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Here's the last letter from Collins :)

Jonathan Larson owns everything!

To my dearest Angel,

I've been so lost without you here. A damn therapist suggested that me, Roger, Mark, Mimi, Maureen and Joanne write a last letter to you since all of us were having trouble coping with your death.

Me most of all.

I don't know how I ever lived with out you. And I don't want to remember! I'm pissed that you left. I'm glad your in a better place, though. I know I will see you some day soon. I'll always cover you, lover. I don't even know how to put how I feel about you in words.

Death sucks. I use to be one of those weird kids in high school writing about it all over my notebooks. Now I see the true horrors of it. I just wish you were here. Everything I do reminds me of you.

I get dressed and I remember when you bought me the coat. I visit your grave every day. I walk by the life café and think of all of us when we were all so happy, healthy and in love. I can't ride the subway anymore. I can't walk on that sidewalk where we had out first kiss without bursting into tears. Hell, I even choke up when I see cops because I think about when they tried to tear us apart. The weren't successful, of course. Nothing can tear us apart..

I'll never move on. I remember you told me to find someone else once you were gone. I'm sorry, but that's one thing I can't do for you. It would be wrong of me to move on. My days are already numbered. Why would I waste them with some guy, when all of my thoughts are of you? I can't move on. I can't meet someone new. I really don't want anyone new. How could I ever love him? Nothing could compare to what we had! It wasn't long lasting but our love is definitely eternal.

Here I go again. Tears. They come each day, but it's okay, I welcome them. Love heals. I still love you and I know you loved me with your last breath. The only reason I'm still living is because of your love. It healed me. I'll be with you soon, my queen.

Love you with all my heart,

Your Tom Collins.