All You Wanted
Chapter 6: Behind These Wounds
By: Crazyanimeluva
Are you guys kidding me? 102 reviews! Ouch...now I feel guilty.
Eh heh…long wait, ne? Guess what? I'm on SUMMER VACATION! I think this year was the one I was more appreciative towards the fact that summer vacation is on. It's been tiring, but I passed all my exams! I know it took…months. Sadly, I have these crazy summer school classes I have to go to. Anyway, I hate to do this, but Nami is going to suffer a lot more and even more in the chapters to come, and I do want to say sorry to the poor girl seeing as all the hell I've put her through. Other than that, this chapter will basically revolve around Kyogue and…okay, I'll shut up.
Anyway sorry for the wait and thank you for all your reviews!
Eyes flooding with tears as she ran, her shoulders shaking from the sobs she tried forcing back. All the months she held back with dry tears wasted as she cried. The haunting word ran through her mind. Aishiteru…
"You're supposed to hate me for lying to you. Why do you…? How can you when I hate myself? Kai…"
She saw Crystal staring at her with shocked eyes. Nami's tears seemed to slow down as she threw the blue-eyed girl a glare so fierce, Crystal actually moved back a step.
"Can't everyone just back off? We're not together because we never were in the first place! I hate him…I hate him and he hates me! It's all a lie!" Nami threw her fist into the wall, and placed her other hand over her left eye as if trying to stop the water.
"Atlanta!"
"No. Don't call me that. Atlanta died! So shut up, Crystal!"
"I dare you…I dare you to say that you hate him and mean it. Look me in the eye and say it, Atlanta! Say it!" Crystal yelled, sadness and anger screaming inside her.
Nami walked up to her and grabbed a hold of Crystal's shoulders before she looked her in the eye, "I-hate-him! That's IT! There isn't anymore to it. You happy!"
The disturbed girl pushed Crystal back before she turned.
Crystal lifted an arm and wiped her eyes with the back of her hand, "Heh. Nami, are you going to keep running? Keep running away? You're the one who lied. You do love him, more than anything. Your eyes say it all."
A smile graced her mouth.
"Shut up…just shut up! You all just don't get it…I hate you! I hate everyone!" Nami's hands curled into fists.
The black-haired girl moved toward Nami and forcefully turned her around, "You're acting like a child. Grow up, brat." With that a hand came down harshly upon Nami's cheek and the atmosphere froze.
Nami immediately threw her arms around Crystal and hugged her tightly as if hanging for dear life.
"Shh…it'll work out, Nami." She muttered, rubbing her back, trying to soothe her.
"Damn…she just completely lost it and it was just after meeting him. Geez did you really fall so deep, Atlanta-chan? So deeply just for him? Oh Kami-san…how much longer will it take? What did he say to her?" Crystal thought as the shaking girl gave a shuddering sigh. (1)
At that moment, a silver-haired girl wearing a peculiar black hat sat up on the couch in the team rooms with a heavy sigh.
Kyogue mumbled some inaudible words under her breath and her previously red eyes were now calm silver. She felt herself relaxing, her guard on a temporary auto-pilot.
"It's taking too long for the tournament to get on. If it takes forever I'll become too lazy to do anything so those idiots should get a move on and Mr. I've got a stick up my ass is too busy brooding to say anything else..." As if on reflex, she glanced over at Tala.
"I'm gonna go check out the other teams." Kyogue said. No one looked up. She frowned, her eyebrow twitching slightly. She stood up and walked over to Tala, took his ear in her fingers, yanked down and shouted, "I SAID I'm gonna go check out the other teams!"
"I heard you the first time woman! Don't yell." Tala shoved her hands away and rubbed his ear. Bryan and Sanya didn't move from their positions but a smirk followed up on both their mouths.
"Okay. Later then, and next time, you might wanna LISTEN to me, teme." She said, punching his arm. (2)
"Baka." Tala mumbled, rubbing his shoulder. (3)
Kyogue opened the door when Bryan warned suddenly, "I suggest you don't run into the Bladebreakers, Kyogue."
"Yeah yeah, whatever. Later, losers." She slammed the door shut causing Sanya to wince.
"Well, someone is excited." Sanya murmured.
"Do you have like a split personality or something?" Tala snapped irritably. He felt as if everyone was trying to get on his last nerves with annoyances growing by the second.
"...No" She said slowly. With an unreadable expression, she headed over to the other side of the room and began looking over a bonsai tree that was growing at a slow pace, fingers gliding over the maturing leaves.
"Whatever." Tala muttered, "This is too crazy for me anyway."
"It is for everyone right now." Sanya replied, her face was unusually serious, causing him to frown.
"True." He watched as she began tending the tree with careful hands, and for some reason, it eased his mind.
"Damn…this place is boooooring." Kyogue pocketed her hands and grimaced as she peered through a window where some bladers practiced.
"If this is how they blade, what was the point in coming?" she thought, watching as the spinning top bounced off the navy dish and onto the ground, coming to a pathetic halt.
She shook her head and continued forward, down the blank hallway, her scowl deepening with every step she took. Kyogue placed a hand on her head and groaned. "What the heck am I doing here? Boris is so flipping gay. They caught me again after 14 freaking years of hell on earth...after they died…" Unconsciously, her hand drifted to her necklace.
"Hey Tyson?"
"Yeah?" Kyogue's ears quirked at the voices. (4) She recognized them from the Bladebreakers and hastily moved behind a wall, trying to conceal herself.
"I'm going for a walk."
"Sure Ray, but be back soon cause we're going to the hotel."
"I'll be back soon." She watched as the spiky black-haired teenager made his way down the way she had previously come from. Unconsciously, she began to follow him, not quite understanding what attracted her to him, but interested nonetheless.
Ray was lost deep in thought, familiar anxiousness washing over him, not only from the upcoming tournament, but the confusion that was currently taking place in their lives.
"If Voltaire and Boris are pulling the strings…this can't be good." He muttered to himself. With a frown, he pushed open the glass doors of the stadium and stepped outside, into the dusk's cooling air.
"What other problems are gonna happen? We can't even get close enough to Nami to ask any questions, Kai is coiled up like a spring, Tyson and the others are straining for some answers but…we barely even know what is going on apart from Nami being blackmailed into this mess." Ray's brows met, slanting in concentration as he struggled to find any answers that may help them.
Kyogue, still unnoticed by Ray, felt a swell of understanding rising in her chest. Her eyes glowing a fiery red as her temper ignited fresh hate towards the very people she was forced under. It stung her pride that she had been captured and had been unwillingly pushed into a situation she could not fully contemplate.
It seemed as if they shared the same thoughts, confusion overwhelming the deeper they fought to gain idea of the situation. She folded her arms, and leaned backward against the wall she had tried to hide behind, but her body slipped a few inches short of the surface, her shoes causing noisy scrapes against the concrete as she tried to regain balance.
Ray's golden eyes flickered over to the wall behind which Kyogue now stood, stiffening in alarm. Mentally kicking herself and realizing that she had completely forgotten the fact that she was supposed to have been completely mute.
"If you wouldn't mind telling me why you're stalking me?" Ray said, a bit amused.
Kyogue stumbled backwards, heat rising into her cheeks, her hand clapping over her hat. Her eyes turned a gentle shade of blue, reflecting her embarrassment over the fact that he had caught her. Ray had completely appeared out of surprise in front of her, and she hadn't expected to get trapped like that all of a sudden.
"Uh…I uh…you see…" Ray raised his eyebrows as she stammered to find an appropriate response. His eyes took in the careful details of her face and the evaporating blush on her cheeks, which was slowly being replaced by furiousity at what she had been accused off.
"I wasn't stalking you!" she snapped, her fingers quickly traveling to her choker, running over the wolf pendant.
Ray chuckled quietly, "I'm sure you aren't."
"I'm not!" Her eyes glowed red.
"I was just joking you know." He said, glancing at her hat with a curious look, "Nice hat by the way."
Kyogue muttered a number of incoherent words describing clearly at how much of an imbecile he was. Strangely, she felt comfortable around him. It felt so relaxing that it scared her in a way. It suddenly struck her that she had never felt so at ease after leaving her village. Her ever-changing eyes glanced at him, carefully going over him in detail from the unruly raven-locks to his golden eyes, seemingly amused at her staring with such curiosity. She mentally shook her head of these thoughts and the fact that he appeared to see right through her scowl.
"Don't you know who I am? Have any particular questions you want to ask me?" She asked, sighing as she shoved her hands into her pockets.
"Uh…no, not that I know of. Why?" Ray asked, his golden eyes looking her over again, wondering exactly what she was talking about. For some reason, the thought struck him that she was nothing like Mariah, and that if the two ever met, they would never get along.
Kyogue slapped her forehead in frustration, "Screw you! All you men have the shortest memory-span in all of humanity!"
With another string of her colorful vocabulary she began to pace, and trying to come up with ways to explain what she was talking about.
"Nice vocab." Ray thought, with a vague smile.
"Actually, I have no idea what…" Ray was cut off with a growl from Kyogue.
"Does the name 'Nami' strike a bell?"
The amethyst haired girl shuddered slightly at the amount of emotion she had just experienced in the past half hour and with a small grimace, she maneuvered herself into a sitting position on the couch.
Her body felt sluggish and pathetically exhausted. "I've never felt so emotionally weak…" she thought, she unconsciously curled her hands into fists and loosened them over and over, as if testing their compatibility.
She had been 'resting' in Crystal's locker room in the dark. Crystal had allowed her some privacy and ushered her team out quickly while Nami had went to the restroom to clean herself up a bit. With a sigh she wearily stretched, feeling as if first experiencing insomnia.
She had also realized while cleaning up in the restroom that many of her uglier wounds had opened up in her frantic escape. Bruises throbbed and waves of pain would follow through a simple stroke of her fingers, cuts burned into their locations, and her hands were unbelievably sore from all her practicing and the hideous experiments she had been put in. Nami carefully slid her gloves off and winced at what she saw. The skin finally had started healing only a week or so ago and now were exposed raw, skin peeling, and was rough to touch.
Wondering what exactly Dr. Ari, as she remembered from 2 years ago, would think of her now and how she had managed to receive all those wounds. It was as if they refused to heal under all that stress even after 2 harsh years of ignoring the pain.
The knot in her throat tightened painfully as she recalled what Kai had said to her moments earlier.
"I will not say. Not until you're safe…" She stood and slowly moved towards the door,
Nami stared at the gloves clutched in her ruined hands. Without any expression, she roughly pulled them back on, and remained passive.
"For now, we will not recall the past and I will end this mess I created. It will remain behind these wounds."
to be continued...
Explanations:
(1)- Kami-san- Japanese term for god.
(2)- teme- I suddenly forgot whether it was to be spelled with another 'm' but otherwise it means bastard in Japanese.
(3)- baka- Stupid or idiot in Japanese, but in this case Tala is saying idiot.
(4)- Kyogue's ears – guess which ones? Ahaha…
Oh, also if I'm using these words incorrectly please feel free to correct me.
This chapter feels so incomplete now that I've gone over it, but I have to work on the next one so that it doesn't seem so much like a filler chapter. Also it's too short for my liking (maybe yours as well) but I'm gonna start right away on the next one. Anyway, more Kyogue and Ray –ish moments later. (grins like an evil maniac) But please give a little credit for a few bits of her past. (I actually had to do some research on the profile you gave me, Kyogue)
Hehe, all the characters will hate me for forcing them through this hell… Again, I would like to thank everyone for being so unbelievingly patient with me and thank you for your supportive comments to my (rather evil and uncalled for) author note. So thank you! Please review! Hopefully with the upcoming chapter there will be more tournament action. Have a great summer!