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Chapter 8 - Baby shower blow out

The next day when Kwest and Jude woke up, Jude promised Kwest she wouldn't say anything and he wished her the best of luck, also promising not to say anything about her secret. She hugged him before leaving the studio and then checked all of her missed calls. Surprisingly, there wasn't that many. Only a few from her mom and a few from her dad. None from Tommy and None from Sadie.

Jude walked down the road she had walked the night before, dreading going home. Finally she reached her house and took a deep breath before stepping inside. The house was quiet. Everyone must have been still asleep. Jude looked down at her cell phone, reading the time. It was only 6 o'clock. No wonder. She walked up to her room, quietly, and then unwrapped the cloth from her wrist, carefully. It hurt so she bit her lip, holding in her groans of pain. Once it was finally off she went into the bathroom and washed the cut. It was still bleeding because of how deep she went but it wasn't as bad as the previous day. After she cleaned her arm she applied medacine on the cut and wrapped it with a bandage. She was disgusted with herself and was hopefully never going to be pushed to the limit again. After all of this was done she went back to her room and collapsed on the bed, drifting off into a comfortable slumber.

"Jude!" Victoria's voice pierced through Jude's ears. She opened her eyes, wearily and felt arms cradling her.

"Yeah mom?" She asked, sleepily.

"You're okay," She sobbed, continuing to cradle her daughter, and Jude allowed her mother to do so. After a few minutes of this Jude decided to speak up and pull from Victoria.

"I'm sorry. I don't want you to worry about me," She said, truthfully. Victoria smiled weakly and ran her hand through Jude's messy hair.

"Your my daughter..it's my job to worry." She admitted.

Jude smiled slightly and looked down at her still-bloody sheet. Her smile soon faded. Victoria followed Jude's eyes to the sheet and her eyes darkened. Jude rubbed the bandage, tenderly.

"Look..I-" She started.

Victoria shook her head and put her hand on top of Jude's.

"I love you, honey." She said, tears dwelling in her eyes.

"I love you too mom.."

Victoria pulled Jude back into an embrace and the two sat in her room most of the day, crying, talking and going over all the things that they needed to say. Jude convinced Victoria that she didn't need a shrink and that she was perfectly capable of getting better on her own. Victoria questoned her about her eating, sleeping, and everything else she had been worried about and Jude explained she hadn't been eating right and that she would try to do better. They made an agreement that if she started to do better on her own in the next couple of months then she wouldn't have to go see any kind of doctor, but if she got worse then she would have to be hospitalized. Victoria also agreed to keep everything a secret between her and her daughter. No one was going to find out what had went on or what Jude was going through.

-7 months into Sadie's pregnancy-

Sadie walked inside her house, with Jude at her side. After opening the door Sadie immediately spotted the banner hanging across the ceiling. It read 'Congratulations Sadie!' and quite a few girls that were Sadie's age came from the living room, holding packages and cards in hand.

"Hey Sadie!" Alot of them greeted, taking her in a snug embrace. Jude sighed and walked away from all the comotion. She found her mother in the kitchen, smiling.

"Hey mom," Jude greeted.

"Hey Jude, why are you in here?"

Jude pointed towards the living room.

"They are blonde, preppy, and pink..it's like a Sadie convention,"

Victoria chuckled.

"I'm sure your sister wants you in there, it is her baby shower and your the one who planned it for her, after all."

Jude rolled her eyes, regretting it.

"Yeah..I suppose," She walked back into the living room and then sat on the couch, away from the squealing girls. Jude didn't even recognize any of them. When she said it was like a Sadie convention, she wasn't over exaggerating. Almost every girl in there was blonde and was atleast wearing a touch of pink.

She couldn't help but laugh at the silly conversations she overheard around her. Some of the girls were asking the stupidest questions like- "How horrible is it to wear a mini skirt while pregnant?" or, "Do you feel fat?" And then there was her favorite, "Are you going to name the little one 'Little Tommy Q?"

Jude cracked up. A few of the girls eyed her and gave her weird looks. Seriously, Jude could care less.

Finally Sadie decided it was time to talk to her sister.

"Hey." She greeted, taking a seat next to Jude.

"Hey,"

"You plan all of this?" Sadie asked.

Jude shrugged and Sadie smiled.

"Thanks.." She hugged her sister which caused a few whispers from the other blondes. One of them came up to the two.

"Sadie! what are you doing?" She asked, her hands on her hips and a look of pure disgust on her face. Sadie let go of Jude and gave the girl a questioning look.

"Isn't that the cutter?" The girl asked a few of the other girls that were surrounding them. Sadie's jaw dropped and Jude glared at her.

"Who..how.." Sadie started.

The accusing blonde pulled Sadie from the couch as if Jude were diseased or something. Sadie pulled her arm away from the girl and sent Jude an apologetic look. Jude brushed her look off and shot up from the couch and made her way through the muttering bunch. When she reached the door she turned around once and looked at Sadie.

"Wouldn't want to embarrass you or anything." And with that she left. Sadie pushed the girl away and ran after Jude but she was already gone. Jude walked angrily down the road, as she did so many times before when a blue viper pulled up beside her.

"Jude?" He called out, his car idling down thw road as she walked.

"Not now, Tommy." She spat, walking a little faster.

He quickly caught up with her.

"Aren't you suppose to be at the babyshower?" He asked, stupidly.

She shot a death glare at him.

"Okay.." Tommy pulled over and parked the car. He then got out and grabbed Jude's arm.

"Whats going on?"

She tried to pull her arm away but he had a strong grip on her. She finally gave up and looked up into his concerned eyes.

"I just wanted her to have a nice party." She said, sadly. He nodded..still not understanding why she was walking down the street.

"Why'd you leave?"

She shook her head, remembering he didn't know about her incidents.

"Not my scene, I guess.." She lied. It worked. He laughed.

"Why do you think I'm not there?" He asked. She gave him a look.

"You're a guy. You're not suppose to be there anyway," She said, obviously annoyed.

He shrugged.

"Well, you want to go get something to eat or somethin'?" He asked, gesturing towards his car. Jude looked at his car and smiled. She always felt so comfortable and safe in his car. Or better yet, with him.

"Yeah.." She said, smiling.

He smiled back and the two stepped into the car.

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