Author's Note: Now… since this is supposed to be Kuwabara centered, I'm going to go ahead and put Kuwabara in it. That way I don't have to contemplate when he should come in. - I've also decided this will be a song-fic… if I can find enough songs that fit the chapters, that is. In any case, this chapter is a song-fic, so… Anyway, I guess the first few chapter will be kinda short. Just a warning.
Disclaimer: I do not own the song Missing by Evanescence.
Thoughts
--Song --
Chapter 1
"New Life"
Kazuma Kuwabara shoved his hands in the pockets of his loose jeans, head full of orange hair bowed against the rain. People ran past him, attempting to find cover. Occasional shouts of 'hey, Katsu' reached his ears, though he only acknowledged these people with a slight wave of his hand.
--Please, please forgive me
But I wont be home again--
Here in Kanazawa where he had been living for the past few weeks, he was well known and liked. They did not know him as 'Kuwabara' or 'Oaf'. They did not think of him as and idiot or a moron that could do nothing, was weak and powerless.
--Maybe some day you'll look up
And barely conscious you'll say to no one
"Isn't something missing?"--
Here, he was Katsu Tabero. Here he was courageous and strong. He was helpful and generous, always willing to aid, never turning down a favor for a noble cause. The perfect gentleman.
--You wont cry for my absence I know
You forgot me long ago
Am I that unimportant?
Am I so insignificant?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?--
Yes, Kanazawa was, he decided, the perfect place to start anew.
--Even though I'm the sacrifice
You wont try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me--
So many reasons to leave Tokyo (a/n: or wherever they were), so many reasons to find a new place. First and foremost in Kuwabara's mind was his reputation. In a new place, where no body knew him, he could be anyone he wanted. Second were the people. The citizens of Kanazawa were so much nicer. They didn't treat him like crap or insult him at every turn.
--I'm all alone
Isn't someone missing me--
Sure, he missed his old friends, his sister, his home, but he had Eichiki.
--Please, please forgive me
But I wont be home again
I know what you do to yourself--
That was another thing. The people here loved his kitten, and no one tried to take her for blackmail. Eichiki was safer here than she'd ever been in Tokyo (a/n: or wherever they were).
--I breath deep and cry out
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"--
It had taken a while, and some careful planning on his part, but Kuwabara had finally managed to get hold of all his records. Of course, convincing the ogres and such that Koenma had sent him, and mostly that they needn't check with the ruler, had been the hardest part. Breaking into city hall in Ningenkai had been far easier, for the security would never compare to that on the palace in Reikai.
--Even though I'm the sacrifice
You wont try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all alone
Isn't someone missing me--
It had taken even more courage to go through with his plan, and he had burned the folders and loose papers instantly, afraid that he would have lost his nerve if he waited. Now, no trace of his existence remained.
--And if I bleed, I'll bleed
Knowing you don't care--
Then again, if anyone really took the time to investigate his new identity, they would discover that Katsu Tabero had died at the age of 45, killed in a police shoot out with numerous others. He had had no family to speak of, and was one of those people that the world forgets instantly. That had made him the perfect person to impersonate.
--And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there--
Kuwabara slipped a small silver key out of his pocket, turning it in the door of his apartment. Inside, he threw off the blue light-weight jacket, reveling in the warmth of his new home.
--Isn't something missing?
Isn't something--
The apartment was pretty nice, he supposed. The bedroom was comfortably sized with room enough for a bed, desk, and small TV set. The walls were a soft caramel color, accented by white trim around the window. The living room housed a much larger television, its white walls impeccably clean. A beige couch and matching sofa faced the screen, a small fireplace beside them. Stains decorated the grey carpet in places, though the apartment was mostly clean. The kitchen wasn't much, really. A long, thin counter, a stainless steel sink, an old refrigerator and freezer in the corner, and some cherry wood cupboards and drawers. The bathroom wasn't something to talk about either. Its grey tiled floors were clean, but water stains coated the sink and counter. The small shower hid partially behind the door, right next to the toilet.
--Even though I'm the sacrifice
You wont try for me, not now--
No, it wasn't much, but it was home. At least, it was home to Kuwabara. Not many people came to visit him, so he had much free time. Sometimes, in his more lonely moments, he would contemplate writing to his old friends, or calling them, just to see how life was going on without him.
But that would have destroyed the whole point of disappearing.
--Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all alone--
He bet they were having a great time.
He wondered how his sister was doing.
--Isn't some thing missing?--
Oh, he missed them…
--Isn't someone missing me?--
To my reviewers:
sukiminamino: First one! Yay! Anyway, thanx! I appreciate the compliment! I try to be as acurate as I can, so it's nice to know I'm doing good!
GreyRoseRantings: Thanx to you, too! I liked the idea, too (hence the story), but now he's back (sort of). It's exactly how I wanted it to go, and this chapter felt somewhat wrong to me, but I posted it anyway!
KawaiiSess68: I suppose Hiei or Kurama would have fit, too, but the callenge is about Kuwabara, and that's who needed to disappear. Keep reviewing!
JovianShe-Wolf: Apparently not, ne? He just didn't feel apreciated, sadly.
Katzztar: Um... yeah... let's go with the several years thing. It's not so much and AU, though I suppose it could be considered as such, if the reader wanted to.
kuwalover: I'm seriously not trying to make Kuwabara an oaf, honestly. If I do, then it's completely unintentional, and I am sorry for doing so. Anyway, I don't plan to discontinue this fic, so you can rest easy. I have this thing about starting something and then not finishing, so it'll get done, even if it takes me a while.
Thanks to all of you! -
Now, everyone must review because I said so!
Ja ne!
Amaya