Rated M
Pairings:Major Craig/Jay, Minor Jay/Alex, References Craig/Ashley, Ashley/Jimmy
Summary: A potential ass kicking leads to something totally un-expected. When a best friend discovers a secret, tentions boil and lives could be alterted. Reputations were meant to be broken. Right? Takes in Season Five.
Just incase you were thinking it, no I do not own Degrassi, any of it's characters, or ideas, I do however own all exclusive records of Craig and Jay's steamy romance, no, i'm not sharing. Get over it. Also, i unfortunaetly do not own Fall Out Boy, or their song "Sugar, We're Going Down." Can I borrow a few thousand for royalties?
Degrassi Community School Parking Lot – Friday, January 16, 2005 2:15 P.M.
The day pressed on slowly. The whole thing felt so surreal to Jay, Alex wasn't supposed to find out. Not like that. He sat back in his car in the parking lot, chair leaned back staring at the light on the roof of his car. It lit up as Craig sat down next to Jay in the car.
Jay didn't speak, he didn't move.
"Um, you…offered a ride." Craig said staring at the dash.
Jay sat up and let the chair back up, "I wasn't trying to hurt you in the hallway today."
Craig smiled "I know."
"So why'd you take a dash for the can?" Jay asked looking at him.
Craig looked back and replied, "The element of surprise…you're lips are quite addictive."
Jay smirked as he leaned in to kiss Craig.
Jay's cell rang, the ring was that annoying Eminem song about asses.
Craig pretended to like the song as he bobbed his head smiling, "You make my slinky go…da doing-doing-doing!"
Jay smiled answering it,
"Hello?"
"Hi crapbag."
"Who the hell is this?" Jay said to the familiar female voice.
"Look up."
Jay hesitantly looked up to see Amy a few feet away.
"Surprise!"
He swallowed "What do you want?"
"An explanation."
"For what?" he said pretending to be clueless, not sounding the least bit un-informed.
"An explanation as to why you went queer on my best friend."
"Amy I didn't even read the damn note!" He yelled, remembering he actually hadn't.
Craig sank in his chair.
"Bull," Amy said getting angrier by the minute, "Look whatever, just don't expect to show your face around here anymore."
"Amy. If you tell anyone, I swear I'll…"
"What? You swear you'll what? Break another girls heart?"
"Look! You're lucky to still have Alex as friend after what you did."
"Last time I checked, it was your c-"
"Whatever! Okay! Just…promise me you won't tell anyone, please?"
"Why should I?"
"Because you know what it's like to screw up. You know what it's like to have rumors spread."
"Fine…just, stay away from Alex and I, okay?"
"It's not like she wants me there anyway."
"Bye."
Before Jay could say goodbye Amy hung up. He turned to Craig who was looking out of the window. "Sorry."
"For what?"
"Sorry you had to hear that."
"It's reality…you know? It's what happens. Reality sucks. I'm used to it."
"So…you really are crazy?" Jay joked.
"I'm bipolar, I'm not crazy."
"I was just kidding."
"Yeah, well don't." Craig kept his eyes fixated on Spinners car a few spaces down.
Jay pulled out of the parking lot and drove out of Degrassi. "You gonna sit there and mope or give me directions?"
"They were in the note…"
"I'm driving."
"Okay?"
"I'm not parking to read some piece of paper."
"Fine." Craig said looking around for the paper, "Where is it?"
Jay got a lump in his throat. He laughed a bit "In my back pocket."
"You're kidding." Craig said smiling.
"No, but now that you're happy you can tell me how to drive." Jay said laughing.
Craig looked at him with one eyebrow raised, he thought quickly, "I forgot."
Jay let out a happy sigh as he turned his head, Craig reached into his back pocket, "It's in my wallet"
Craig pulled out his wallet, and looked through it for the paper, he found a few twentys, "Someone's loaded."
"Not really," Jay said driving to the closet McDonalds, "My real dad is…I spend weekends with him."
Craig smiled, "Oh" he found the paper and put the wallet back, Jay tried to make it as hard for Craig as possible to get to his pocket.
As Craig opened the paper he started to believe that he'd actually forgot how to get to his house.
Jay parked and opened his own door and then Craigs, Craig got out of the car and walked along side him inside, "You have fun back there?" Jay asked.
Craig playfully pushed his arm, "Shut up!" he laughed. Craig found a table as Jay got their food. He watched a few kids playing with their food, it's times like this where he wished he had his camera with him.
Jay sat down across from him, with two burgers and fries, and one milkshake, two straws.
Craig looked at Jay and the straws.
"Anyone could see us, and…"
"It's cool." Jay said reaching under the table to take hold of Craig's hand.
"You're so much different that what I expected." Craig said softly.
"Never judge a book by it's cover." Jay said taking the first sip.
As it got darker outside Jay and Craig began to sink into each other deeper by the minute. For once in his life, Craig had met someone who looked at the person, not the problem. Ashley did love him, but she couldn't look past his "disability". He hated that she called it a disability, it made him feel like some sort of leper. Jay didn't care, hell, he had enough problems of his own to deal with.
Jay crossed his arms and shivered as they left hand in hand not knowing where they wanted to go. The cold night air of Toronto was harsh at times and this was definitely one of them. "So I wasn't the first guy you've kissed, was i?"
"Technically, no, but If you'd like the honor, it's yours." Craig said smiling despite the bitter cold.
"I would. In fact, I think I'd love the honor." Jay said kissing Craig on the cheek. On the outside it looked like Jay took a complete 360, but it's still Jay, it's always been Jay. Alex knew Jay, Sean knew Jay, everyone knew his name, but they didn't know Jay Hogart.
Sean rounded the corner laughing with the love of his life, Eleanor Nash. They sung stupid songs crush leaves under their feet, as he looked up expecting to see a lot of teenagers loitering outside of a burger joint, because what else better did they have to do? What he got was much different. "What the hell, is that who…" Sean started before seeing Jay and Craig pull out of the parking lot.
"Hmm?" Ellie asked not really paying attention to anything but her own two feet.
"I thought I saw Jay drive off with some guy…" Sean said watching the car leave the parking lot.
Ellie directed her attention in the direction of Sean's gaze "Oh, Craig?" She said used to his facial features.
"Nah, why would Manning be with Jay?" Sean questioned, "Whatever, I'm starving." He said pulling Ellie inside.
Jay drove down the busy street downtown in a hurry, "…they had to have seen us."
"Relax. Of course they didn't. Even if they did, it's nighttime. It could've been anyone." Craig said leaning back in the passenger seat.
"You're right I guess." He said slowing down pulling up into the parking lot of Toronto's smallest well-known park.
"It's….a ghost town." Craig said looking at the beautiful park lit with white Christmas lights lining the sidewalks.
"It's freezing." Jay said getting a dirty blanket from the back seat.
Craig was the first to find a secluded spot to hang. He sat on bench and watched Jay walk sluggishly to the bench. "He'll be coming round the mountain when he comes…" he hummed under his breath looking at what seemed to be the only other couple out that night.
"I heard that." Jay said plopping down next to him.
Craig smiled and scooted closer to Jay, resting his head on his shoulder. "Tonight, was amazing."
Jay smiled and kissed Craig's head as he put the blanket over the both of them, "I think so too."
"I take back what I said." Craig said snuggling up to Jay.
Jay put his arm around Craig holding him, "About what?"
"I can defiantly get used to this." Craig said kissing Jay's cheek.
Jay filled with butterflies. 'This…is what love is about.' He thought to himself. The only thing close to love he knew was routine sex with Alex, and kissing in public. It was expected of them. Behind closed doors all there is a sex. They don't kiss, they don't hug. Just sex. Alex had a constant fear as being labeled a whore, so Jay agreed to help make her "look good" in public. But he was tired of it. "Alex doesn't love me." He said out of the blue.
Craig sat up a little offended, "You can honestly talk about her, to my face?" Craig snapped.
"It was a show. The whole thing today was a show, one stupid, fake show." Jay said softly.
"How can you say that?" Craig asked confused and hurt that he was thinking of her while he was with him.
"She's the victim. She always has to the be the goddamn victim." He said raising his voice.
"So you two weren't dating?" Craig asked curiously.
"We had sex. I was a walking, you know, to her. The rest of me was just an added bonus. I couldn't care less to tell you truth." Jay murmured looking to the ground.
Craig took comfort in knowing Jay didn't love her. It made him feel safe. "You're with me now…you're so much more than a walking…um, you're just more than that, okay?" Craig said stumbling over his words.
Jay snickered. "Penis." He said smiling, "It's called a Penis." They laughed.
"I don't want to go home." Craig said snuggling up to him again.
"Don't." Jay said.
"I have to, Joey would never let me stay over with someone he didn't know." Craig said sighing.
"There's always Marco." Jay said ideally.
"No, I've played the best friend card way too much today. I'm tired of using him." Craig said placing his hand on Jay's chest.
"I could, maybe come over? Spend the night, you know, we'll 'study.'" He said smirking.
"I thought you said you weren't having sex with me?" Craig asked as thoughts of being with Jay entered his mind.
"Who said anything about sex?" Jay asked smiling playfully.
"My house it is." Craig laughed and laid his head on Jay's chest relaxing. For once in his life, Craig was being catered to, and he liked that. It got tiring to cater to Ashley's every whim. It was no secret that she was high maintnance. It was in the book of Kerwin. And it wasn't that big of a problem, but sometimes it was just more that Craig should be handling. He caught himself in mid thought, 'I'm just as bad as him, why is Ashley on my mind? Why do I compare everything he does to her.' It was obvious Craig needed closure, "Let's go…home." Craig said sitting up looking to his hands.
Jay put his arm around Craig's waist with the blanket draped over their backs, "Fine with me bam-bam." They walked slowly to Jay's car trying to keep warm laughing about nothing.
Sean and Ellie sat at the edge of the pond throwing rocks, "Why don't we just skip them?" he asked for the millionth time.
"For the same reason I gave you ten minutes ago, I don't know how." Ellie laughed.
Sean snickered as an orange speck caught his sight, it was Jay's car again, something was walking towards it, "Ellie, my god she's huge!" Sean said stupidly before realizing it was two people. Two guys.
"That's not a she. That's a he. And, another he. And one he is a Craig…and that Craig is…." Ellie began before her jaw dropped.
"Kissing that he, who I'm willing to be is Jay." Sean said running toward the two with Ellie in tow.