A/N - Thanks for the reviews you guys:) Well, I don't have much to say this time..surprising huh? lol here's chapter 18-

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Chapter 18 - Stupid

Tommy carried Jude through the crowd of wondering eyes. Even though the music was loud, almost everyone had heard what had went on in the room. He brushed by Jake and the other guys who were glaring at him and a few of the guys winked at Sarah. She smiled seductively at them. Tommy grunted, pulling Sarah close to him and walking out of the house, disgusted. Jude's eyes were now closed and her face was turned into Tommy's chest. Once they got near the car he cursed himself for bringing the viper.

"You're going to have to hold her," Tommy said to Sarah who widened her eyes.

"Excuse me? I don't think so. I'm not leaving." She said, Matter-of-factly. He laughed a little out of irritation.

"Oh yes you are," He said, supporting Jude with one arm and using his other hand to open the passenger car door. She looked at him in disbelief and gave in, walking over to the car. She scoffed and got in and Tommy put Jude in Sarah's lap before shutting the door and making his way to the driver's side. He got in and started the car, along with a lecture.

"Are you really that stupid?" He asked, his anger pointed at Sarah. A smirk formed across her lips.

"You know Tom..you used to like us bad girls." She said, eyeing him suggestively. He shook his head and his eyes fell back on the road.

"Does Incson know about your little night job?" Tommy asked, still disgusted. Sarah giggled.

"How do you think he found me?" She asked, bringing her hand to his knee and clutching it slightly. He took one hand off the wheel and pushed her's away.

"Where's your place?" He asked, looking out at the road. She sighed and gave him directions to her place. The rest of the ride was silent to her house. Once they got there, he got out and took Jude in his arms to make sure she wouldn't get hurt. Sarah rolled her eyes once again and blew a kiss at him.

"See you monday," She said before walking down a walkway to her apartment.

"About that, goodluck with your new producer.." Tommy said, carefully putting Jude back in the seat. Sarah turned around and her expression suddenly turned serious.

"What?" She asked, breathless.

"I'm out." He said, getting back in the car and speeding off without another word.

His eyes went from the road to Jude multiple times. She looked so helpless..so..lifeless. He wanted to hold her in his arms and kiss her gently, letting her know everything would be okay..but it wouldn't and he knew it. She would probably never give him the time of day, not now. He knew she needed help..she wasn't healthy and this crap wasn't doing her any good either. Whatever they gave her was certainly strong and it definitely had an affect on her. Thank god he got there before they did anything worse.

Where was he suppose to take her? He couldn't take her home..no one was there and he wasn't going to leave her alone. And he had no house key. The only other place was his apartment..she had never seen his apartment.

He glanced at her one last time before turning onto a street and heading towards his home.

Once they were there, the sudden stop made her open her eyes and she looked up at him. Her eyes were glossed over and red, but still..she was the prettiest thing he had ever seen.

"You okay?" He asked softly, concern written all over his face and clearly showing through his deep, husky voice.

Tears started to swell in her eyes. Everything that had happened rushed back to her, even what had happened between her and Tommy. All of this was too much to handle. He watched a tear make it's way down her cheek and he wiped it away, gently.

"It's okay Jude..I'm here." He tried to comfort her, but he didn't want to touch her.

"Tommy.." She groaned in pain and tried to get up from the laying position she was in. He pushed his arm out and stopped her.

"Don't try to move," He said, opening his door and getting out. He walked to her side of the car and opened it, cautiously. After doing so he picked her up bridal style again and made his way into the building with his arms around her, protecting her.

Once they took the elevator, he even managed to unlock the door with one hand. When he stepped inside he turned on the light and closed the door behind them. Jude closed her eyes, trying to get them adjusted to the light and felt herself being carried and then gently sat down on something soft. She looked down and recognized this thing as a couch. He hovered over her for a moment, searching for any other cuts or bruises he needed to know about. He saw no other so he went into the kitchen and grabbed some ice, wrapping it in a rag and wetting it slightly. He brought it up to her and sat beside her on the couch, holding it to her busted lip. She immediately flinched from the pain and he pulled it back only for a second.

"It'll take the swelling down." He said, bringing it back to her lips.

She stared blankly at the inside of the couch and her shoulders began to shake so Tommy looked up at her newly tear filled eyes. This was killing him.

"I'm so stupid." She sobbed. The drug was starting to wear off and she could move a little bit. She brought her hands out of she sheet and wrapped them around her chest, self-conciously. Tommy couldn't help but look away.

"Look at me.." She said, barely motioning toward her outfit. He didn't look at her, only stared at the coffee table before him.

"I was so scared," She whispered.

Tommy finally looked over at her and watched the different expression on her face. She looked so guilty..yet so innocent. How could one person hold so many feelings?

"You'll be okay." He cooed, finally letting himself touch her. He carefully brushed her hair out of her face, but at his touch she started to shake. He immediately pulled away and looked at her one last time before retreating to the kitchen, once again.

Jude scolded herself for the reaction she had to Tommy touching her, but she couldn't help it. She was so scared and at anyone's touch she would have jumped.

A few minutes later Tommy came back with a bottle of water and set it on the table beside her.

"Drink it, It'll help." He said with a concerned smile and then he walked into a room and came back a few minutes later with a few blankets and pillows in hand. Jude smiled at him.

He wrapped two of the blankets over her and put a pillow under her head, gently and then kissed her on the forehead. This time she didn't move. He then sat in the recliner next to her and also fixed the blanket over him and the pillow behind his head.

"Try to get some sleep," He said, switching the lamp that sat next to him off. Jude pushed herself up and watched his tired eyes slowly close and soon he was asleep. She couldn't sleep, not after everything that had happened that night.

She turned to her side and continued to watch Tommy. He looked so peaceful when he slept, he looked like an angel..her angel. That brought a small smile to her face and tears to her eyes. He was Sadie's..so she thought. If only she could get up and find something sharp, she'd end her misery right then and there, close to the one she loved. The only one she loved.

After a while of just watching him her vision started to dim and everything was going dark. Her eyes closed and she drifted off into a unpleasant sleep and an unpleasant dream.

Jude lay on the bed, limp under his strong arms. He was kissing her right below her ear and she tried to stop him, but once again she couldn't move.

"No.." She groaned, weakly holding her hands to his chest. He smiled down at her and his piercing blue eyes looked right through her.

His hands traveled up and down her exposed stomach and his mouth ran along her collar bone. She heard laughing in the background and saw things unimaginable going on around her.

"Please.." She groaned, pushing him a bit harder this time. The man just smiled down at her viciously and his hands made their way down to her theighs.

"Thats right, beg for it." The guy said, smirking.

She shook her head slowly. He knew she didn't mean it like that.

"Come on girl, beg." She heard him once again and his hands made their way higher. She bit her bottom lip and wimpered from the weight about her.

She looked up again into his once loving eyes and her own filled with tears as his hand finally met it's destination. She squirmed from the pain and cried under him.

"Tommy please don't..no.." She cried helplessly.

Jude opened her eyes and wiped the sweat from her forehead. Her shirt was drenched with wetness and so were the blankets that were surrounding her. Her eyes fell on the figure sitting on the floor beside her. He rubbed her cheek gently.

"It was only a nightmare..I'm here," Tommy cooed, letting her cry into his shoulder.

A/N- So? What did you think? Hope I didn't disappoint anyone..please review you guys:) Y'all are still awesome!