Diary

See disclaimer in Entry #1

:Library:

Tetyth just seems to get more and more interesting as we go.

We entered Flaybell Cathedral a while ago (finally), and it's one of the most beautiful places I've ever seen—even some of the gardens in Asgard can't compare. The temple paths themselves are paved in bronze; the several statues that line its walls seem to be solid gold. Fia told us that this is why Tetyth was damned by the gods, and that it's too extravagant, but it's hopeless—it's the same as in Lacrima, I just can't help but feel that it's too beautiful for me to do anything but appreciate it. I wish I could make things worthy of admiration, too.

We climbed onto the statues to explore (I got in trouble for "staring at the statues too hard"… why did I have to end up traveling with so many paranoid girls?), and found a hidden passageway that led us into the most amazing library…

Rose, Cierra and Fia were absolutely delighted from the moment we walked in. The books here are all huge, several times as tall as I am, but supposedly they hold all the lost knowledge of Tetyth.

Since the city's founders were fallen angels, I'm sure that there are a lot of very important lost secrets in these books. After we defeat the Accursed, maybe we should come back here… Cierra especially would love it. She's been mooning over various magic books since her first step in. It's a shame that the books are all so big; otherwise we'd be taking some with us before we left.

Ledah would've loved to come through here. After all, he's the one who first taught me to appreciate literature—when we were both little, he would always read to me out of his books. Back then I didn't really understand everything he shared with me, since he was that much older than I was and his reading material was advanced way above even his age level. But I loved to listen to him reading, since it seemed like his voice was made for that kind of gentle speech.

Cierra, reading magic theory to Fia out of one of the giant books here, kind of reminds me of him right now. They have the same deep love for knowledge, and it's the passion for books that they share that helped me want to learn. If it hadn't been for Ledah, I would be a lot stupider and a lot less willing to behave than I am now—it was him who really brought me up, not the soldiers I lived with since I was little. But anyway, Cierra just seems so like him that it makes me smile. She's actually really smart, and very bookish. It makes me feel kind of guilty that I almost wrote her off as a ditz when we met.

Fia loves to read, too, although she generally seems to read to learn instead of for plain enjoyment. Coco, the fairy who tries to keep Fia and Lina's house in some kind of order, always complains about the number of cookbooks and magic books she has to sort out in Fia's room. Lina likes storybooks, but she's a little too young to get into serious literature quite yet. She was listening to Cierra, but then she sort of wandered off and started playing around on the giant bookshelves.

Serene seems bored, too. She's the type that hates reading books, although she has several epic poems memorized and has already recited one about an Arc hero for me. She reminds me of my old friend from Asgard, Malice, a little bit—Malice was the kind of girl who found it hard to sit in one place for long, although she loved reading about Ragnarok. We're going to have to move on soon enough, if only so that Serene doesn't march off and confront the next Accursed by herself.

…Anyway… today was the first time since I remembered who I am that I've been able to think about Ledah without feeling heartsick. I wonder why that is… maybe it's just because it was such a positive memory of him, with the two of us sitting side by side, him wearing the same glowing smile Cierra has on her face now. Yeah, that was back when Ledah still smiled. He never really seemed depressed; he just… got really businesslike after he became a Grim Angel. It wasn't like he hadn't been serious before, he just got… more serious then.

Actually, I really think it's because I've been getting this feeling lately, like I know somewhere deep inside of me that Ledah and I are going to meet again someday. Maybe I've just convinced myself through my own hopes, and my need to not be depressed with the girls around…

No, it's because I really do believe that. It's weird… but I know I'm going to run into him at least once before all this is over.

And when I do, I'm going to do everything I can to save him—from himself, and from the rut the Magi have had us in. (I still need to find a way to contact Hector and the others about Ursula's plan. I think it's going to work, at this going rate. When we take out this Accursed, there will only be one left.) I'll take him with me, and it'll be just like old times again.

I hope he'll be proud of the person I'm becoming. If he is, then maybe I can be proud of me, too.