summary: We all see Ryuichi as a very happy thirty year singer. But what do we really know about him? And why does he really have Kumagaro? R&R Yaoi Don't like? Don't read!
Disclaimer: I do NOT own Gravitation nor it's sexy characters!
MissesLadyLuck Ok, I think I'll be able to keep up with all these stories.
Here's some news:
The Forbidden Angel: I am going to discontinue and write a sequel. I don't like how it's going so far
Ainu No Shinzo: Defenitely going to continue, just have writer's block. I
may even rrepost it as a yaoi...maybe!
'Kumagaro "talking"
'Ryuichi thinking'
'Ryuichi's suicidal thoughts'
"Lyrics"
/Quick Flash/
Flashback
Dreaming
That's it. So, hope you like this!
Enjoy!
Chapter 2: Hospitalized; What's Going On!
Ryuichi POV
'Where...am I?' I open my eyes, only to instantly regret it. 'The lights are way too bright in these hospitals...Wait hospital?' I can't really remember what happened, or how I got here. Ok, I'm seriously freaked out! What's going on! Matte, matte...ok, I'm just going to get up slowly and ..."Ow!" 'Jeez! That hurt, what the-? My hands!' Suddenly, memories start pouring back: I was running away from a bunch of rabid fans after a concert...I went into my apartment and sat there with Kumagaro for a while...I slit my wrists and sank to the floor-
"..." T-that's right! I slit my wrists! And not just them, I cut myself everywhere! I was bleeding all over!
...But...then how am I alive...? Only two words can come to mind. "Tatsuha-kun..."
Hey, I actually remembered his na- Tatsuha-kun! But-wait-he carried me to the hospital!
I can remember...him...his face...when he came in the door... /"Sakuma-sama, I just wanted to give you these flowers and ask you-OH MY GOD! Sakuma-sama! What the hell are you doing!"/
Why did he look at me like that? His face was so full of...'Love...care...for me?' No. I won't think that! Not again...Last time, I only let myself down. There I go...how do the Americans say it? Actin' a fool...everyone's fool...
"Perfect by nature
Icons of self indulgence"
But oh...OH how I would love to think that...No! Stop it! I won't let my heart be misled and broken! Not again...He's just a fanboy anyway...But still.../There are tears in his eyes as he rubs the sides of my face with his hands. 'Why does he care so much?'/
"Just what we all need
More lies about a world that
Never was and never will be "
I remember when I had my last boyfriend...in highschool. He was gorgeous. A varsity football player from America! Transfered student, obviously. Anyway...him and I were together for quite sometime. It was so perfect until...Never mind, I don't want to talk about it. Great...now I'm depressed even more. He only ever thought about what would be good for him...I fell in love with him...only to have my heart broken..He just didn't have time for me; except when it was time for a screw. So...I stayed out of relationships until Tohma. And even he...no.../"D-don't worry, Sakuma-sama..."/
"Have you no shame don't you see me "
Tears are brimming my eyes, so I reach up to wipe them away but-"Ouch!" My face, it's covered in bandages from all the cuts. Geez, I can't rub too hard...Hehehe...Imagine if all of my fans could see me now. In bandages. They'll never believe it...unless, oh crap! The press. If it goes out in the news that I tried to commit suicide...Oh no! /"everything will be alright, ok?"/
"You know you've got everybody fooled "
'I've got to get Tohma to stop this!' So, I get up quickly, ignoring the great jolt of pain in my stomach, which was a stupid thing to do, because I fell over. Groaning slightly, I try to pick myself back up...only to discover that the great jolt of pain in my stomach had been a rather large gash reopening. So now, I'm bleeding all over the floor, in a dog's position, head down and, oh great, I'm going to cry...again!
'My fans, what would they think...what would they say...to see the godlike, handsome Ryuichi on the floor? Bleeding.' That just proves that when you're a famous singer...no one knows the real you. They just see someone famous and beautiful and spreading this beauty through words of song...that's what I see in their eyes.
"Look here he comes now
Bow down and stare in wonder"
Idolism is supposed to be perfection. They look at you. Judge you. Lust you...
"Oh how we love you"
I wish it were that simple. But that's life. A good kick in the ass! And that's why I can't start liking him...that Tatsuha boy! /"No worries..."/
"No flaws when you're pretending
But now I know he
Never was and never will be"
Speaking of which, I must have been crying pretty pitifully now, because I heard a voice...a heavenly voice. But it wasn't saying something that you'd expect an angel to say. "Snort Oi! Whoever you are...this is Ryuichi Sakuma's room! So shut it or I'll...!"
He stared at me for a second...before snapping into action.
End Ryuichi POV Start Tatsuha POV!
Ryuichi and I are sitting under a sakura tree, its petals and flowers are falling slowly...as if enchanted. The field is beautiful, and the grass is greener then any I've ever expected in Tokyo...And things are PERFECT: We have an excellent view of the water, the sun is setting, making the sky a gorgeous plum pink and the clouds a lovely lilac...But best of all, the great Sakuma-sama is sitting-in-my-lap! Exscuse me while I faint like a highschool girl! He's turned so that he's laying his head on my chest, curled up catlike on my thighs with our fingers interlinked, his beautiful hair, which always smells like strawberries and cream in my dreams, is tickling my upper lip under my nose. Slowly, enchantingly, he lifts his dazzling sapphire eyes to meet mine. There's a blaze of passion in those eyes, like when he's singing...only softer...The look he only saves for me. We lean forward...he's so close, I could count every perfectly curved eyelash on his eyelids...
THUMP! There goes my wonderful dream!
I groggily open my eyes and lift my head up from my arms on a chair near the window...A little bit away from Sakuma-sama's bed. 'If it's one of those damn crazy nurse fans again coming in here to "check" on MY Ryuichi...they'd better run!' They just interupted a dream that could have had me masturbating and moaning Ryuichi's perfect name for weeks! So, snorting slightly in anger, I turned to yell at the nurse, who sounded like she was crying, though I'd cry too if I knew I'd woken me up from a lust-filled dream...Matte..oh well, anywho!
I turned around and started to yell, "Oi! Whoever you are...this is Ryuichi Sakuma's room! So shut it or I'll...!"
I'm so shocked right now...One: The person crying on the floor is not a nurse...nor a female...two: It's really Ryuichi...Three: He's bleeding! Kneeling on the floor there...looking so helpless, scared...beautiful. I can't stop it...The vulgar thought of Ryuichi in a night gown, which kinda appeals to me like a dress...bleeding so beautiful with his head bowed...the overhead light shining on the newly mopped floor, reflecting the light like a ray of sunshine on the center of my affections.
God...so help me...I will not molest Ryuichi!...Not now anyway. He needs my help! And I doubt molesting will do much.
So, I immeadiately run over.
End Tatsuha POV Start Normal POV
Tatsuha was over at Ryuichi's side in no seconds flat. "Oh, Sakuma-san, do you need help? Matte, of course you do! Wrap your arm around my neck, I'll get your waist and...here we go!"
Tatsuha managed to help a limping Ryuichi over to his bed, where he laid him down before sitting up and tucking Ryuichi's pillow softly under his head. "There, now just lie there Sakuma-san, I'll call a nurse!" Tatsuha went over to the side of the bed, preeing the red button that was there.
"Ok, one should be on her way. Until then, let my slow the bleeding down."
Tatsuha went into the bathroom before coming out a few seconds later, an emergency hospital sponge and bowl of water in tow.
He mopped up Ryuichi's wounds before the nurse came, insisting on cleaning and wrapping the wounds herself. However, though the nurse started asking Ryuichi small questions, Ryuichi nodding or shaking his head slightly for each, his tired eyes were locked with Tatsuha's, and Tatsuha did his best to make himself look taller and more manly. Irritatingly eyeing the nurse the whole time...'Bet you're enjoying that, eh bitch?'
But in between his jealous thoughts and Ryuichi's closing eyes, Tatsuha new that he'd made some sort of small connection in Ryuichi's mind. He'd just have to keep it growing and tenderize it until it was ready to be brought out.
That was fine by him.
"You don't know how you've betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled
Without the mask where will you hide
Can't find yourself lost in your lie
I know the truth now
I know who you are
And I don't love you anymore
It never was and never will be
You're not real and you can't save me
Somehow now you're everybody's fool "
End Chapter 2
MissesLadyLuck: kinda short, kinda long, ne? anyway, review and read and stuff!
matte- wait
Bai-bai!
Chapter song- Everyone's Fool by Evanescence