Hey! Sorry about the wait on this, my week has nuts! I pulled three 9:30 AM to 8 Pm in a row! On my last one now on my lunch break typing this out for you guys! So I wanted to say sorry about the author note it just frustrated me since any similarities to any other stories are purely by accident, yes maybe some stories I read are getting mixed in but im not going for that im doing this as like therapy for myself. Its a way of making myself feel better since as I said a lot of what happens to jackie, the abuse and stuff, happened to me so im just getting it off my chest finally. Im still debating on whether or not to have bunny and jackie get together. Its either going to be a sister brother relationship or they will be mates not sure yet. If you want tell me what you guys think :D. I own nothing here! I wish I owned rise of the guardians it would be amazing! If I did I would be a real author by now, not just on fanfictions struggling to make bills and rent lol. FYI jackie is a potty mouth XD Oh well! XD hope you enjoy thing chapter! Oh one more thing there is movie dialog in this and I didnt have the movie going while I was writing this so its from memory and it may be a bit wrong I did mix of them up on purpose but still same thing lol

Jackie POV

We lost Sandy. Pitch took him from us, made him one with the nightmare sand, right in front of my eyes. I couldn't save him, I tired so hard, I fought with all I had, using more power then I thought I had. I somehow manged to turn most, if not all, of Pitch's nightmare sand into ice, and once ice it like exploded and couldnt seem to form the nightmares again for a while. It snowed nightmare sand and snow for atleast a good hard hour. I dont know how I did it. I didnt know I could do it. I saw that black arrow thing pierce his back and I screamed and took off toward sandy and pitch, trying to reach him in time to save sandy but I was too late. After taking sandy, pitch sent the sand after me it all surround me, I felt nothing but fear but there was almost a whisper of hope, and I felt this surge of power through my body, it burst from my body with a loud clap! Freezing sand as my ice power touched it. I clapped my hands together with my staff in them my eyes glowing a bright blue and it all froze then it held for a second and burst, sand and ice raining down on the earth below, as well as me, I used so much that I blacked out for a few seconds next thing I know I'm in the sleigh with tooths arms around me, asking me how I did that. I struggled to sit up my head spinning. Yup I used to much power, that drained me. I told tooth I didnt know I could and I looked at my staff it blurry in my hand. North said nothing and opened a port back to the pole. Bunny just sat there hovering again looking thoughtful.

After everything north tired to force me to go to the Infirmary but I refused, I was fine. My mind was clearer and I could see again. Plus all I needed was some snow and id be good. I needed to be ready, dispute my sadness, my mind was set on a goal: to get my teeth back from pitch.

You see after Pitch left everyone crowded around me, asking me if I was ok. After me saying im fine like 20 times, I finally got them to back off expect for bunny who hovered over me like I was a little kid, im over 300 years old, im not some little kid who needs someone to protect her! I rolled my eyes at him and walked over to where tooth was holding one of the remaining tooth canisters. We started talking about why pitch would take the teeth. As we spoke she flew up to a painting on her wall near a lake and I followed the lake freezing under my feet as I walk, soon she said something that caught my attention.

"we had everyone's here," she placed her hand on my back and I tired not to flinch. "Even yours." I blinked in surprise and pulled away from her hand.

"M-my memories?"

"Yea from before you were Jack….ie Frost" my world seemed to tilt and I took a deep breath.

"I wasnt anyone before."she looks at me odd.

"You really dont remember do you?"

"T-that night at the pond… I just assumed…. You mean I had a life before that?!" my eyes widen when I realize what I really wanted I had before this life " A FAMILY?!" I shouted that and everyone jumped at looked at me odd. " I had people who actually cared about me before!" tears fill my eyes threatening to overflow. Tooth looked at me with sadness.

" We were someone before we were chosen, bunny, north, sandy even me we all had lives before we were chosen for this life." I jumped up into the air suddenly scaring everyone the air catching me.

"you have to show me!" I needed to see,to know who I was. What I had lost, who had loved me and why I was chosen for this life taken from people who loved me, but at the same time I was scared what if before I had no one, just like now? What if no one loved me like no one loves me now. 300 years alone you start to fear that everyone hated you for some reason and you act out.

"i cant Pitch has them." I had started to fly off so I landed and pointed my staff at tooth ignoring the stares from sandy, bunny and north.

"Then we have to get them back!" tooth went to say something but her feathers started to molt. The children were starting to not believe in her, north enraged at this fact decided that we should all collect the teeth. Bunny didnt want me to go but he was overridden we needed all hands on deck to collect these teeth. So off we went. Somehow bunny and I managed to turn it into a contest, to see who could collect the most teeth. It was like a lot times, bunny and I were 'fighting' again but this one was more playful and more teasing then out right fighting. I narrowed my eyes. I hope he wasnt babying me, I hate being babied but its soon forgotten as I start to have fun.

Later that night we arrived at jamies house, I smiled touched the picture he drew of him on his sled when he lost his tooth. I played a huge part in that, just thinking about it makes me smile. Tooth gives me shit about how he lost it knowing full well it was my fault. I grin and giggle.

"Kids" as If I didnt know how he lost it. Soon bunny and rest appear making jokes about the contest. North gets a bit loud forgetting there was a sleeping child in the room and ends up waking up Jamie, who is shocked to see the Easter bunny, Sandman, The Tooth fairy and Santa in his room. I had hope he could see me now since I was with them but no luck and my heart sank.

After a massive Fiasco that involved me getting Abby the Grayhound to chase Bunny (so funny! I laugh just thinking about it now!) it was so hilarious. Sandy ended up knocking everyone out with dream sand but me and himself. Oh the look on his face! it was like a parent scolding a child, I laugh just thinking of that look. But soon the smile faded as I saw a nightmare. We took off after it leaving the sleeping people. I could tell sandy was worried about Pitch being near me because where there was a nightmare pitch had to be close. But I ignored his worry, my mind focused on my mission. Looking back on it, I should have been worried about him.

I managed to Freeze the nightmare and I was poking its frozen black remains excited calling sandy to come see it, when I felt pitch breathing down my neck.

"Frost, my dear. I told you to stay away from those pesky guardians."i jumped away keeping a brave face. "this isnt your fight my sweet snowflake." I gripped my staff tight and pointed it at him holding back a growl.

"you made it my fight when you stole the teeth!" he looks confused for a second then he grins.

"oh! I get it! You want your teeth. Don't remember anything do you? Well I do, I was there that day on the lake." I pale but dont loosen my grip " join me and ill show you all you want to know! And I'll even give you back your teeth as well." I shake my head about to tell him to fuck off, when sandy appears next to him clearly pissed, wanting him to get away from me. Thats when the fight began. It looked like we were winning there for a while but thats what pitch wanted. Thats when he struck, killing Sandy. I scream and fought to save him but failed….. I failed…..

Its my fault sandy is dead. All my fault…...