Chapter 11 – Unfortunate

Rumbling noises echoed down the staircase as Tohru ran uncontrollably. She headed straight for the front doors. She ran through them and found herself settled in her so-called to be groom's arms.

"Tohru, what's wrong?" He asked.

She looked up tears still running from her eyes as she said breathlessly, "Kyo… Kyo…"

"Has something happened to Kyo?" Shigure asked holding on to her shivering shoulders.

"Kyo and Kagura… they… they…" She continued to whimper.

"They what?"

"Shigure…" Tohru was too confused at this moment. She didn't understand what was going on. Her feelings for Kyo had somehow become unstable. Her chest hurt as she leaned against the comforting body before her and before she knew it, she was on her tipped toes and lips pressing together.

Shigure pulled away bewilderedly and asked her, "What's wrong?"

"Help me forget." She begged as she closed her eyes to wait for Shigure to embrace her; she could taste the bitterness slipped into her mouth through her lips.

He took her head and pressed her face onto his torso while his arm wrapped around her waist. "Tell me what happened."

Before she was able to answer, Kyo called her name from inside the house. "TOHRRUUU!" At the sound of his voice, she broke away from Shigure completely and her eyes were in shock. She ran.

"Tohru!" Shigure tried to pull her back but failed as she quickly disappeared.

A few minutes later, Kyo came out and asked, "Have you seen Tohru?" His older cousin who looked like a statue with his right arm up in the air turned around and greeted him with a frown.

Shigure studied Kyo's worried gesture and without a word, he raised his arms again and pointed his right index finger to the town's direction. The cat immediately set his course to town and left Shigure behind wondering. "Something is wrong. I could sense something bad is going to happen." He said as his eyes narrowed on the cat's quick reflex chasing after Tohru.

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Meanwhile Kyo was looking for Tohru. Yuki had a long talk with Kagura. Obviously, something happened between her and Kyo. Yuki's last question seeped disbelieve in his voice.

Kagura repeated herself. "I said nothing, nothing happened." She walked to Kyo's closet where she had her cloths hidden and put them on.

Yuki knew that she was lying and didn't allow his eyes to wander off too far from her. Once she finished dressing he had her cornered and looked her in the eyes intensely.

"Don't lie. I understand how you feel, but you cannot force yourself on the stupid cat." He said with a straight face.

"What do you know?" She raised her voice.

He looked away to the tail end of his purple eyes and thought for a second before he confessed, "I did the same thing with Tohru." He began to explain.

"What?" She was surprise. She would never think that Yuki would ever do anything like that. "And… how did she react to it?"

"She was scared. I scared her. I scared myself. I didn't know what I was doing? I've gotten so frustrated with Tohru's yearning for Kyo and it drove me crazy. At first, I thought that it was love which drove me to her, but I was wrong. It wasn't love."

"I don't understand. What are you saying? Don't you love her? Don't you want her?" She asked.

"Yes, I have feelings for her, but these feelings were not what I thought they were. I have missed interpreted them."

"What do you mean?"

"Tohru is very kind and gentle. She has a strong will to live and thrived on other's happiness as her own. She wants everyone around her to be happy and sometimes forget about her own happiness. She has a very strong heart, but physically she is very fragile. With her present I felt warmth and comfort. I wanted to return her kindness, I wanted to protect her from harm and I wanted to shed her from any unnecessary tears, but last night I fail. I've mistaken my feelings for her. I approached her with force, wanting her to be mind. I took advantage of her indecisiveness and tried to convince both her and myself that I desired her."

"What wrong with that? If you loved someone, don't you want that person to be yours and only yours?"

"Yes, but the person that you loved should willingly give him or her to you. If you're feelings are not returned like that way you wanted them to be then you should try to reconcile and move on. I just realized this today."

"I don't see anything wrong in trying to persuade the person you loved to return your feelings. Though…" Kagura dropped down on her buns and sighed. "I tried and it didn't feel very good… maybe I overdid it a little."

"You think?" Yuki smiled and sat next to her. "Last night, during my development with Tohru, at first she gave in, but I could tell that she was fighting herself trying to decide whether it was okay for her to melt under my movement. After a few kisses, she tensed up and started to resist and finally she said the stupid cat's name. The moment that I heard his name my blood broiled up. My guts told me that Kyo was the one that she desire and not me. My ego took over and I wanted to devour her. I wanted to take possession of something that didn't belong to me, something that I was not able to grasp in my hands and something that Kyo had advantage over me."

"And, did you go through with it?"

"Fortunately, no her cried knocked some senses out of me and stopped me before I went any further." He chuckled. "Even then, I didn't realize my true feelings. I thought that I loved her so much that it drove me insane and made me performed an unforgivable act."

"But how did you realize that love wasn't the emotion that drove you to her? How can you know for sure?"

"I didn't know until I saw him today."

"Him?"

"Yes, the cat. I felt at ease when I saw him or should I say happy to see him. Of course, I didn't show it, but I've got so accustomed with him being around that I didn't know that it was he who drove me closer to Tohru. Earlier, when I had some time to myself, I was thinking. For the longest time that I knew him, we've been fighting over the silliest thing and somehow I've always win. Whenever we have a fight or a competition, I always managed to win. Same goes with Tohru, I wanted to win. There was an unknown urge inside of me; it was manipulating my feelings and converted my obsession to win into false feelings. I love her, yes of course I do, but if I really love her love her, then I could have waited for her like I said. The fact that I was losing to the stupid cat drove me mad and took control over me."

"I still don't understand."

"I know now that I love Tohru like a member of the family. I wanted to protect her and looked over for that very reason because she became a part of me that I cannot let go. Now that I understand how I really feel about her, I want her to be happy. If she is happy with Kyo or with anyone else, then I'll be thankful. Think about it, wouldn't you be happier if you remain your outrageous, loud and annoying self while observing Kyo's happiness?"

She searched her thought for a moment, "I know you and Kyo for a long time, and since then I've always told myself that I love him. I'm not stupid you know? I know very well how Kyo feels about Tohru, I even tried to accept it once a while back when Kyo transformed into his second form. I thought the Tohru will be only one who would be able to help him find happiness. I still believe that is true, but part of me want to think that and the other part of me want to be with Kyo. When I heard the news from Aya that Tohru is getting married, but the groom was not Kyo, I felt disturbed. Somehow the part of me that wants Kyo became dominion with hatred and jealousy. I had given up on Kyo for his sake to allow her to find him and for they to find happiness. Instead of returning his feelings, she is going to married Shigure?" She sneered. "I also heard that Shigure made a pack that she could decide between the three of you. What kind of bull is that? Why can't she see that Kyo needs her? She kept him hanging and couldn't decide. Why is that? Is she so afraid that she will hurt his feelings or yours if she picks one and not the other? The whole idea made my stomach gagged and the more I thought about it, the more I wanted Kyo to be mine."

"I can understand how you feel, but you could see that you action today didn't make him very happy, nor did Tohru or yourself."

She sighed heavily, "I know, but… she hasn't made her decision yet, so I still have a chance, right?"

"She did."

"When?" Kagura sounded confuse.

"Last night and her reaction today proved it. She chose the stupid cat."

Kagura pondered her thoughts, "So she did? I guessed I was so full of myself that I didn't care or noticed." She dropped her head down onto her knees on wrapped her arms around them. "I was so cruel to her… I tried to blackmail her… In other words, I was cruel to him, too… What should I do now?" She asked timidly.

Yuki pulled her into a hug. "Tohru is very forgiving and she'll probably forget everything that happened almost instantly and Kyo is too stupid to hold a grudge. Just be you again and everything will be fine."

"Thank you." Kagura said leaning the side of her face on her knee. "I don't know how far I would have gone to if you haven't talked to me like this." She looked up and met his eyes.

He warmly smiled back, "It's nothing." She blushed.

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Kyo's legs were faster than Tohru. He was able to catch up to her in the city. "Tohru!" He called to her. She turned around and saw him on the other side of the four way streets. She wanted to run to him, but at the same time couldn't let go of the image of him and Kagura together, so she moved away quickly. She found herself caught between the busy crowds of a typical Saturday's afternoon. She tried to lower her head so that he couldn't spot her. "TOHRU!" He continued to call for her as he crossed the street. Rotating his head slowly as he focused, he recognized her long chestnut brown her anywhere. He squeezed and slid through the pool of people and snatched the fabric of her white dress. "Tohru!" He quickly embraced her into his arms.

"Let me go! I can't…" She raised her voice.

People of all ages were looking at the two young lovers amusingly. They looked like they were having a lover quarrel, so no one paid much attention and continued to walk passed them one after another. Kyo could care less about the people around him. He refused to let her go, "NO!" and squeezed her harder as he crashed his lips against hers.

"Mmm…" She pushed and pushed shaking her head as she tried to pull away from his kiss.

"Tohru! Nothing happened." He said.

"But… " She refused to believe. "You were… you were kissing her."

"No, I didn't! She kissed me." He argued.

"But you were and she was..."

"Tohru, I would never." He held her again hugging her tightly. "I love you." He breathed. "If anything was to happen, it will be with you."

His words sounded like an angel spoken into her ears. She wanted to melt into his arm and to be able to hear him talking assuring her again and again, but the image of the bare Kagura still disturbed her. "Kagura said that you and her, she said that you and her…"

"What? What did she said?"

"She said…"

"Nothing happened! I swear nothing!"

"And she said that she'll die for you! She'll kill herself if she doesn't get you. How can I live with that sin, if she really did?"

"That bitch! She's gone too far. Hell with her! I don't care! I want you." He locked his eyes with hers and repeated, "I want you. You're the only one."

"Kyo…" She returned him a gentle kiss which lead him off guard and let her go for a second, "I… I can't." She ran off into the streets.

"TOHRU!" He ran after her. She could his voice and the sound of tire screeching from behind. He pushed her away off the street and he himself landed his limb against her.

The vehicle stopped and the driver came out shouting, "You guys want to die or something? Stupid kids!"

"Shut up!" Kyo screamed angrily. "Can't you see that we're hurt? So shut to fuck up!"

"DAMNED KIDS!" The driver went back into his car and drove away.

"Tohru, speak to me!" Kyo held her in his arms. He saw the car coming so fast, that he didn't have time to think.

"Kyo…" She blinked her eyes, but couldn't open them all the way. Her head started to spin and she could only see darkness as she slowly closed them completely and in a very low voice she said, "I love you."

"NO, Tohru!" He held her tighter as he felt something wet dripped onto his arm. "Blood? What should I do? What should I do?" He quickly remembered, "Hatori. Hospital." He picked up her body and headed off to the nearest facility.

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Back Stage Discussion:

Kyo: What happened to Tohru?

Smile: Catch the next chapter for an update.

Shigure: Yah… (yawning) Let go to sleep now.

Ayame: Wait for me, Shigure!

Everyone: Later.