Black Wolf, White Blossom

Chapter IV Melting the Ice

Hey there guys. Yeah sorry for killing Tomoyo and Eriol but it's one of the key parts in the next few chapters. And to those who are freaking out at the fact that I'm killing people, don't worry there won't be more 'specific' killing, just nameless gangers. And yes there will be some fluff throughout the next few chapters. Maybe even a little lemon if someone would like to help me. Anyways please enjoy this chapter.

Sakura woke up in a daze to find herself some place strange. At first she couldn't make anything out, but after blinking a few times she could see that she was in a green room. She sat up as she looked at the wall opposite her to see series of swords hanging on the wall. To her right was a window, and to her left she could see Syaoran on his desk working on something on his computer.

Syaoran noticed her, "Oh so you're awake," in a monotonous tone his eyes never leaving the screen.

"Where am I," Sakura asked feeling very groggy placing a hand behind her head feeling a lump, "And what happened last night?"

"Three Tigers found us and assaulted us. They killed Eriol and you went on a rampage killing two of them. You were about to go after the third one but I restrained you and I had to knock you out," Syaoran replied his eyes still glued to the screen.

"Oh right," Sakura meekly replied as she brought her knees up wrapping her arms around her legs. She started to cry as she saw the pained faces upon Tomoyo's and Eriol's faces when they died. She couldn't believe that they were gone, the last of her family. She felt like she was going to go insane, but something about Syaoran made her feel safe, yet she kept that to herself.

Syaoran finished his business and stood up and was about to leave the room, "I'll get lunch started. Blaze came by this morning and brought you a set of clothes; it's in the washroom." And with that he walked out. Sakura merely sat there and sadness over took her as she sobbed hiding her head in her knees.

Syaoran heard her break down from outside came back in and sat besides her, although unsure of what to do merely placed a hand on her shoulder thinking, 'Something about her makes me feel sorry for her and at the same time I feel so comfortable around her. Heck I even have this strong desire to protect her. Maybe, just maybe she's the one that mother spoke of years ago.'

Flashback

"Syaoran!" a woman called as a 10 year old boy ran up to his mother.

"Yes mom?" the boy replied.

"Your sisters tell me that you have a crush on someone."

Syaoran blushed before replying, "Yes. Her name's Mei-Lin Rei."

"I see. Well maybe she's the one. You seem very happy at the thought of her."

"What do you mean by, 'the one'?"

"It's just that it may be that you and Mei-Lin are destined for each other. Either that or she is someone who is meant to fill the time until you actually meet that special someone who will be the precious person in your life."

"Mom I don't get it."

Syaoran's mom merely chuckled before responding, "Someday you will. I promise you. But remember this: When you meet that one, protect her with your life. Understand?"

"Somewhat," Syaoran meekly replied before both of them shared a laugh together.

End Flashback

Syaoran continued to sit there with his hand on her shoulder when he decided to say something, "Sakura everything will be alright. If it makes you feel any better, you passed your entrance test." Sakura looked at him pleadingly as if she wanted something more from Syaoran. Not getting the hint Sakura simply embraced him as she continued to cry. Utterly bewildered at her actions, as he had forgotten how to treat women, he merely sat there and place and arm around her, still wondering what to do.

They sat there for about half and hour before Syaoran spoke up, "Ano, Sakura I really need to get lunch done," he looked at Sakura to find that she had fallen asleep again. He slowly unwrapped Sakura's arms and gently laid her down. 'What is wrong with me? Why can't I remember how to treat women?' Syaoran asked himself a bit angry that he couldn't do anything to help her. He closed the door and went for the fridge. He looked through to find something to put together when he heard someone knocking the door. Syaoran closed the fridge door and walked towards the door almost tripping over his helmet which was lying on the floor between the couch and the T.V. Syaoran opened the door to find that Blaze at the front of the door.

"Hello again Syaoran. Mind if I come in?" Blaze asked stifling a yawn.

"Sure. I was about to make lunch. I guess it's for three now."

Blaze walked in noticing a pillow and a blanket was on the couch, "Two things: Am I assume that you slept on the couch? Or the other way around and she's now sleeping in your bed? And two, how is she?"

Syaoran let out a small smile which surprised Blaze, "I slept on the couch, and she's sleeping again. And she still is getting over the shock of losing two friends in one night."

"I see. Poor her."

"I guess. I just wish I could do something to help her," Syaoran stated as he went back to the fridge and pulled out a tray of eggs.

"Well one way is to open up to her. You know, get rid of that icy exterior and show her the real you."

Syaoran's face hardened upon hearing that starting straight at Blaze, "Don't you ever dare mention that again. Remember the last time I did that? I lost my family because of it. I won't risk getting hurt again!"

"Syaoran you baka that was different, she was using you for crying out loud! There we no way you could've known!"

"Stop it Lighting. We will not speak of this again. You hear?"

Blaze let out a sigh before responding, "Yeah, yeah I hear. But you better watch out when Sakura wants you."

Syaoran had just placed some eggs into a pot of water, "What is that suppose to mean?" still wearing that hardened expression.

"Syaoran drop the façade. I swear it pisses me off greatly. It even pissed of Eri…" Blaze stopped for a moment realizing that Syaoran probably wouldn't want to hear that at the moment, "Sorry. But the thing is Sakura is all alone now. She doesn't have any family or relatives, her best friend is gone and her best friend's boyfriend is also gone. She has no one. Chances are that she'll turn to you. You already know that Brock and I already have someone, and there is no way in hell that we can do anything about it, plus personally I think that you two would make a perfect couple."

Syaoran snapped, "Perfect couple? Excuse me? I don't think so buddy."

"Oh but I think so. The only thing is, you've gotta get rid of that cold hearted personality of yours and go back to the nice guy you once were."

"Oh so you want me to become the person who defends everyone's little ass and accept the prettiest woman into my heart where I can get hurt again? I don't think so. That happened once; I'm not going to lay my ass and heart on the line where it can get hurt again. Tomoyo and Eriol were different because I grew up with them, but everyone else including Sakura means shit all to me in terms of their emotional well being!" And before he knew it someone had punched Syaoran hard in the head and in the stomach. Bewildered as he fell to his knees he looked up to find that Sakura and Blaze had both struck him.

"How can you be so cruel to only care for yourself you jackass?" Sakura cried out with tears streaming down her face.

"Good question," Blaze started, "Another good one is why did you say what you did especially when it runs the risk of being heard? In fact why do you even still maintain this persona? It's ridiculous if you ask me."

Syaoran groaned as he got up, "It's fairly simple really. Those who let their emotions run wild run the risk of becoming crazy and will do foolish things. Take Sakura for example," that last remark set off Sakura as she started crying as she ran out of the room.

Blaze gave Syaoran another punch in the gut, "You cold hearted bastard. I don't even know why I've put up with you as long as I did. Maybe it was due to Tomoyo's and Eriol's caring personalities that I was able to put up with you since they did. But since both of them are gone I can clearly see that you are a jackass." And with that Blaze ran off trying to find Sakura. Syaoran merely sat there on the ground his mind being filled with emotions that he thought he had buried, one of them being, guilt.

"WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!" Syaoran yelled throwing his head back, his hands holding his head.

Sakura had just left the building running to her left with Blaze hot on her trail. But he wasn't able to catch up as Blaze struggled to even keep up. Sakura had just reached Penguin Park as she finally gave in and fell to her knees crying.

Blaze finally caught up out of breath barely able to breath out, "Sakura I'm sorry that you had to see that."

"I thought that he might be different I thought that he might've somehow cared for me," Sakura sobbed, "But now I know that he's still that cold hearted bastard from the other day when he asked about my bike."

"Umm…Yeah Tomoyo told me about that," Blaze responding with a hand behind the back of his neck, "I'm sorry about your bike. But seriously if you met Syaoran a couple years back you would've been enamored with him. Sadly I met him just days before his new persona came into play."

Sakura turned around, her eyes and nose red from crying, "What did happen to Syaoran?"

"I cannot tell you," Blaze responded putting his other hand up, "That is something that he has to tell himself."

"Damn him for being so secretive," Sakura snarled.

Before Blaze could say anything he heard someone from behind him spoke, "Blaze, please go home. I'll tell her," Blaze whipped around to see Syaoran staring at him with a different expression. He looked almost, solemn. Blaze nodded as he patted Sakura on the shoulders before walking off whistling a tune.

"What the fuck do you want?" Sakura hissed.

"It's only fair that you know why I am such a dick I guess," Syaoran replied, "But not while you're down there. Let's take a seat on that bench," Syaoran offered his hand but Sakura slapped it away as she got up herself.

They both took a seat before Syaoran let out a sigh before speaking, "First of all before I begin, I'm telling you this so you can understand. I don't expect sympathy or a change of heart."

"Why don't you let me be the judge of that, and get on with your story?" Sakura replied looking at him blankly.

"Well it started about 13 years ago. I was 10 and I fell in love with this girl. You've already met her, its Mei-Lin," Sakura nodded as she recalled Mei-Lin said something similar during their first encounter, "Well at first we just simply hung out. You know, the usual things friends do. As we got older things started to get serious. Then one night three years back, I was on a date with Mei-Lin. As I think you might've been told that was around the time I had just sworn in Blaze into the gang, before he became the Black Lighting. Anyways, Mei-Lin and I were on a date when I got a phone call, from Eriol, telling me that my entire family was slaughtered by the White Tigers, and he overheard the Tigers say that they had their orders from Mei-Lin." Sakura gasped as she absorbed all this information.

"But how could she have been a member of that gang if she didn't have the tattoo?" Sakura asked curious as how she gotten past Syaoran.

"I don't know really," Syaoran replied, "But anyways the moment I heard that I looked at Mei-Lin and freaked out asking her if it was true. And do you want to know the worst part?"

Sakura tilted her head slightly as she responding, "Umm….she openly admitted it?"

"Exactly," Syaoran replied quietly, "The moment she said that I felt my heart shattered as I felt the pain of not only losing my family, but the one responsible was someone who I loved. I felt like I was in hell. I also did something that I swore that I never do. I hit her hard on the head that I knocked her out. Right after that I ran away from her and ran home as fast as I could. Only to find that the house I lived in was in flames. I fell to my knees watching my house burned down. Eriol was there and we stayed there for a while morning the loss of the family. Afterwards Eriol and I went to my apartment to find that it hadn't been attacked and so I've stayed there since then while he lived with Tomoyo. That night I was contemplating on what had just happened. I was in shock. I knew that I couldn't do anything else except find a way to get revenge. But I knew that because of the war, I couldn't exactly get my hands on her. But I felt so horrible, so, defiled at the fact that I let that bitch touch me, that I vowed that I would never let anyone get into my heart again, and thus the cold hearted Syaoran Li was born. At first I scared a lot of people because of my persona but that was how I earned the title, Black Wolf, for I had the darkest heart. I killed many in cold blood, and I've even let people who wanted their suffering to end live to suffer more. I was that cold Sakura." Syaoran finished as a tear drop came streaming down his face.

Sakura merely sat there mesmerized at Syaoran's story. 'Such anger and hatred, all because he opened himself to someone who just happened to be a member of his enemy,' Sakura thought to herself. Without realizing it she had found herself wrapping an arm around Syaoran's shoulders.

"It'll be alright Xiao-Lang. Unlike Mei-Lin I won't hurt you in any way," Sakura stated softly, "I know it's difficult to accept right now but I promise you that I won't do to you what Mei-Lin did to you."

Syaoran nodded before responding, "Please, call me Syaoran, Xiao-Lang is too formal. And do you swear that you won't betray the gang, or me?"

Sakura nodded as she swore that she would stand by him and the gang forever. And before Syaoran realized it Sakura kissed Syaoran on the temple. Not too far from them, Blaze had been watching them from behind a tree.

"Hmpf, she's the one for him. I just know it," Blaze looked up into the afternoon sky, "She's the one who will turn him back into his original state. Moyo, you were right. Her heart is pure. Untainted love that just waiting to be shared." He then walked off careful not to reveal himself.

"Sakura thanks for understanding," Syaoran finally said after a moment of silence.

"Sure thing. What are friends for?" Sakura replied, 'I may have gotten him to come out of his shell, but his eyes are still cold. But at least there is slight warmth now. It's a sign' Sakura thought to herself.

She then got up looking over her shoulder, "Hey Syaoran I'm going to for a walk. I'll be back around 2 ok?"

"Sure. Oh do you have a cell phone?" Syaoran asked.

"My number is (448) 382-1781," Sakura replied flatly. She then turned and walked along the path. Syaoran on the other hand remained on the bench deep in thought.

'Hmmm….maybe I can open myself just a bit. Maybe, just for her. I could still maintain the façade around others, but maybe, just maybe around her I'll make an exception. NO WAIT!' Syaoran shaking his head vigorously, 'You promised yourself that you'd never fall in love again, especially how I broke up with Mei-Lin. I can't tell Sakura how I broke really up. I'd probably lose her respect. Such an angel doesn't deserve to hear such words. She won't. I will protect her with my life if I after to….WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU! Why can't you maintain the fact that you can't get attached to anyone? Tomoyo and Eriol were the last ones who've ever seen me "normal" and I swore that I never let anyone see me normal. Plus where the hell are these emotions coming from? I swear that I haven't felt these emotions for years. Why now? Why when we are finally gaining an upper hand in this war that I end up gaining these emotions, and also lose the top two members in the Japanese wing. Damn it all we are so close in wiping out the Tigers. I could smell victory. But now she has shown up and…..she's melting my heart. Damn it all I'm so confused!' Syaoran sat there for a while before he finally go up and headed back to his apartment lost in thought.

So how was that? A bit of fluff ne? Well anyways there will be more Sakura and Syaoran fluff on the way, and now that Sakura knows Syaoran's past, what will she do with him and will she be able to completely melt the ice that incases Syaoran's heart? Sure she's gotten to him a bit, but not completely. Plus, you've seen a bit of Syaoran's psychological workings. At least you should have an idea of how his mind is working in all of this. Anyways hope you enjoyed the chapter and please leave a review.