Ashley Kerwin
July 5, 2006
Today was the day of Craig Manning's funeral. Joey had notified me of his death the day after it happened. He gave me Craig's journal. It has an entry from the few moments before his suicide.
During the funeral, the priest read an excerpt from his journal, about how he loved me so much and wished I had felt the same. I could only cry, because I had felt the same. Hell, I still feel the same.
Anyone who knew us well enough knew that we were soul mates. We clicked, like two peas in a pod. He got me more than anyone else, more than Jimmy, even.
Ha, Jimmy, my first boyfriend. We had some good times. We all had some good times. I remember going to the Dot after school with Paige, Jimmy, Marco, and Hazel, having straw fights and throwing water at each other in the girls' room. Craig would always come just a little late, late enough to see me, Paige, and Hazel emerge from the bathroom, soaking wet.
Craig would always joke about us being alone in the girls' room. He was always that way, joking about something or other. I guess that's one of the reasons I fell in love with him.
He also constantly complimented me on my undeniable talent. He knew I was going to be famous one day for my songs. He always said they were so deep and that I sang them so beautifully.
He had a knack to make me write. Of course, we were in love. And that's enough to write about for years, only it's gone now.
Now that I think about it, life without Craig will be meaningless. I guess he felt the same way.
That's why I intend to go down the same way he did…
So, I sit on my bed, remembering Craig and Paige and Terri and Ellie and Marco and Jimmy and Spinner, one last time. I remember all the good times and wish they'll never fade in my mind.
Now I am satisfied. I lift the kitchen knife to my young wrist and slit it open. I watch the blood slowly drip out of my veins until I am brought to my demise. My suicide, like Romeo and Juliet.
A/N: Sorry they're so short, but they're supposed to be like last diary entries before death. I hope someone will read this and review...