Kim's eyes glowed as she gazed at him. Mindlessly she uttered an "okay" and took the snug seat available beside him. Josh looked like the same old Josh. His eyes weren't droopy and red. His clothes didn't smell like trash. His skin hadn't even lost its perfect peachy tone. His dark hair and perfect lips looked striking in the unlit room. And on the contrary, his eyes were more piercing than she had ever seen. Josh's sapphire eyes had always obsessed her but tonight she could feel them gazing over her adoringly. Yes he was the same Josh. The same man she had stalked secretly and adored from a distance. The man she had come to love and then eventually hate. Or did she love him more? She didn't know. He was a jerk in every ounce of her mind, and yet, he was beautiful, painfully beautiful. She couldn't forget him if she tried. Her body shifted closer to him so their hips aligned against each other.

"So how are you Kim?" Josh said as he folded his hands comfortably over his lap.

"Good." Kim beamed. She noticed a lack of nervousness in her own voice tonight.

"How's Ron?"

So they had reached him. Kim said what she thought she was supposed to. "He's good. Things are well, I couldn't be happier frankly."

However she questioned her own judgment when Josh muttered, "Really?"

The documentary came on. It turned out to be about expert mountain climbers who overcame a terrible disaster while climbing. While the entire storyline was jaw dropping, Kim couldn't help her eyes from wandering to Josh's face. His face met hers.

"What?"

"N-nothing." She spluttered scared.

"What're you staring at?"

"…..I-I….I was wondering if we could discuss what happened earlier." She blurted all of a sudden.

Josh looked unaffected by her outburst. He shrugged and switched off the television. "Go ahead Kim."

Kim took a deep breath: "Josh I really don't understand what is going on with you. We all learned a long time ago that drugs are not a path to a better life. They make you feel good but they deliver consequences later. Please Josh, I respect you as a person but you've got to stop this. You're harming yourself and I don't want that."

Josh's face was unreadable, "And-?"

"A-and I want you to see Doctor Lu. She's a drug counselor. She's only going to talk to you. Help you get through this mess. You need help Josh and I've got it for you. No cost on your side whatsoever. Only gain."

She looked at Josh. He wasn't smiling. He was looking into her eyes. His own blue eyes were blazing wildly now. He looked perilous. All of a sudden he grabbed her shoulder and shoved her onto the couch.

"What are you doing?" He questioned loudly.

"Josh…"

"No Kim. Why are you doing this?"

"Josh…" She whined.

"Why are you doing this?" He repeated. "You don't give a shit about me."

Kim started to become teary eyed. "No that isn't true. It's not…"

"Yes it is." Josh continued ranting. "You're with Ron now. You don't need to have anything to do with me. You don't need to pretend like you care."

"I do care."

"No you don't."

Kim got to her feet. "I do too."

Josh shoved her back down. "Then prove it."

"I LOVE YOU!" She exclaimed through fury. Her teary eyes sparkled and she gazed up at him wonderingly.

Josh rubbed his chin and looked like he had taken a huge shot in the stomach. He looked like he was almost hurting. "You left me…" He echoed.

Kim wasn't sure what to say. "I…."

"You left me… YOU LEFT ME! You liar! You don't love me!" He grabbed her by her shirt and began to shake her angrily.

"I do love you! I do!" She shouted. Unwanted tears began to stream down her face.

"LIES!" Without thinking he slapped her.

Kim felt the pain boil inside her. "I'm out of here!" She began to stomp toward her belongings. Josh grabbed her wrist and squeezed. "No, wait."

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Notes: Yay an update at last! There should be 2-3 more chapters left! Plz leave reviews! We're working towards a climax here. Is Josh up to good or bad? Next chapter will be the most suspenseful yet!