Returning
Chapter Seven: Emotional scars
I sat in front of Sasuke watching him and he watched me right back. I had changed into a loose grey t-shirt and some loose cotton pants. I finally broke the silence. "Um…you wanted to talk to me about something?" He looked at me intently and then said, "I want you to explain why you aren't a virgin anymore."
I gave a sigh, and told him. After I was done, I stared at the floor. I couldn't bring myself to look at him. He didn't know anything except for the fact that I was raped when I was fourteen. I hated it when people gave me pity. I got up to walk to my room when I was pulled down into a warm embrace. Sasuke buried his nose into my hair and whispered the words that stopped my heart.
"I'm sorry."
I wanted everything to stop and for the world to disappear. The Sasuke…is apologizing! I was about to say something else when all of a sudden, we heard a loud
THUMP!
A string of curse followed and Sasuke looked alert. For some odd reason, the voice sounded so familiar. I tried to place it as a picked up a baseball bat and walked to the room from which I heard it from. (A/N: She lives in a two room apartment and she lives alone. The other room is occasionally for guests that come.) Sasuke followed in suit with his blood limit activated. When I flung open the door I swear I could have died.
"NEJI!"
I stared dumbfounded at the Hyuuga boy that sat on the floor of the room. He finally noticed Sasuke and immediately jumped into fighting position. The two prodigies glared at each other while I was trying to sort my thoughts out.
What in the seven layers of hell is going on!
Well, apparently, Neji Hyuuga and Sasuke Uchiha are standing in fighting position, ready to tear each other apart. They would, if only you weren't standing in between them.
It was a damn rhetorical question, you dumb fuck.
Bitch…
Asshole…
-Sigh- You two are so vulgar.
I sighed out loud which caught the attention of the two boys. I looked at the clock that was sitting on the wall. It read, 9:45. I looked to Neji then to Sasuke. Finally, I decide to move out of the way and get an Advil. I turned around and was about to walk away when a thought occurred to me.
I looked at the two guys in front of me and said menacingly, "Break anything and I'll cut off the one thing that makes you a guy."
Then I walked out and got me an Advil. When I walked into my living room, the two geniuses were sitting on the couches and glaring each other. I watched them and then went and sat on the recliner. Next to the recliner was a small table with a phone on it. I picked it up and dialed a number.
RIING! RIING!
"Hello?"
I smiled and perked up at the voice.
(Script)
Me: Jake?
Jake: Be?
Me: Yeah, um, can you do me a favor?
Jake: Yeah sure, what is it?
Me: Can you tell Mika that she can take tonight's mission? I'm in a bit of a predicament.
Jake: What kind of predicament?
Me: Oh, just homework. Don't worry about me. I'm a big girl remember?
Jake: Yeah…one that needs to learn to buy her own coffee.
Me: Awww, you don't mean that do you? –Pouts- I thought you loved me.
Jake: …evil bitch…fine. I'll tell Mika.
Me: Thanks so much. Also, could you bring me some really strong coffee tomorrow? I'll need it.
Jake: Sure…oh, yeah. Before I forget, we have a concert tomorrow at 8, and since it's Friday, it'll be a long night, so wear something comfortable.
Me: Mhmm. Thanks honey. I'll remember that. Well got to go okay? Night, sweet dreams, and love you much kkz?
Jake: Alright…night to you too. Sweet dreams, and I love you too. Later Bibi.
(End of Script)
I hung up the phone and realized both guys were staring at me. I looked at them and finally said, "What?" When they didn't answer I sighed and got up. I looked at both of them and said, "Neji…Sasuke…you both can sleep in the guest room tonight. Sasuke, don't kill Neji. Neji that goes for you too. If I find anything broken or messed up, I'll kill you both." Strangely, I said all this with a perky smile.
In a way, I wanted both of them to go away because I wanted to turn up my music and just sit there. My neighbors were used to it. They didn't really mind because it was more of dance music. They actually liked it very much.
Then there was a soft knock at my door. I glared at the two boys and then walked to my door. When I opened it, there stood an old woman with a bag of something in her hands.
"Mrs. Simmons! What a pleasant surprise. What are you doing here? I expected you to be asleep by now." Mrs. Simmons was one of my neighbors. She was a kind old lady who had lost her daughter and decided to stay in the apartment they shared. That's how she met me. She said that I was as beautiful as her daughter, and she spent a lot of time helping me when I needed it.
When I first moved here, I felt so lonely. I told Mrs. Simmons about losing my family and she stayed with me. She let me come over and she and I talked. She was so kind to me. When I had told her about the rape, she nearly fainted. She made sure to take good care of me even if Sylis was there too. She was like my second mother.
"Oh, hello dear, how are you? I didn't see you leave yesterday for school and I was afraid you had come down with something. I made you some of the apple cake you love so much. I'm sorry I can't do more for you dear. Maybe you should go see a doctor. You're looking paler than usual."
I smiled sweetly at her and gave her a warm hug. "Thank you for worrying about me. This is really sweet of you. I guess I'm just a little sick. Maybe I should sleep a little more. Thank you so much again." She handed me the cake and the said,
"Oh yes, dear…could you please come over sometime? I have something to give you." I gave a smile and nodded. She smiled back warmly and left. I shut the door behind me and walked into the living again, this time with apple pie in my hand. The guys looked at me and Sasuke asked, "Dear? You're sick?" Neji gave a glare to Sasuke and said, "You should go to sleep."
I sighed and then said, "I can do what ever the hell I want to do and I-" I was cut off by the ringing of my cell phone. I put the cake on the counter and walked over to the table, and answered my cell.
(Script)
Me: Hello?
Someone: Bibi? You okay? It's not like you to turn down a mission.
Me: Oh hey Mika. I'm just not feeling well and my head hurts from all the homework that's still lying all over my floor.
Mika: Haha, laugh out loud babe. Maybe I should come over after the mission.
Me: Snap woman hell no. You need sleep just as much as me. After the mission, go home and go to sleep. That's an order.
Mika: Gosh you're so forceful. It kind of makes me horny. Come over here and bang me bitch.
Me: Geez, when you put it that way, maybe I should let you come over. Haha!
Mika: I like to be on top just so you remember.
Me: Sure babe. We'll go bang each other after the concert tomorrow.
Mika: Hell yeah bitch!
Me: Alright I got to go sleep now. Night.
Mika: Night.
(End of script)
WHAT THE HELL! ARE YOU FREAKING BISEXUAL?
Geez man, we were just kidding around. We always do that. It's funny.
According to you my dear, but just look at your 'boyfriends.'
Huh?
I turned and looked at both Neji and Sasuke who both had red painted on their cheeks. I just busted out laughing. They looked at me and then glared at each other. I smiled at the sight. I kind of reminded me of the times Tyler and Sylis would kill each other just to spend the day with me.
I sighed and turned around towards my room then stopped. I walked over to Sasuke and kissed him softly on the lips and walked over to Neji and did the same. "Good night you guys. Try not to destroy my apartment okay?"
(…)
BRIIIINNNNNGGGG!
I muttered some kind of cuss word and hit my alarm. I shoved the blankets off and did my daily routine. I got out of the shower and put on a halter sport top that was pink and white, a pair of loosejeans, a bangle, a watch, earrings, eyeliner, lip gloss, and then let my hair flow freely. I grabbed a white sweater and tied it around my waist then walked out of my room.
When I came into the living room, I found a Hyuuga boy glaring at an Uchiha boy. When they turned and looked at me I sighed. It was going to be a long day. Then I suddenly remembered. Today I was going to spend the day with Veronica and meet her mom and brother. I stopped and ran back into my room grabbing my wallet. When I came back out, I decide I was going to be a lazy ass and call for a ride.
I flipped open my cell phone and dialed Sylis' number.
(Script)
RIING! RIING! RIING!
Sylis: 'Sup Bibi, what's with the early call?
Me: Oh, well I don't feel like skating to school, so come pick me up?
Sylis: Sure, but you don't mind riding the motorcycle right? My brother took the car.
Me: Oh no it's all good. See you soon. Bye!
Sylis: Bye.
(End of script)
I looked at the two boys and said in a harsh tone, "You guys can't leave the apartment got it? If you do, you're making a damn death wish because this place is crawling with crazy rabid fan girls. They'll be on you like flies on a lollipop. So stay inside or die by their hands. If not by them, then by me!" I saw them visibly flinch at the word fan girls. "I'll be home late, so don't you dare do anything stupid."
(…)
It was late night and I was walking home by myself. My concert was tiring and my time with Veronica was kind of sad. I never expect her mom to be that sick. I made her some home cooked soup which helped her a lot and I promised her that I would drop by every so often to cook for them. Her brother, Joey, was in a coma and Veronica just talked to him like he was awake and talking back. That led to tears and I comforted her.
Now I was walking home in the middle of the night on a Friday. If I had to guess, it was about 11:30 by now. I turned the street to see a cemetery. My heart began to hurt. I missed my family. I missed them so much. I admit I was wrong to say those things to them when I was younger, but why did god have to be so mean as to rip them away from me?
I stood in front of the cemetery gates for a long time. It had begun to rain and I still stood there. I was now soaked from head to toe. I still made no movement. Finally, I started to walk home thinking of all the times I had with my family. I was so stupid. I never realized how much I had.
When I got home it was around 1: 16 a.m. I looked around and found everything in place and not destroyed. I walked to my room and changed clothes. However, instead of going to bed, I grabbed a blanket and walked to the couch. I set up the fire place and lit it. The fire illuminated the dark room as I sat there staring at the beautiful fire. I eventually got up and made me some hot chocolate, but I just held it in my hands. I was a wrapped in the blanket, sitting on the couch, staring at a fire. I didn't know what the hell was wrong.
This feeling…it hurt me so much. I never thought about the pain much, but when I did…I cried so hard. I didn't cry though. I would never cry in the presence of people. I placed the cup on the table and walked to my stereo that was connected to my TV. I turned it on and waited for the music to start. It had been so long since I sang to myself. Just for me. For my ears and only for mine.
Na na, na nana na na
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found
It won't be the same, oh
Na na,
Na nana na na
I didn't get around to kiss you,
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again,
I know that I can't,
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly
The day, you, slipped away
Was the day I found
it won't be the same, ooh
I have had my wake up
Won't you wake up.
I keep asking why.
I can't take it
It wasn't fake.
It happened you passed by.
Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere you're not coming back
The day, you, slipped away
Was the day I found
it won't be the same,
No, the day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same, oh
Na na, na nana na na
I miss you
The song died out and a new one replaced it.
When your only friends are hotel rooms
Hands are distant lullabies
If I could turn around I would tonight
These roads never seemed so long
Since your paper heart start beating leaving me suddenly alone
Will daybreak ever come?
Who's gonna call on Sunday morning?
Who's gonna drive you home?
I just want one more chance
To put my arms in fragile hands
I thought you said forever
Over and over
A sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion
These thoughts run through my head
Over and over
Complaints of violins become my only friends
August evenings
Bring solemn warnings
To remember to kiss the ones you love goodnight
You never know what temporal days may bring
So laugh, love, live free and sing
When life is in discord
Praise ye the lord
Who's gonna call on Sunday morning?
Who's gonna drive you home?
I just want one more chance
To put my arms in fragile hands
I thought you said forever
Over and over
The sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion
These thoughts run through my head
Over and over
Complaints of violins become my only friends
I thought you said forever
Over and over
The sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion
These thoughts run through my head
Over and over
Complaints of violins become my only friends
I thought you said forever
Over and over
These thoughts run through my head
That was the finally strike. I broke down. I cried harder than I had ever cried before. I grabbed the pillow and cried into it. The tears kept falling and falling. They wouldn't stop. I wanted to be with them. I wanted my family right now. I cried until my tears stopped running. I looked at the fire and a new set of tears came from no where. I needed someone right now. I looked at the clock and it read, 4:31. I didn't want to wake them up, but I guess they wouldn't mind.
I put out the fires and wrapped myself in the blanket. Walking as quietly as possible I stood at the front of the guest room door that was closed. I didn't know what to do. Finally, I turned the knob slowly and ever so quietly. I poked my head in and saw that Neji and Sasuke were actually sleeping in the same bed. They were on opposite ends of the bed though. It was a big bed so it didn't matter.
I shut the door softly and walked over to them. They looked so sweet. Sasuke slept on the outside while Neji slept by the wall. I was about to touch Sasuke when I found that I couldn't move my arm. I looked down and saw a hand that was attached to an arm that was attached to a body that had a head with onyx eyes staring right at me. Sasuke sat up and looked at me concern.
"Bichson?" feeling movement in the bed Neji sat up and growled out, "What is it now Uchiha?" Neji's gaze landed on me. His brows furrowed in confusion as he asked, "Have you been crying?"
I smiled and touched Sasuke's arm. He let go and was about to get up when I pushed him down on the bed. I crawled over him and laid down in between Neji and him. Neji looked at me sighed. He laid back down and wrapped his arm around me knowing that I needed comfort. Sasuke rolled over on his side and wrapped his arm around me too. I smiled knowing I had two people for me. With that thought, I fell into a dreamless sleep.
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YAY! Done, anyways, Neji loves her like a sister. NOTHING MORE! Any who…
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