Groaning at the pain in my head I slowly open my eyes and see Daniel looking at me concerned. Looking around I notice I am in the hospital.

"What happened?"

"You passed out Nikole. I'm sorry to hear about your friend." He came to the side of my bed and gave my shoulder a squeeze.

Feeling tears building up in my eyes I shut them tightly. "Where is my dad? I need him right now"

I open my eyes and let the tears fall as I make eye contact with him.

He scratches the back of his neck. "Well, he said that he was swamped at work and since this wasn't exactly an emergency. He- "

I hold my hand up to stop him from speaking.

"I get it. When can I get out of here?"

I watched as Daniel went to find someone to discharge me. Just lying there and letting the tears fall.

Finally getting discharged I got dropped off at my house. I can't stop crying as I open the door and thank Daniel.

Intent on heading straight to my room I stop as I hear laughter. Looking up I see Bella, Jacob, Billy, and dad sitting in the living room. I swallowed the sob that threatened to come out.

Everyone looked up as walked in.

"Still swamped at work dad?" Trying desperately to hold back my tears and failing as they fell.

"Nikole how are you doing? You don't look well come have a seat" I hear Billy offer. I only had eyes for my dad. I watched as he took a sip of his beer and ran his fingers through his hair.

"Niks, I felt like I would just be in the way. Besides it wasn't anything serious. You just fainted and you were with one of my officers."

I let out a laugh that probably could put the Joker to shame.

"I think I finally get it. Nice to see you Billy and Jake."

Everyone watched as I passed them going straight to my room and locking the door. Not caring about my name being called.

I called my mom as I curled into a ball on my bed.

"You've reached the mailbox of Jos- "

I throw my phone at the wall and dissolve into heart wrenching sobs.

Crying for my best friend, for my mom, and even the lack of care from my dad. I never should have come to Forks.

Hearing knocking on my door I buried my head further into my pillows. "Go away!"

The knocking stopped and I once again found myself consumed with blackness.

I'm startled awake by Bella's screams as usual. Looking at the clock I see its 3 in the morning. I don't know if it was growing resentment for the way dad favors her over me. Or if it was simply a lack of sleep and a bad day.

But whatever it was had me rushing to her room and shaking her awake.

"SHUT THE FUCK UP!" I screamed as she's jostled awake.

"Wha- "

"I am sick and tired of your constant screaming its driving me insane! Grow the hell up. You're depressed over a guy who left you with no warning, no goodbye, and no care in the world. We have to sit here and suffer because you can't pull yourself together enough to- "

"That's enough Nicole! Your sister is going through a hard time right now."

Turning around in disbelief I stare at our father.

"She's had months to sort this out its January!"

"Go to your room and leave your sister alone." I bristle at his tone.

"Sure thing your majesty anything for you and your princess" I shoulder check him on my way out the room.

Getting into my room I plop on my bed and scream into my pillow.

"Now Bella is going to hang out with Jacob after school I want you to go as well. I know you are having a rough time with your friend missing but you need to cheer up"

I look at my dad with a blank face and walk to Bella's truck for the ride to school.

As we drive, I can feel her stare on me.

"Can you please focus on the road."

She scoffs and we pull into the school. Hoping out I head to my homeroom class.

"Hey Nicole! How's it going did you ever get in touch with your friend?"

I sigh as I slide into the desk next to hers and put my head in my hands.

"Apparently he's been missing for a week" I feel the tears start to come and I close my eyes tighter.

"I am so sorry to hear that. If you ever need anything I hope you know I'm here for you."

"Thank you, Emma that means a lot."

Emma was a friend from school we never really hung out much as I was always with Riley. But she has been nice ever since I moved here.

Classes sped by and sooner then I wanted I was headed to the parking lot to meet Bella.

"Hey, don't be afraid to give me a call. I know you are hurting right now and if you ever need a friend just call me."

No words would form so I just hugged her. Tears fell as I realized this has been the first hug I received since my mom dropped me off.

Wiping my tears and stepping back. "I am sorry for that I- "

She just smiled, hugged me back, and set off to the bus.

Feeling a little better I met Bella at her truck, and we headed off to La Push. The tension was so thick you could practically taste it.

"Bella, I'm sorry for how I acted last night. It was immature of me and I was projecting my anger out to you and it was not fair. I know everyone has their own way of dealing with sadness and I should respect yours"

I exhale in relief as I said it because despite not liking Bella, she hasn't done anything to me.

"I don't want your apology. You are jealous that Charlie likes me better. He always will, he loved my mom, and they may not have planned me, but they wanted me none the less. He was devastated when we left. You are just an unwanted result of some one-night stand with some whore"

That took me aback and all I could do was look at her in shock.

"He will never love you as much as he loves me. Did you know that he asked me if I was okay with you coming to stay with us? Be lucky you were even allowed to come"

"You don't have to be such a bitch I was trying to apologize." I said angrily

She laughed. "Save your sorry for someone who cares. Though that may be hard to find for you"

As we arrived Bella hopped out and made her way to the garage leaving me in the truck with no other words being spoken.

I sat there seething with anger. How dare she speak to me like that. But maybe she was right. Dad never wanted me I was a mistake. My eyes start to water, and I wipe them away. I am so tired of crying.

Sighing I get out and follow her quietly.

"Hey Jake!" she says cheerfully totally different from how she was acting in the truck. As they exchange greetings and start talking both ignoring my presence. I start to wonder if she has a type of personality disorder or something.

"Nicole? Is that you?"

Turning around I see Quil running up to me with a wide smile on his face.

"Its me in the flesh" I joke lightly.

"How have you been?" He looked at Jacob and Bella in their own world.

"Not that good but hopefully soon ill be better."

"Seeing that the others in the room are ignoring us care to take a walk down the

Beach?"

I laughed as he stuck his arm out and took it letting him lead me out the garage. While walking I filled him in on what was going on with my life. We found a spot and sat down.

"Damn Niks that sucks. I'm sorry you have to go through that" Laying my head on his shoulder I felt tears sink into his shirt.

"I felt like the whole time I've been here I have done nothing but cry. I feel like such a baby. Speaking of babies where is Embry? You guys are usually inseparable."

Sighing and resting his head on mine he told me how Embry joined Sam's cult and how he refused to speak to them.

"That's not right. I'm sorry Quil I know how much he means to you."

I felt his tears and just squeezed his hand and watched the waves.

A/N: Hey guys sorry this chapter took so long. I had writers block and then a family member passed away. I will be more consistent in the future. Please comment/review letting me know what you think. I will be setting up a poll later this week so please check that out and vote.