Black Wolf, White Blossom
Chapter VI Other Side of the Coin
Hey there. See? I told you guys that killing Tomoyo and Eriol would serve a purpose. Don't worry, their purpose isn't a one time thing, they will be making 'appearances' throughout the story. BTW this chapter will contain my VERY FIRST LEMON so please leave your reviews and comments. Please enjoy and place your reviews.
Noir Rose: Thanks a lot for the compliment. And yes I agree that Syaoran needed that smack in the face. And as for the fluff thing, I was just asking for suggestions. You know, what you would like to see.
MzEvilBlossoms: Thanks for the review. And I took your idea of the lemon, and so here you go, this will be my first lemon EVER so please give me the best review you can.
Wolf Blossom: Thanks for the review, and yes I know it's kind of sad that I had Tomoyo and Eriol killed but their purpose was in death as you will notice in this chapter. Oh and as for the gang system don't worry, Sakura will be familiarizing herself with the gang system in the next few chapters so don't you worry. After that I'm going to have fun with the rest of the story.
Syaoran spent the greater part of the afternoon and evening in his room trashing the place. Knowing that Syaoran might do something stupid, Sakura took the opportunity when Syaoran was unconscious and took out all of his weapons, and locked the windows. However what she didn't expect when she decided to check in on him was to seem him a complete wreak Yet he was sound asleep, but his face was puffy from crying and he had worn himself out from destroying his room. Sakura simply smiled before closing the door and going back to her reading.
Syaoran however did not fare well as his minds were filled with disturbing images. The partially burnt bodies of his family, Tomoyo's contorted face after she had took the bullet for Sakura, even Eriol's body from multiple bullet shots all these images and then some were flooding his mind as he tried to sort them out. Soon it went blank and he began to hear familiar voices, two in particular.
"Oi, baka get off the floor you pathetic idiot."
"He's right. I can't believe the great Syaoran Li is lying there like a coward."
"That may be, but then again, he is a coward. He's been like that for three years hiding behind some macho mask while this part of him eats away. Pathetic really."
"Agreed. However at first it was sad because he did lose his family to her in one go."
"That is true; however I didn't expect him to actually hold that mask up. Hell I don't even know why we even bothered to be his friend." That last comment angered Syaoran as he bolted right up looking at the offending voices. He choked when he saw that it was Tomoyo and Eriol who were the source of the voices. Yet what had choked him up so bad was the fact that Tomoyo still had the bullet wound on her chest. Eriol on the other was much worse, far worse. His body was horribly torn. His right arm was hanging by a few strands of ligaments; his left eye was pierced leaving a clean hole. His legs were battered but they still held him up. Yet his body was by far worse than anything he had seen after the incident. Eriol's lower body was revealed as his intestines hung out, his stomach as well leaking out its gases. His liver was shot to pieces same thing for his kidneys. His chest was battered yet he could perfectly see his heart but instead of a heart was a large hole indicating that it was shot into nothing when he died.
"Like what you see?" Eriol smirked, "Because of you we ended up like this."
"How could you yell at Sakura like that?" Tomoyo asked scathingly, "She was only trying to help. And it was YOU who said to US that we should have Sakura inducted into a leading position."
Syaoran finally clearing his throat spoke, his voice shaking uncontrollably, "T-t-t-t-omoyo…..E-e-e-ri…ol…….."
Eriol laughed as Syaoran tried to speak, "That's pathetic really. The cool level headed Syaoran scared. This is something I've been waiting to see for a long time."
"Yeah, too bad Sakura isn't here. Better yet, you are damn lucky your family isn't here. They moved on already."
"What….do…you mean?" Syaoran asked.
"When people die people can choose to move on to the next life or not. Your family stayed with you for quite a while actually," Eriol explained enjoying seeing Syaoran's pained face, "Yet after a year or so they saw that you've changed yourself for the worst and gave up. They went on. After this I highly doubt you'll see us again. This is pathetic really."
"Eriol dear let's just leave this poor puppy alone. He's can't really do much and I don't think you or I can do much anymore." Tomoyo let out a giggle enjoying Syaoran's pain.
"You know, I think your right." Eriol snapped his fingers.
Syaoran bolted up right his face covered in sweat. Yet his ears were ringing as he heard laughter. It was the voices of his family, Tomoyo, Eriol and even Mei-Lin all laughing at him. He covered his ears in agony as he tried to block them out. Feeling his rage starting to building he stumbled around like a mad man. He opened the door, one hand clutching his head to find Sakura sitting on the couch reading. Then a thought came across him.
"YOU!" he shouted pointing a finger at Sakura who jumped hearing his voice, "YOU DID THIS. DAMN YOU AND YOUR CONNECTION TO TOMOYO! IT WAS BECAUSE OF YOU AND YOUR DAMN FRIENDSHIP WITH MY COUSIN'S GIRLFRIEND THAT IT WAS LED TO THIS. IT WAS YOU. IT'S YOUR ENTIRE DAMN FAULT!"
Sakura was scared. She had never seen Syaoran quite like this before. His eyes were indeed cold but the color was that of Amber, but now it was a dull brown. She couldn't see anything except a deep hatred, a deep anger, a beast that had been locked up inside of him that was spewing out of him like a violent volcanic eruption.
"Syaoran? What are you talking about?" Sakura whispered, fearing for her life.
"WHAT AM I TALKING ABOUT? WHAT AM I TALKING ABOUT?" Syaoran threw his head back as he let out a maniacal laughter, "YOU WOULDN'T UNDERSTAND. But hey, maybe somehow that pea brain of yours just might get it. So I'll tell ya. Remember how I told you that when I got back to my house it was on fire and my family was burnt alive?" Sakura slowly nodded as Syaoran continued, "Well that is only partly true," his voice hinting insanity, "When I got there I saw something that nearly destroyed me. Heh, heh I saw their bodies mutilated. I saw that multiple things were done to them such as bein' cut, beaten, tortured and the like. Oh but that's not the worse part." Sakura trembled in fear as she listened to his story his face contorted in anger and delight as he regaled in his tale.
"When the doctors examined the bodies of my four sisters, my mom, father and two of my sister's husbands, they found they died at different times. You wanna know what the intervals were between each person?" Sakura merely sat there in fear, "THEY DIED ONE HOUR APART FROM EACH OTHER! MY PARENTS WERE THE LAST TO DIE. EACH AND EVERY ONE OF MY FOUR SISTERS' WERE RAPED AT LEAST TWICE, AND THEN BEATEN TO DEATH. MY PARENTS AND MY BROTHER-IN-LAWS WERE TIED AND GAGGED AND WERE FOR FORCED TO WATCH IT HAPPEN. THE ELDEST AND YOUNGEST SISTERS WERE STILL VIRGINS AND THEY LOST IT TO MEMBERS OF THE WHITE TIGERS, MY FAMILY'S SWORN ENEMY. WHAT'S WORSE, WHEN THEY WERE FOUND IT WAS DISCOVERED THAT BY THE TIME THE LAST SISTER WAS DEAD, THE YOUNGEST, MY ELDEST HAD ALREADY HIT RIGOMORTIS THAT PUTS THE TIME OF THE ENTIRE ASSAULT TO ROUGHLY 8 FUCKING HOURS. THEY MANAGED TO KEEP EVERYTHING QUIET FOR 8 FUCKING HOURS! DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT THE WORST PART WAS?" Sakura was in complete shock. She couldn't believe what she was hearing. She figured that the White Tigers were horrible yet this only made it worse. She never knew that this was the side of him that was covered by the natural ice, the darkness within him that had been suppressed. She knew that everyone had a dark side but this darkness scared her beyond belief. Tears started streaming down her face as she cowered before his contorting form from all the stress he was putting himself under. She then braced for the worst as Syaoran took a breath to speak.
"THE WORST PART WAS THAT I COULD'VE SAVED MEMBERS OF MY FAMILY! I COULD'VE SAVED TWO OF MY SISTERS. SURE I WOULD'VE BEEN PISSED BUT I WOULDN'T HAVE BECOME WHAT YOU ARE LOOKING AT NOW! THIS IS WHY I NEVER LET MY EMOTIONAL BARRIERS DOWN. I WAS REDUCED TO THIS. YOU KNOW WHAT KINIMOTO I HATE YOU. I BLOODY WELL FUCKING HATES YOU. FOR ONE THING, YOUR FAMILY DIED INSTANTLY, THEY SUFFERED NO PAIN. ANOTHER THING, YOU HAD TOMOYO YOU COULD TALK TO FOR A WHILE. FUCK, ERIOL AND TOMOYO KEPT THEIR DISTANCE FROM ME. I HAD NO ONE, NO ONE TO TALK TO. My life fell apart after that day." That last comment was spoken quietly before he collapsed.
Sakura breathed out in relief feeling that the storm had passed. She then reached into her pocket to pull out her cell phone and call Blaze, when she heard a sound. She looked up to see Syaoran was crying. She heard Syaoran crying earlier but this was different. Before it was the sound of someone extremely pissed. Yet this sounded like a child who was scared witless and was alone. With extreme caution, Sakura stood up and slowly approached Syaoran. She touched Syaoran's shoulder only to have him jump back in fright. She looked at his eyes to see something she swore she would never see. It was the eyes of a boy who had lost everything. The eyes of someone who wanted nothing more than to have someone comfort him.
In the most soothing voice she could find, she spoke, "Shh, Syaoran, it's alright. No one will hurt you," as she spoke she slowly made her way towards him, "I'll stay with you as long as you want me to," she cupped Syaoran's cheek with her hand as she placed a gentle kiss on his forehead. What he did next greatly surprised Sakura. Syaoran had bolted at Sakura embracing her, burying his head into Sakura's neck crying his heart out.
After the night the family was destroyed Syaoran had no one to turn to. He didn't have a shoulder to cry on. Eriol and Tomoyo never knew of the atrocities the White Tigers had committed against his family. He had created Black Wolf in order to shield everyone and himself from his dark rage. But now that barrier had broke leaving him in shambles as he pours in heart out crying in the arms of the person he had just blamed moments ago.
Sakura simply stroke Syaoran's head as he continued to cry. She knew of Syaoran's pain. Yet she had never experienced the pain as deep as he had. She only saw her parents die pretty quickly. Her brother and sister-in-law both died in the plane crash. The plane was found to have C4 rigged throughout the plane so they had a good chance of dying instantly. Syaoran however was different. Although he didn't witness his family's death, he knew that they died slowly. Feeling his sorrow Sakura started to cry, holding him closer to her. Syaoran in turn buried himself deeper into Sakura's neck as he continued to cry letting out all of his sadness. He had bottled it up for far too long, he desperately needed release. His scars ran deep into his soul but he felt a sense of belonging in Sakura's arms.
They stayed like that for about half an hour before Syaoran's cries were reduced to minor hiccups. He looked up; his eyes were shot as well as his nose was red from all the crying. Sakura although not as bad still had blood shot eyes and puffy red nose. They stared into each others eyes as emerald met amber. Yet something in Syaoran's eyes surprised Sakura. Before Syaoran had nothing but a thick wall of black ice, but now he had warmth in his eyes she swore that was never there before. It seemed like the type of warmth he was giving to Sakura was for her and her only. She smiled broadly knowing that she had helped Syaoran's nightmares end by being there and just listen to him. Feeling a bit weak, Syaoran simply sat there mesmerized by Sakura's appearances.
Seeing that Syaoran needed a little push she leaned and placed a gentle kiss on his lips. In that brief moment they felt a fire light up. But just as quickly as it came it died out when Sakura broke the kiss. Not caring that both of them had tear stains and had runny noses, Syaoran quickly took her lips into a passionate kiss. Sakura at first was surprised at his boldness, but soon melted as she wrapped her arms around Syaoran's neck, one of her hands entangling her fingers into his hair. Syaoran's arms snaked around her waist as he pulled her in closer deepening the kiss.
The feelings they felt were incredible. They felt a fire burn in their mouths, a righteous fire which gave them a feeling of belonging, a sense of security as they continued to kiss. Feeling the need to spice things up, Syaoran opened his mouth a bit as he slid his tongue against her lips in which she opened up giving Syaoran full access into the interiors of her mouth. As their tongues collided both of them let out a low moan as they cause each other to fill a shuddering sensation run down their spines. The continued to kiss as their tongues entwined with each other, exploring each other. They never broke their kiss except every once in a while to catch their breath. Pretty soon things their bodies started to burn with a desire for more. Syaoran quickly repositioned himself as his scooped up Sakura into his arms carrying her towards his bed.
He gently laid her down, as he broke the kiss trailing kisses along her jaw line up to her ear nibbling it gently before moving down to a spot at the base of her skull were she let out a loud moan. Figuring that he found a soft spot he gently licked it as she tightened her grip. She was highly aroused as her hands explored his body. She quickly grabbed the hem of Syaoran's shirt and pulled it off tossing it aside as she ran her hands across his chiseled abs and well built chest. Syaoran shuddered for a moment before he resumed his trail of kisses again. During this time he had snakes his hands as he undid the knots that held her halter top. After the knots were undone Syaoran decided to continue his fun as he continued along his trail of kisses, slowly removed the top away with only his lips while his hands were working on her pants. He felt himself wanting to explode out of his pants but he felt that it was his duty to ensure she got what she wanted before him. Soon after she was only in her panties as Syaoran had finally removed her leather pants and her halter top. He stood there for a moment enjoying the beauty that was a goddess before him. Her breast were just the right size and the sight of the way her body curved at the right places brought contentment as he thought of his mothers words of finding the right one.
He gently caressed Sakura's cheek with the back of his right hand before he dived down for another passionate kiss. While he was busy kissing Sakura, she had quietly undid his belt and started to unzip and undo the button to his cargos when she felt Syaoran's left hands pulling down her panties. She little out a giggle as she deepened the kiss. Realizing what Sakura was doing he gave her a helping hand by sliding down his pants. Sakura took that chance and quickly dived through his boxers and got a hold of his manhood which caused him to shudder.
Feeling a little mean Sakura quickly slid his boxers off him as she began to slowly caress his member, gently stroking it yet never touching the bud. This filled Syaoran with an extreme pleasure as he let out a low growl which vibrated against Sakura's lips sending more chills down her spine. She was enjoying it greatly as Syaoran cupped her womanhood which caused her to break the kiss and let out a squeak in surprise following a moan. Smiling, he started rubbing her folds as he other hand took Sakura's right breast and started to massage it which caused her to moan continuously in delight as she started to breath out his name. His hand massaged and teased her breast while his thumb and index finger started to gently squeeze and twist her erected nipple. Syaoran then began to tease Sakura's neglected breast as he started to lick the surroundings of her nipple but never the tip itself.
All the while she was enjoying all these senses of pleasure, her hands had snaked their way up to Syaoran's head where she had entangled her fingers into his hair again. While his right hand and mouth were tending to Sakura's breast, she felt a comforting fire burn as Syaoran had separated her folds and teased her nub gently flicking it back and forth sending waves of pleasure through her. Without warning she felt a massive wave surge through her as Syaoran's finger had inserted a finger. She let out a series of moans as he started rocking his finger back and forth eventually making it two fingers. Finding his rhythm, she started rocking her hips back and forth in sync with his fingers. She continued to moan loader as she felt something inside her build up. She moaned as she pleaded for him to do it faster. As she per her request Syaoran picked up the pace, causing her to moan loader in ecstasy. As he continued to move his fingers inside her she pulled him down into another kiss as their tongues met. Moments after she felt a sudden release as the walls around Syaoran's fingers tighten she let out a loud moan suppressed by Syaoran's mouth.
In that moment her world was lit up in flames as every dark memory seemed to wash out from her as she released. That emptiness was filled with warmth that she would never let go. Syaoran gently removed his fingers looking at the wetness that was on his fingers. He brought his fingers to his hands as he intended to taste her juices when she grabbed his wrist bring his two fingers closer to her mouth. She gently separated his two fingers with her tongue as she started sucking his middle finger clean. After she had her fill Syaoran licked his index finger clean. Fully intended to continue with the next move, Syaoran gently pried her legs apart, hearing her whispering to him that she was ready.
He positioned himself in front of her entrance, "This is most likely going to hurt," Syaoran spoke, but she merely nodded as she tightened her grip around his neck and squeezed her eyes shut. He inched his way towards her when an image flashed before his mind.
Wondering what he was doing, she opened her eyes feeling a tear drop on her cheek opening her eyes to see Syaoran crying again, "Oh god," was all he could say as he moved away from Sakura sitting on the edge of his bed.
"Syaoran, what's wrong? Don't you want to make love to me?" Sakura ask, feeling a bit hurt.
"I'm sorry, I just can't," he replied in between sobs.
"Why? What's wrong? Is it me?" now worrying, not caring she was denied her chance to make love.
"Remember how I told you that I was on a date the day my family died?" Syaoran asked a few minutes after calming down. Sakura merely nodded as she waited for his response.
"There was one thing I left out. I was in that position, poised to take her in," Sakura let out a gasp as he continued, "I told Eriol bout the date cuz I didn't want interruptions unless it was extremely important. That day was our 5 year anniversary. I was in that position when he called me. You have no idea how devastated I was to be there naked in front of your enemy. The moment I heard that I instantly threw her out of my room. I felt disgusted. Hell I felt like I was violated. I couldn't believe that…" Syaoran couldn't continue as he started to cry again.
Sakura quietly crawled behind Syaoran has she pressed herself into Syaoran's back as she wrapped her arms around Syaoran's chest, "Shh….It's alright, that was three years ago," she spoke in a soothing voice, "Fine, we won't do anything tonight. It's late, how about we just sleep tonight." Syaoran welcomed the idea as the two of them crawled into bed. As the two laid in bed in each others arms staring into each others eyes they could see a fire burning in each others eyes.
Syaoran gently kissed her forehead, "Thank you for putting up with me and freeing me."
"That's alright. You needed a good kick in the pants anyways." She smiled broadly.
"I love you Sakura."
"And I you Syaoran."
They shared a brief kiss before they let sleep take them.
And that's that. So how was it for my first lemon? Please be honest. I don't care if you have to ridicule me. The more reviews the better. Plus I won't update unless I get 5 reviews. Is that much to ask? I don't think so. So please send me your reviews and comments and bring on the critique.