"Complicated Pain"
By: Psycho.
Me: This could be any coupling you wish.. but i was kind of leaning towards Ellie Craig. 3 dont hurt me >
My hands are caught in a razor linned cage,
In red blood I write loves begining page,
I hath only loved two timesbefore,
Twice my heart ended up bleeding on the floor,
This will be different I say...
But my guilt seems to grow stronger everyday.
I can't live without him and I dont want to try,
Everyday I'm without him I slowly die,
He's the only one that brings out my true smile,
Any other sound but his voice is vile,
I want to be with him forever...
It feels so right us being together.
As a contrast,
Part of me thinks this wont last,
My heart bleeds from the deep cuts,
From all of my own "maybe"s and "but"s,
So many things I wish and want to tell him,
But I'm terrified to let him in...
I'm sure he see's me as ok and brave,
little did he know a year ago I was staring at my own grave,
I'm not ok...
Sometimes not even the thought of him can keep my sad thoughts at bay,
Before I fell in love with him I never slept,
Mostly to myself I kept...
Back again are my nightmares,
This is hardly enough for me to bare...
I wake up to my own screams,
I just want to have one normal dream...
But I just have to think about his smile,
Everything is better... at least for a little while...
No matter how much this hurts,
Or how how badly my insides burn,
I love him so much- with my entire heart,
Everything else may be falling apart,
There's only one thing that I can tell him thats true,
It's the simple calming words "I love you".