A/N - Thanks for the reviews ya'll! My story should be ending soon..I'm thinking about writing a sequal because of how this story is..I mean, it would make more sense that it would have to write one to "To not be okay" Because after thinking about it I realized..not sequal material..so, If ya'll want a sequal give me a hollar and tell me, k? Its up to you guys. Love ya'll and continue reviewing!

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Chapter 12 - Party girl

Tommy finally gave up and walked back into the room with Natalie who was still messing around with the keyboard.

"Sorry about that," Tommy said, settling back into his seat. She shrugged and continued to play random keys. She was very good with keyboards, pianos, stuff such as that. A guitar? She didn't know one string from the other. Tommy tried to give her lessons a few times but failed miserably.

"I like it," He said after a while of listening. She smiled and pulled away from it.

"Yeah?" Her bangs fell over her eyes.

"Yeah..it have a name?"

She shook her head and sighed.

"Nope..most of them don't." She complained, this time messing with her shoelaces. Tommy watched and smiled, everytime he was with her he felt comfortable. She had that kind of vibe. She was kind of a loner and when she was with people she didn't take anyones crap. Though, she was still a sweet person.

"Well, lets see if we can figure out a name then..play a verse." He instructed. She did as she was told and positioned herself back infront of the keyboard and began playing and singing.

"as I lay dying drentched in misery,

my blood

the thought of defeat haunts me

i lost my soul through the battle

i was blinded by my conciounce

therefore i can not see what is before me

as i lay dieing i think about my past

I will never have a future youve taken it away

In my life ive caused so much pain

youve taken the guilt away

I feel no more shame

as i lay dieing."

She stopped and her fingers stayed on the last keys they touched. Tommy sat, amazed.

"Its good, but so depressing," He said, grabbing a guitar and starting to mimick her earlier chords.

"I like writing depressing stuff..it gets my mind off of things. It lets me get everything out," She said, shrugging her shoulders.

"What about.. My defeat?" He asked, still playing around with chords. She smiled and nodded.

"Good." He then layed the guitar back in its original spot and checked his cell phone for missed calls. Of course, there were none.

"Waiting for someone?" She asked, feeling a bit awkward.

"Kind of.." He said, trying not to give away too much emotion.

Meanwhile-

"Jude, come on. You are going in." Victoria screamed, locking her car.

"I am not going in there mom." She replied, refusing to leave the car.

"Jude, act your age!"

"If you'd treat me like an adult, I'd act like one!"

"If you'd stop making stupid decisions, maybe I would treat you differently!"

"Whats that suppose to mean?"

"You are hurting yourself, you are not eating right, you barely ever sleep..and when you do sleep its for days at a time, your grades are C's and under. You need to hear more, Jude?"

About this time Jude had stepped out of the car and was face to face with her mother. She had been okay until now, now her mother had gotten personal. She felt like she was a disappointment to everyone. She really didn't want to be..she couldn't help it and it was killing her to hear this from her mom. The one who had been the most understanding through it all.

"Sorry I'm such a disappointment." Jude turned her head from her mother and allowed the tears to flow again. Victoria reached out and attempted to grab Jude but Jude jerked away.

"Just forget it," She said, walking out of Victoria's view.

"Jude...Jude!" It was hopeless, she wouldn't turn.

Victoria stood in front of the hospital for a while, debating what she should do, when her cell phone started going off. She wiped her tear-stained face and answered it.

"Hello?"

"Mom, My water broke! and I can't get ahold of Tommy!"

"Oh god, Okay hang tight. I'll be there in a few minutes." Victoria hung the phone up and quickly unlocked her car, getting in. 'The perfect time for Jude to run off..' She thought to herself and sped off.

Meanwhile-

"Your wife?" Natalie asked.

Tommy's face shot up and he shook his head vigorously.

"I don't have a wife. You mean Sadie? No, I'm not waiting for her." He informed.

"Oh, you and Sadie aren't married?"

"No."

"Sorry.." She felt slightly stupid now.

"Don't worry about it," He shook her previous question off.

"So..you are waiting for the other pretty blonde to call, aren't ya?" She asked in a flirty tone. Tommy averted his eyes to the recording room. She smiled.

"Thought so,"

At that minute Tommy's cell phone started to vibrate.

"I've gotta take this," He said, pulling it out and walking out of the room again.

"Sure sure," She said, still in her flirty tone.

"Hello?"

"Hey man, Sadie is at the hospital..shes having the baby." Kwests voice chimed through the phone.

"No way."

"Yeah. You better get down here quick."

"Down there? why are you there?"

"We've tried to reach you but we kept getting the voice mail. Sadie didn't want to be here alone, her mom drove her down here and then called me trying to find you."

"I'll be there in a few." He hung up the phone and peaked his head in the room again.

"I gotta go, be here tuesday," With that he left the studio and pulled his car out into the darkness.

-Meanwhile

Jude walked down the street and watched the cars pass her. Some would honk and she would ignore them, feeling she couldn't do anything about it. She didn't have a destination, all she knew was she couldn't go home. At least no one could reach her, her cell phone was turned off and in the backseat of her mom's car. All of a sudden, after turning a corner she spotted a few bright lights coming from a house. Cars were lined up down the side of the street and loud music could be heard. It was a party. Jude had never been to one..not a real one anyway. Of course there was the occasional birthday parties, which she hated and you could only guess why. But she had never actually partied.

She wiped a stray tear from her face and straightened her sweatshirt out. She was going to have fun tonight, she was going to be wild and different. She was going to forget what everyone else had told her. Why not make another bad decision?

Jude started toward the house and watched a few kids her age check her out, some giving her weird glances. She smiled in return, trying to fit in. Most of the people there were already drunk, it wasn't hard to tell.

"Hey!" Some boy called. Jude looked around, trying to figure out if he was talking to her or somebody else. She pointed to herself and lipped 'Me'? He smiled and nodded so she walked up to him.

"Hi," She said, simply.

"Hey, you're the instant star winner, right? Jude Harrison? Damn..you're hot in person!" His words were slurred and barely stumbled out. She laughed at his forwardness.

"Yeah..thats me..thanks?"

"You want to get outta here?" The boy asked, putting his arm around her shoulders.

"Um," Jude looked around, unsure of what to say to that. She thought about it for a moment before smiling at him again.

"Sure.." The boy smirked and grabbed a couple of beers off the table before pulling Jude into an empty room and closing the door behind them.

Meanwhile-

"Hey, I got here as quick as I could..how is she?" Tommy asked, out of breath from running through the hospital.

"Shes fine, Tom." Victoria answered, coldly. Tommy nodded and put his hands inside of the jacket.

"Shes two months early, is the baby alright?" He asked, feeling guilty and worried.

"I had Sadie pre-mature, the baby should be fine. It happens all the time." She informed. Afterwards, tommy leaned against the wall.

"Shouldn't one of us be in there with her?" He asked, unknowing.

"She wants me in there. You are not welcome," Victoria walked through the double doors and left Kwest and Tommy alone in the waiting room.

"Did that just happen?" Tommy aked, shocked.

"Yeah, that just happened.." He said, looking down at the hospital floor. Tommy figured if he went against Victoria's wishes and went in there, there would be an argument and he didn't feel like it right now. He took a seat next to Kwest and leaned back against the back of the chair.

"Tom, I gotta tell you something," Kwest said, lightly. Tommy leaned forward and locked eyes with his friend who was desperately trying to look elswhere.

"What?"

A/N - So? Whatcha think? Yes? No? Maybe? Undecided? Not sure! Anything people..I'll be happy with whatever ya'll wanna give me heh :) Thanks once again, I can't thank ya'll enough..and please review