Hello people! I decided to give writing an FFVIII fic a shot. Now I'm generally a SelphiexIrvine fan, but recently I came across a pairing I liked a lot and decided to try and write that one. Here's the first chapter!

Rated T: nothing in this chapter…but more may come soon…rating might go up (its slim chanced though)

I do not own FFVIII or its characters… yet… shifty eyes…you heard nothing

Seifer sat on the street corner with his face in his hands. He had never felt so low, so stupid in his entire life. His usual cocky, arrogant appearance had been dropped. There was no one to impress, no reason to keep it up. He was never one to cry. Even when he was a little boy in the orphanage he would either grin or scream, but never cry.

"Seify?"

The small boy looked up with a look of anger in his dark green eyes. He was sitting on the beach with his knees pulled to his chest and his head on his arms.

"What?" he huffed.

"Did matron spank you again" the small girl above him asked

"Yes" he mumbled into his arms

"Did you cry" she asked crouching beside him

"Boys don't cry" was the only answer she got.

Yet, here he was sitting once again with his knees at his chest and his head on his arms, yet this time a few tears managed to slip down his face.

"My life is shit" he told himself "no it's worse then shit…"

"I thought boys didn't cry"

The voice broke through his thoughts abruptly. His head shot up to see a pair of green eyes staring at him. He sighed

"What do you want messenger girl" he asked her, trying to bring back his usual proud smirk, but it was half hearted. He looked away so she wouldn't see him in this state

Why is she even talking to me? After everything I did…I don't get it

She looked up at the sky, as if looking for an answer. When she brought her head back down she sat down beside him and smiled

"Well I was going to give you a scolding but then I saw someone beat me to it, or so it looked"

The blonde boy sighed,

"Well I would have deserved it…common do your worst"

He closed his eyes and waited for the high pitched voice to tell him off for all the "mean things" he did and how he was such a "big meanie" but it never came. Instead she looked down at the pitiful boy in front of her.

Where's the boy I grew up with? The boy who set firecrackers off on the beach with me? The boy who chased Qistis with a frog when we were 3? Where's the boy who teased Zell all the time? Where's the boy who never cried?

"Common you, get up! We're going to have some fun"

Seifer's head shot up in surprise. The tears stopped instantly. Instead of an angry face he saw a smiling girl, a smile he knew since childhood, with her hand out in front of him.

"Care to repeat that Hun"

She sighed with a smile

"I said get up, im taking you out! By the time I'm done with you, your going to be the same Seifer we all knew and loved… well knew anyway."

Ignoring her hand Seifer stood and looked down at her. He was more then a foot above her.

"Why are you being so nice? Did someone hit you on the head or something…have you been drinking messenger girl?"

The ever present smile faded slightly from her face.

"No I just…"

She looked away from him, her bright green eyes not meeting his dark ones

"For some reason I just couldn't walk away without knowing that you were ok. No matter what you did you're still the same little boy who I grew up with."

He stared at her for a few moments. A silence hung in the air but it was anything but awkward. He just couldn't leave her, not after everyone had given him the cold shoulder yet here she was trying to forgive him. Because of what? A few years of childhood.

Somehow a familiar smirk found its way back to his face

"Well then toots…lead the way"

Her eyes lit up when he agreed. His smirk made him look like the same boy she knew. She quickly grabbed his hand and began to pull him up the street before he could change his mind. He had to laugh, she was so energetic so carefree it almost made him wonder if she forgot everything he had done to her…to her friends…to everyone. The smile slowly drifted off his face.

She couldn't have forgotten…something has to be up…I really don't get her at all.

Suddenly she stopped walking, causing him to barley keep from crashing into her.

"What the hell are you…"

But he was cut off by her waving her hand in his face to shut him up. She dropped his hand and for some reason he felt like something was missing.

Get a hold of your self! This is messenger girl! Since when do you care about her… that's right you don't…your acting like that damn cowboy wanna-be

"Looky Seify"

That name struck home. No one had called him that in almost 16 years. It was a child hood nickname that girl in front of him had made up. She had one for everyone, but it still felt special. She had really been the only one of the children at the orphanage who had really cared for him at all.

He seemed to have drifted off so she tugged on his coat to get his attention once more.

"Look, look how bright that star is Seify"

He smiled, only her. Only she could get that excited about a single star. She was bouncing up and down like a five year old on Christmas. He still looked up none the less, he couldn't help it. After all she was doing, after the bastard he had been was more then he deserved and he could never repay it so it was the least he could do to look at the star. It wasn't hard to miss, the city stopped a lot of stars from being seen so this one was special to stand out. Go figure she saw it, she was always noticing things like that.

"It's….bright….I guess."

Was all he was able to say. What do you say about a star?

Beats me

"Well then, that will be our star" she said with a giggle "ill call it….umm…Selpher!"

He stared at her for a few minutes "umm selpher? Where the hell did that come from"

She lightly hit him over the shoulder, mainly because she couldn't reach his head

"Duh silly, Selphie and Seifer combined to become Selpher" she looked so proud of herself it was almost sad.

He nodded.

"Fine, that's our star then"

They walked on in silence, and every once and a while he couldn't help but glance up to where that single star shone in the sky

Its just a star man get a grip on yourself…yet… star or not, is this what its like to be… truly accepted? No, no one accepts me! Im Seifer egotistical jerk who tries to destroy the world for a few moments of machoism… yet

He glanced to the girl at his side

Why doesn't she see it, she has to see it…

Well that's the first chapter! Hope you enjoyed it! Please Review it…please… common click to button, you know you want to!