A/N - Thank you for the reviews..heh..it was more than one so I'm happy. Well, I know where I want this story to go, so basically I know what I want to happen at the end BUT I have a few ideas for the next few chapters..they just came to mind so they are really unexpected I guess you could say? I don't know..hope you like this chapter?

Disclaimer - I do now own Instant Star

Chapter 5 - I'm sorry

"I'll take you home, Jude.." Tommy said, leaning against the door frame.

"Oh, okay.." Jude said awkwardly.

Jude gave Sarah her cell phone number and told her to call her if she ever needed help with any of her songs. Sarah forced a smile and thanked her. This was it, the first time Tommy and Jude would be alone..they hadn't been alone during the whole pregnancy and Jude was a bit scared of how this was going to be.

She got up and followed Tommy out of the studio and to his car, she hung her head, avoiding his eyes.

Once both of them were in the car Tommy racked his mind, desperately trying to think of something to say. He could barely keep his eyes on the road, he was too busy sneaking glances at Jude who still had her head hung low and her hands inside of her sweatshirt. He noticed her baggy clothes and also how pale she was, she didn't seem the same. He had seen her before when he went to pick up Sadie and he would say hello to Jude but, he had never really looked at her until now. What happened to her?

"How have you been?" He decided to speak up. She looked up at him with a dull expression on her face. Her eyes were so dim, they didn't have the same sparkle he was use to seeing. The one he loved.

"Okay..how about you?" She asked, still looking at him. He snorted.

"Well you know how Sadie is,"

"Yeah.." She turned and looked out the window.

He didn't want to end the conversation like that. It wasn't going to work that way. He needed to become close to her again. After seeing her and being this close to her he couldn't just go back to the occasional 'hello' He needed her, he needed his best friend back. She needed him also, he could tell.

"How is everything at the studio?" She turned towards him and smiled slightly.

"Good I guess, Darius has been great,"

"Since when?" Tommy asked, surprised.

"Since.. you left," Her smile faded.

Okay well that ended that attempt of a conversation. Tommy nodded, knowing he couldn't say anything to make her forgive him. He still hadn't forgave himself. He still loved Jude more than anything and nothing was going to change that. Tommy didn't feel for Sadie but he couldn't leave her..he had a responsibility towards his kid.

Tommy pulled up to the Harrison house hold and spotted Sadie's car in the driveway. He winced at the thought of the later conversation they would have to have. He turned off the car and started playing with his keys, trying to pass time. Jude didn't move, it was almost like she couldn't. Tommy looked up at her and watched her sadness. God why did he always have to do this to her?

"Jude," Her eyes fluttered and started to cloud with unshed tears. She looked down at her hands.

"Yeah?" She asked, trying to hide the pain in her voice.

"I'm sorry I left," His words were full of sincerity. She looked up at him and smiled, allowing a silent tear to fall.

"Bye Tommy," After that being said, she got out of the car and made her way into the house, not looking back once. Once inside she ran into her room and closed the door behind her.

"Jude don't cry..don't cry!" She slid down against the door and held her face in her hands.

"Never cry for Tommy again, remember?" She scolded herself but still, it wasn't helping. She sat there for a few minutes trying to calm herself down. The tears just kept coming and she knew the only thing that would take her mind off of her problems, off of everything would be..

Jude whiped her tears away with the sleeve of her sweatshirt and then with her other hand, reached under the bed.

Tommy finally figured it was time to go in and face the music. He got out of his car and walked up the driveway slowly. Knocking on the door, he tried to remain calm. Rough footsteps were heard coming down the stairs and then the doorknob turned.

"What do you want Tom?" Sadie asked, holding the door cracked open.

"You walked out and our discussion was far from over," He said, pushing the door open calmly.

"I think it was over. Theres nothing to talk about," She closed the door and watched Tommy make his way to the couch and then sit.

"Look Sadie, I told you that when I got this job I would be producing girls. I mean come on, it doesn't take a genius to figure that out,"

"No, Tommy but when a girl looks like that a girlfriend can worry! especially since she totally has the hots for you," She screamed.

"Do you trust me?" He asked, seriously. Sadie gave him a look.

"Tommy this isn't about trust this-"

"Answer the question Sadie," He said, more intently this time.

Sadie looked around the room before her eyes settled on his.

"Of course I do," She said, a bit louder than a whisper.

"Then stop worrying about it," He said a little harhly.

Sadie's eyes began to water and she flung herself at Tommy.

"I'm sorry," She said into his neck. Tommy rubbed her back and shh'd her.

"It's okay..I'm here," He assured.

This went on only for a few minutes before Tommy's cell phone rang and he was called back to the studio and yelled at for leaving in the first place. He hugged Sadie goodbye and kissed her cheek before leaving. Sadie was now happy again and decided to go upstairs and tell Jude everything was okay between her and Tommy, no more fighting.

She walked happily up the steps and then down the hall, stopping in front of Jude's door and smiling.

"Jude?" She cheerfully called before opening the door.

"Jude!" Sadie's eyes widened at what she saw and her face shown pure horror.

A/N - Review ya'll, please?