A/N - Hey ya'll..some of you might know me from my story "To not be okay" which I am totally happy with and I'm glad ya'll who did read it liked it so much. Now, I'm not too sure about this story but I have an idea..and..this chapter is short but it's kinda just to see if ya'll like the idea or not? I don't know..but please review and tell me whether I should continue or not?

A Girl Can Only Dream

Disclaimer - I do not own Instant star

Chapter 1 - Not ready

"Jude!" Tommy called after the young woman exiting the studio. She left in tears and didn't turn around when she heard her name. She was now out of view and Tommy stood in the doorway of G-major looking at the road she just walked down, in dissapointment. This was the last time he'd get to spend time with her as her producer and she was just going to walk away?

Tommy slammed his fist against the brick wall and allowed the blood to seep down his knuckles. He didn't feel any pain at the moment, not physically anyway. After doing so, he pushed his back against the wall and slid down to the ground. Cupping his face in his hands, he thought about all the mistakes he had made. He never should have got with..

"Tom, what was that about?" Kwest had seen Jude and Tommy in the studio yelling at eachother but couldn't make out the words since the room is sound proof and all.

"I told her.." Kwest nodded knowingly.

"She would have found out..sooner than later," He sunk to tommy's level.

"I messed up," Tommy, finally realizing the blood pouring on the ground, held his bleeding hand in his other one.

"Well, at least your with someone its actually legal to be with," Kwest didn't want to push Tommy too much, knowing how angry he could get.

"I don't love her, man," Kwest got up and pulled tommy up by his arm. When both were at their feet they walked inside and got some ice for tommy's hand.

Jude walked in the house to find music blaring and Sadie singing and dancing around the living room. Jude rolled her eyes and wiped her face to make sure her tears were gone before she started towards the staircase.

"Jude! mom won't be here all weekend, shes out with dan." Sadie said, out of breath.

"Woohoo." She said sarcastically.

"What is your problem?" Sadie turned the music down and followed her sister up to her room. Jude turned around and stared at Sadie for a moment.

"Nothing.." She wasn't ready to talk right now. With that she opened the door and quickly walked in. Sadie stood outside of the room for a minute trying to think of what could be wrong with Jude.

After realizing a few things she pushed her hair behind her ears and walked back downstairs, nervously. Jude threw her bag on the floor and looked at herself in the mirror, quickly. After she fixed her eyeliner she grabbed her guitar case and left the room again. Once at the bottom of the staircase, Sadie asked her where she was going but she brushed her question off and walked out of the house. Jude walked the streets aimlessly before stopping in front of her studio. She walked into the old building and as soon as she came to the door she heard guitar. She opened the door. Speid jumped and turned to face Jude. Jude giggled at his jumpiness.

"Hey, what were you playing?" She asked, letting the door close behind her.

"Just some new stuff," He layed his guitar in his case and began to snap the latches shut. Things had been weird between the two lately and it seemed like every time they were alone, speid tried to get away as fast as possible. She didn't know what was going on with him.

"You leaving?" She set her guitar down against the couch.

"Uh..yeah, the guys wanted to hang out and..yeah," The lie came off the top of his head and he was fairly satisfied with it. He looked over at her and noticed her sad eyes.

"You alright?" He asked.

"Yeah, I'm good," She lied, she really needed someone to talk to but she could tell he was uncomfortable around her for some reason.

"Alright then..later," He picked up his guitar and walked out. Jude was left alone.

Tommy and Kwest forgot their earlier conversation and started to wrap up judes second album. It only needed a few touch ups, but still it would take a while. Tommy had head phones on and was messing with different knobs on the soundboard when his cell phone vibrated against his leg. He pulled his head phones off and aggravatedly answered the phone.

"Yeah?"

"Hey.."

Tommy looked over at Kwest who was now interested in what and who his friend was talking to. Tommy got up and walked towards the door to get some privacy so Kwest continued to repair Jude's songs.

"Sadie, what is it?" He asked, a little more harsh than intended.

"Jude just left here, she was pretty upset..did you tell her?"

Tommy didn't answer.

"You told her?"

"She needed to know why I wasn't going to be her producer anymore Sadie!"

"But..now? already?"

"Considering this is my last day here, yes, now." He wasn't in the mood to deal with this.

"Oh..yeah..okay well, call me later, alright?"

"Bye." He hung up the phone and slammed it on the soundboard. Kwest pulled down his headphones.

"Sadie?"

"Yeah," Tommy said, emotionless.

"You have to stop acting like that towards her." Kwest said.

Tommy sat down next to him and held his face in his hands as he did earlier.

"I know," He was breaking down inside and the only person he could think about in the matter was Jude. Things weren't going good with Sadie and him and he was finally getting somewhere with Jude. He had never cheated on Sadie..not physically anyway. But, Jude and him were finally getting closer and now this had to happen. Everything had to get so screwed up.

"I'm not ready to be a dad," He groaned into his hands..

A/N - So? I know it is realllllllllly short but like I said its only the beginning and its just to show off the idea, and most of you know I am a firm JOMMY fan so dont let what you have read so far mislead you..have faith in me! hehe