canary. Unknown to me, I began to giggle, though I don't think I realized it was me until I couldn't breath because I was laughing so hard. She acted so much like she did when I first met her and even though it pained me to see them I realized that besides just missing Van I missed Merle almost as much. She had become like a sister and I missed her antics. Van smiled at her and laid his head back on the window like before pulling my pendent from his shirt. "Van-sama... Why do you come to Hitomi's room? It won't help you avoid Toma-san." Her voice was soft yet playfully reprimanding.
He closed his eyes for a moment and that was exactly when I felt my vision beginning to break apart. "NO! VAN!" I screamed at the top of my lungs hoping they could hear me, but then I felt the vision disappear and I was back on the hard wood floor of my apartment among all the clutter of my life.
The cold wood unnerved me slightly only because it crept through the t-shirt I had worn while sleeping and settled over my skin making it chilly. I laid there for a moment before standing up and looking around my apartment. Nothing was there yet I felt a faint trace of perfume that floated on the air. I recognized the perfume so I followed it until I got to my front door. I looked through the peak hole and saw the faces of Yukari and Amano. Shoot. And I thought I would just avoid them for as long as I can. And most you can tell… I don't ever answer my phone so I never have to talk to anyone. Funny huh? I thought so. Well I watched them through the peep hole and smiled since Amano obviously wanted to leave, saying something along the lines of "she's not home" or "she obviously doesn't want to speak to us." What can I say, I read lips. But Yukari had that look on her face that just screamed, "Fight with me and I will make sure you never leave that hole you came out of." So Amano just shut down and let Yukari win. Knew he would. Wussy… Anyway there I am in a pair of running shirts and a tank top and they are at my door. What am I supposed to do? I have no idea so I go into my living room and sit down; ready to fully ignore the door until I hear it open… Wait she has a key!
