A/N - Thanks for the reviews you guys! And sorry if I confused ya'll last time, I meant a sequel to this story, but nevermind. I think after this one I'm going to take a break from writing..maybe I'll write one in a few weeks. Thanks again :)

Disclaimer- I do now own Instant Star

Chapter 13 - I want to tell you

The boy pulled Jude close to him and began trailing kisses down her neck. She smiled, feeling cared for..for once. He stopped and pulled away, handing her a beer.

"Thanks" She twisted the top off and took a long sip, choking afterwards.

"Hey baby, chill..it ain't goin' nowhere." He smirked and took it away from her once again, backing her against a bed. She allowed him to do so. Beginning to kiss her neck again, he carefully leaned her down on the bed. She pulled away for a second, trying to slow things down a bit.

"Whats your name?" She asked, looking into his pretty green eyes.

"Daren.." He captured her lips and placed the beers on the floor before his hands began to roam her body.

Meanwhile -

"Come on Kwest, what is it man?" Tommy urged his friend to continue. Kwest lost his nerve.

"Goodluck. You're gonna be a great dad." Kwest said, smiling. Tommy gave him a weird look and then nodded.

"Thanks man."

"No problem T.."

After a few minutes of awkward silence Tommy got up and walked out of the hospital so he could use his cell phone, the signal sucked inside. He scrolled through his contacts until he reached Jude's name and then he hit the call button. After ringing several times he closed his phone and stuffed it back in his pocket.

"Where the hell is she?" He asked the air.

Meanwhile-

"Mom it hurts!" Sadie was doing her breathing exercises and she was already complaining about contractions. Victoria gripped her daughter's hand tightly and tried to comfort her.

"Where is Tommy? why isn't he here?" Sadie asked, gripping her stomach. Victoria looked down at her daughter's hand in hers and shook her head.

"I don't know." She lied. Sadie groaned in discomfort. This was going to be a long night.

Meanwhile -

Daren's hands slipped under Jude's sweatshirt and she tensed at his touch. He felt her tense and broke away from her lips.

"You okay?" He asked, alcohol warming his breath. Jude pulled her arms from her sides and placed her hands on his back.

"Yeah.." She said, hesitantly. He began to pull her sweat shirt off but she grabbed his hands, stopping him.

"Don't be scared..about what you see, I mean." She said, letting go of his hands. He didn't understand what she meant by that, I don't think he would have understood it if he wasn't drunk, but he shh'd her and pulled it completely off, leaving her in jeans and a tank top shirt. His eyes widened.

"You.."

"I told you not to be scared.."

His fingers traced over the scars and the newly made marks up and down her arm. She shook at his touch, it felt so good to have someone touch her. Have someone even near her. She barely knew this guy, but it seemed like she had known him forever.
"Why?" He asked. She smiled.

"Everyone wants to know that..I can't give you a straight answer."

He nodded and one of his hands slipped under her shirt. He rubbed her flat stomach and his face came down to her stomach as well. He kissed it, gently. She closed her eyes.

He pulled her shirt up more and his hands went to her pants.

"Have you ever done this before?" He asked, while unbuttoning them. She shook her had, unable to speak. He smiled and pulled her pants down a bit. She started to get nervous.

"Um..hold on a second." She grabbed the beer from the ground and took a huge drink out of it. He laughed.

"You're going to make yourself sick,"

She clenched her eyes shut, trying to swallow it. It was disgusting. After finally swallowing it she got use to the taste and continued to drink the whole thing.

"Is there anymore?" She asked, setting the empty bottle aside. He chuckled.

"Yeah, I'll be right back." He kissed her forehead and then walked out. She scolded herself for doing what she was doing, but she couldn't stop now. Jude pulled her shirt back down, feeling uncomfortable.

'Come on Jude..you can do this..What would Tommy think of you? No! don't think of Tommy! He is with Sadie..They are having a baby..It could be Kwest's baby..Stop it Jude! He is not yours and most likely never will be!..Daren is nice..I think..He isn't rushing you..I want this..I can do this..Tommy will just have to deal'

She fiddled with her hands and watched the door intently. The room was so dark..maybe that was a good thing.

Meanwhile-

Tommy was already back inside with Kwest. Victoria had not come out again..it was making the two guys waiting, very nervous. Kwest kept debating whether or not he should tell Tommy what was going on..if he did Tommy could be happy about it and finally go after Jude or, he could kill him. Kwest hoped it would be the first one..

"I'm not ready to be a dad," Tommy said, burrying his face in his hands as he did before.

"Not this again, man. You can do it..don't worry," Kwest assured. Tommy shook his head and looked up.

"No, I can't..I can barely take care of myself, much less a kid." He said. Kwest laughed.

"Well..once you and Sadie are married it will make it alot easier."

Tommy snorted and spaced out for a second.

"I never pictured myself with Sadie..not married. I still can't picture it. I know this is going to sound crazy,..but dude..Jude was always there..I thought maybe if I waited for her..waited til she was legal, If I stayed with Sadie..I don't know.."

"That all the problems would go away and Jude would fall into your arms like you always wanted? Sorry man but you are with Sadie. She is having your baby..like I've said before, you have to get over her. If this isn't a big enough wake up call for you..I don't know what to tell ya."

Tommy nodded.

Meanwhile-

"Ow!" Sadie screamed, clenching the railing on the bed and Victoria's hand.

"It's okay Sadie, breathe." Victoria coached.

Sadie's eyes filled with tears.

"Mom, where is Tommy?"

"I told you Sadie, I don't know!" Victoria said it a little more harshly this time.

"Please find him," Sadie begged. Victoria shook her head.

"I can't leave you."

Sadie looked away from her mom and let a tear slide down her cheek.

A/N - Whatcha think? Did it suck:-\