Paige Michalchuk
July 12, 2006
She was my best friend, you know. We've known each other since we were born. Our moms were friends, too. And now all of that's disappeared.
None of us saw it coming. I mean, sure Craig's death was unexpected and it broke all of our hearts, but she didn't have to go all Romeo and Juliet and kill herself. She could've talked to me or something. Anything but suicide.
Ha, I didn't even mention her name. That shows what kind of friend I am. We never really hung out or anything. Not after her party in grade 8. God, I'm pathetic, holding a grudge from almost 4 years ago. But, I forgive her, now. Of course I forgive her. How can you not forgive a dead person? It's only right.
Ash was such an amazing person. She was incredibly talented and so nice. I wish she was still here. I wish we could go back to that day we skipped and Ash won that Elvis impersonation contest. That was a really fun day. We had finally convinced her to get over Craig.
Ashley never really found out about me and Alex. And, I should've told her. I was just too embarrassed, I guess. Embarrassed that I had hooked up with another girl, while I was still completely infatuated with her.
No one really knew that about me… that I had fallen for Ashley Kerwin, my best friend. I told her once, after her breakup with Craig. She told me that she loved me too, but as a friend. Just a friend.
I completely respect that she was in love with Craig, but how could she deny me when she wouldn't even forgive the poor guy? I knew she was bi. It was so incredibly obvious. She told me that Alistair was just code for Allison, her British lover. Of course, she only told me that. You know why? Because she wanted to let me know that if things didn't work out with either Craig or Ali, she was all mine.
Mine. Not anyone else's, but mine. And she will be mine, in Heaven.
I stick the loaded gun inside my mouth. I cock the trigger and pull it. And sugar we're going down.
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