Friends:
A Gellar Change?
Chapter 11: Moving On
A/N: Thank-You to everyone who reviewed on the last chapter! ♥ It meant so much. I really hope you enjoy this chapter..and just to let you guys know, I only plan on doing about 4 or 5 more chapters, I'll see how the rest of the fic runs )
Ross stared at his wife. She was peacefully sleeping in the hospital bed. Dreaming sweet, quiet dreams and being away from the real world and the tormet of what had just happened for about an hour.
Emma quietly crept into the room holding two cups of coffee "Hey Dad, got you some coffee"
Ross looked up and took the hot cup off of his daughter, "Thanks sweetheart"
They both stared at Rachel. She flinched two or three times, maybe having a bad dream or remembering what had happened.
FLASHBACK
Emma stepped into Monica's car. She sat at back inbetween Jack and Erica, silent not knowing what to do or say. It smelled nice in their car. Fresh. Chandler got to the wheel and put his hand on the "radio" button but Monica stopped him. Seeing all of this Emma spoke.
"It's OK"
Monica turned around. She looked at her neice. So vulnerable. So young. So..pregnant.
"We..um..we know sweetie. I just thought that you'd want things to be quiet"
"No. Really it's fine. I like music. It distracts me. Makes me happy. Got any good CDs?"
Chandler fiddled around with the pockets in the car and handed Emma about 10 CD cases. Emma flicked through and then chose one.
"I love this", she said "Put trackone on"
Chandler did as he was asked and Hilary Duff's "Fly" blasted through the speakers.
Everyone just sat still and silent. They listened to Hilary's lyrics. They were so meaningful. Truthful. When the song had finished nobody knew what to say.
"So..you like Hilary?" Chandler finally said
"Umm..yeah I guess you could say I'm a fan"
"I like her too. Me and Mum went to the tour last year, it was awesome", Erica said.
Emma pretended like she couldn't hear. She didn't need this right now. All this "Everything will be OK buisness". What the hell was happening? Her Mum couldn't be pregnant. She just couldn't. She would have told her. She was the pregnant one. Not Rachel. Not her mother.
"Emma?" Monica called
Emma looked up.
"We're here".
Emma stepped out of the car not knowing if what was about to happen was going to be good news or bad news.
END OF FLASHBACK
Ross hugged the cup of coffee in his hands. His whole body was shaking. Even though it was Summer the hospital was freezing. Emma was sitting on the chair beside him. She was also fairly cold. She wasn't do much except staring. Staring at Rachel.
"Dad? We need to talk about this", Emma suggested in a kind way that she hoped Ross would appreciate.
"Not now Emma"
"YES NOW DAD"
"Emma! Keep your voice down, otherwise you will be thrown out of here!"
"Then talk to me, please"
"I'm not in the mood"
"You can't just blank me all evening. We need to talk, it's the best thing to do"
Ross was shaking. His eyes filled up with tears. "I-i-i, d-don't w-want t-to talk -r-right now", he said and continued staring at the floor.
FLASHBACK
Emma followed Monica and Chandler down the corridor with Jack and Erica trailing behind her. In the distance of the room she could see her Dad holding her Mum. She could see Joey in front of them talking to a nurse. And Phoebe and Mike sitting down, trying to stop Amy from crying.
"Yes. Yes, Rachel Gellar. Yes. Uh huh. Mmm. I think 4 months in. Yes. Can you hurry? Please she can't lose this child", Joey was impatiently saying to a Doctor and Nurse who were writing down Rachel's details.
"I'm sorry Mr?"
"Tribbiani. Joey"
"Mr. Tribbiani, but we are trying to be as quick as we can"
"WELL BE QUICKER", Ross suddenly shouted, as Rachel continuously cried in pain.
"Please Ross", she sobbed. "Please say it'll be alright"
Ross just looked at the woman he loved and had nothing else to say except, "It will Rach. It will"
Emma ran up to her parents. "Dad!"
"Em. Look we're a little busy at the moment obviously, so why don't you stay with Aunt Mon and Aunt Pheebs, OK?"
"I.." but it was too late Ross followed a Doctor into and room holding Rachel.
Monica put her arms on Emma's shoulders "C'mon hun, why don't we get a drink"
"OK", Emma said wiping the tears from her eyes.
END OF FLASHBACK
Outside the room where Rachel was sleeping Monica was sitting in silence whilst Jack was teaching Chandler a card game and Erica read a teen magazine from 7 months ago.
"Do you think I should go in there?" Monica asked
Chandler looked over at his wife who was picking at her pink nails, which had only been painted that evening.
"Mon, Emma's just gone in there. Give them some time"
"I know. I just. God, I hate waiting"
"I'm sure we'll be able to see Rach soon enough, Ross probably hasn't seen her yet she's most likely to still be asleep"
"OK"
FLASHBACK
They all sat in silence. Rachel had been in the hospital room for an hour and a half now. And any minute, a Doctor would come out and give them a verdict.
Emma was sitting next to Ross. He was as nervous as anyone, drinking coffee and reading pointless trashy magazines.
Dr. Josie stepped out of the room and signalled for only Ross to go over to her. Ross did as he was told.
"Mr. Gellar, your wife has obviously been having trouble with the pregnancy these past couple of weeks. We found signs of alcohol use and unhealthy foods such as burgers. Now usually when this time of thing happens and we get the patient her quick enough we can sort it all out. Unfortunately in this case, we couldn't. Mr. Gellar I am very sorry to tell you this but your wife has just suffered a miscarriage. I'm really sorry for your loss", Dr. Josie put a hand on Ross' shoulder encouragingly, "At the moment Rachel is sleeping but you can go in if you wish".
Ross stood there speechless. Monica and the rest of the group came over and listened ashe told them the terrible news.
END OF FLASHBACK
Phoebe and Mike had gone home early, but their thoughts were still with Rachel and Ross.
It was now 1:00AM. Mike was snoring away next to her, but Phoebe couldn't sleep. Everytime should closed her eyes an image of Rachel popped into her head. She knew what it was like. To lose a child. Phoebe had never physically lost a baby, but when her Doctor said she may never be able to have children it felt as though she had lost one.
She immediatly jumped out of bed, waking Mike up at the same time.
"What're ya doing?" Mike yawned.
"Going to the hospital"
"C'mon Pheebs, there's nothing ya can do for Rach, just go back ta sleep", he said hardly getting his words out properly.
"I can do something for her. I can be there for her. Cos I'm her friend. And that is what friends do"
"Alright"
"Don't forget Amy's feeds"
"Wha-?"
"Mike! It's 1:00AM. I've had no sleep. My best friend has just lost a baby. I need you to do this for me, just this once. Please"
"Ok"
"Thanks sweetie, I'll call you in the morning"
"Where are ya gonna sleep tonight?"
"I'm not going to, bye"
FLASHBACK
"Oh my God, Ross. I am so sorry", Monica said after finding out what had happened.
Ross didn't answer. He just stood there.
"If there's anything I can do?" Phoebe asked.
"YES. YES PHOEBE THERE IS SOMETHING YOU CAN DO. YOU CAN SHUT THAT DAMN BABY UP OF YOURS. DO YOU REALLY THINK RACHEL NEEDS TO HEAR A CRYING CHILD, AFTER LOSING ONE? HUH? DIDN'T THINK SO!" Ross shouted.
"Ross, calm down", Monica urged.
Ross didn't answer he just went into where Rachel was sleeping leaving everyone else outside.
Phoebe grabbed her stuff and shoved it into her bag.
"Pheebs. Honey, Ross didn't mean anything by it", Monice reassured her
"No he did. Mon, he's right. The last thing Rachel needs right now is Amy screaming at the top of her lungs"
"But what about Rach?" Chandler asked
"I'll call her in the morning to see how she's doing. See you guys later"
"Phoebe!" Monica called. But it was no use Phoebe and Mike left the hospital.
END OF FLASHBACK
Phoebe ran into the hospital and saw Monica.
"Pheebs! Hey, what're you doing here?"
"I felt so bad leaving you guys and Rachel"
"Aaww it's OK Phoebe, I'm just glad you're here! Where's Mike and Amy"
"They're both at home, sleeping. It's the best thing really, I say it again Ross was right the last thing Rachel needs is Amy being here"
"I guess", Monica agreed.
"So what's the latest?" Phoebe asked sitting down.
"We haven't heard anything. Ross has been in there for about two hours now, and Emma went in with some coffee for them about half an hour ago"
"You haven't been in?"
"Not yet. I think I'll stay here until Rach is up to seeing us"
"Good idea".
Back in Rachel's room Ross had fallen asleep beside Rachel's bed but Emma was still wide awake.
Rachel's eyes flickered as she woke up.
"Mum?" Emma said
Rachel opened her eyes, "Emma"
Emma walked over, "Mum! How're you feeling?"
"I'm OK. It's so good to see you honey"
Ross heard the sounds of voices and woke up too.
"Rach!"
"Hey hun"
"How're ya doing sweetie? Do you want anything?"
"Yes. A big kiss and cuddle from my lovely Daughter and Husband"
Emma and Ross did as Rachel asked and the three of them embraced for the longest they'd ever hugged before.
"Do you want anything else, love? A drink? You must be thirsty", Ross asked
"Uh, I'll have a large Pepsi and a packed of Macoy's crisps", Rachel said laughing
"OK, Emma could you get that for your Mum, here's some money"
"Sure"
"Actually Ross, I was wondering if you could go. I'd just like to have a little chat with Emma...alone"
"Ah OK! I can take hint", Ross winked and left Rachel and Emma alone.
Ross walked out of the room and everyone stood up as they saw him.
"Ross! Oh my God! How is she? Is she awake? Can we go see here?"
"Mon! Mon, what's with the twenty questions?"
"Sorry, I've just been waiting for so long!"
"I know. Look Rachel is awake and seems to be alright. I'm just getting her a drink and a snack. You can go in, but give it an hour at least. Or half an hour. She wants a little chat with Emma, privately at the moment, OK?"
"Whatever Rach wants", Chandler said.
Phoebe was silent all the way through Ross's explanation. He turned to face her, looking sorry.
"Pheebs. I don't know what to say. I'm so so sorry. I just. I have no excuse. I was stressed and tired, but that gave me no right to talk to you the wayI did. I can't apologise enough. Do you still like me Phoebe?"
"No Ross I don't still like you. I still love you. C'mon I no you were only saying it. And you were right. Lets all be happy or try to be, and just support Rachel together"
"Sounds like a plan", a-just-woken-up Joey said
"So, what do you wanna talk about?" Emma asked sitting on the end of Rachel's bed.
"I want to say sorry"
"For what? You haven't done anything"
"You know I have. I didn't tell you about the baby"
"Oh"
"Sorry honey. Your Dad didn't find out til a few months ago. I kept it to myself for ages. I was gonna tell you but then I found out you were pregnant and I didn't know what to do!"
"It's OK Mum. I'm just glad you're Ok"
"I love you honey. And so does your Dad. I made too many mistakes when I was pregnant. And it just goes to show how easily you can lose a baby. I am going to support you so much with your baby. Because you're my baby"
"Mum", Emma said. They hugged each other again, tears filling both their eyes.
A/N: Wow over 1000 words! w00t! Longest chapter I have ever written in my life. Also one of the hardest. It was really hard to imagine what Rachel was going through or Ross or any of them. So I hope you enjoyed the chapter and I can't wait to read your reviews! Keep em coming! ♥ ♥