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A/N: I have no qualms saying that this was my early moring ( 3 a.m. ish) chapter.. It might make no sense but I'm sorry, I'm really tried...

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It seemed my world at that point was a procession of going to sleep and waking up. Up until then, I always awoke and Erik was somewhere nearby. When I awoke this time, however, I was alone in my bed.

It seemed I was also the only living thing in the room. I pushed my curly locks behind me sleepily, my mind not fully aware of my situation yet. Instinctively I called for Erik.

" Erik? My love are you there?"

My last word hung in the air as the grim reality came rushing back to me. My hand went to my mouth " My god, What have I done? How could I?"

My eyes darted around the room, my mind trying to register all of the things that had happened. Then they fell upon the candle on the bedside table. A note! There were little splats of red ink on the parchment and the word " Christine" was scrawled across the front in Erik's child like script.

Flipping it over there was a red wax seal in the form of a skull. Never before had he sealed his notes to me with this skull.

As if I were afraid the little wretch would bite, I quickly ripped the note open, revealing a lengthy note in blood red ink.

Christine,

I can't believe I trusted you! I should have known a child like you would do such a thing! You're no better than that stupid Madeleine! My mother, she wouldn't even look at me! And when she finally did, she screamed! Crossing her body, screaming for God to have mercy on her soul! You never should have come looking for me. You should have known the consequences of your actions when you stepped inside that mirror. You should have listened to that little tart Meg Giry. I'm not angel, I am a monster. I told you that and you still insisted on seeing my horrid face! My bloody despicable face with it's puckering lips, transparent skin and non existent nose!Never again shall I trust anyone!

I loved you... But never again shall I let my heart be toyed with by some theatre brat. I'm too old for such nonsense. So heed my warning, and keep away from The Opera Ghost!

O.G.

His dried teardrops were evident upon the fine parchment and I could do nothing but stare at those three words " I loved you..." . The sound of his silky voice chocking on tears filled my ears and caused me the most terrible dread.

" It shouldn't have happened this way!" I fumed, forcing my body out of bed and into the theatre. There was a fire in my eyes as I rush toward that dressing room.No one should have gotten in my way

Sadly they did.

Raoul was the first. He had come to observe rehearsals for the up and coming production of Aida. He was in the hallway, discussing something with someone, when I went flying past, my skirts going mad behind me.

" Christine!" He yelled.

At first I tried to ignore his pleas for my attention, but then I couldn't stand it anymore. I turned abruptly on my heel, my face scrunched up in rage" Christine, where are you going in such a rush?"

" That is no of your concern, sir!"

" I-I-"

" Must you make it your business to know my where abouts at all time Raoul! Perhaps I should where a cowbell so you know where I'm going!"

" I meant nothing by my prying, forgive me. I'm only concerned. With that madman always with you, I'm only trying-"

" You leave Erik alone! He is not your problem. Nor am I! I don't love you. I might have once, long ago, but it shall never happen again!"

I turned to leave but he grabbed me. " I won't allow you to see him! I won't!"

" It is not your decision! I am not a child, I will do as I please, now release me!"

His said nothing as I bolted away, my new found rage turning heads and shocking all. " That Daae has gone mad!" Said one as I ran past.

I went up to Carlotta's dressing room door and began pounding itwith my little fists until they turned red. She opened the door, her face portraying her pompous attitude and signature temper.

" What do yew wanta? I'm a veery beezy!"

I wasn't afraid to knock her down and smash her face to get to that mirror. Not then.

" Let me through, I need to get in here"

" Why? Thees is my dressing room! What could yew possibly need in heere?"

All the ballet girls were gathered around ( a safe distance away of course), watching the ever timid Christie stand up to Carlotta.

" That is no concern of yours! Move or I will move you myself!"

Carlotta reared her hand back and struck me across the cheek. I could do nothing but stand in shock as she smiled maliciously. " Arre yew done?"

I grabbed her by the hair and with all my strength threw her out of the doorway and ran inside the room, locking the door and blocking it with a chair. She pounded furiously as I pulled the mirror back and ran down the familiar passageways.

My rush to the house on the lake was a blur of dark colors and strange sounds of dripping water.

I rushed into the open spaces of Erik's domain, my mind frantic to find him.

" Erik.." I tried to say calmly.

" I thought I told you to keep away..." He said with an unnerving tone.

He was leaning against the wall, his eyes leering at me.

" Erik, I'm so sorry...please-"

" Save your petty apologies for someone who cares to listen. I have no more business with you. Go back to your life in the world above an leave me in peace..."

I ran to him, getting on my knees like a servant girl bowing to her master. " Erik, please, just listen!"

He looked at me, his eyes just observing my form groveling at his feet. " I need you to show me your face again..."

" Lunacy!" He claimed.

" Please!"

He knelt down before me, his eyes meeting mine.

" To what purpose would it serve for you to gaze at my face a second time. I would just have to carry you to the surface again. It's a pain carrying a person up flights of stairs, no matter how light they may be."

" Why can't you just trust me.."

"I DID trust you! I trusted you to have the decency to not scream when you saw me! You promised me you wouldn't! How can I believe you now!" He got up trying to move away from me, though I clung to his pant leg with mytiny fingers.

" Erik, please" Why couldn't I say more? I wanted to say so much more...I was fuming with anger before, full of deadly acidic words to throw at him but now... Iwas reduced to nothing but a teary eyed girl who just wanted the acceptance of the one she loved most.

" I've had enough of your whining! Stop your childish sniveling and get out. I don't need your pity and more than I need you!"

Pity? Is that what he thinks my feelings for him are? Pity?

" I would never pity you, Erik. I have never pitied you."

My face was sincere as I stood up and he looked at me in awe.

" If anything, what I feel is love. Unrequited love"

" Why do you think your love is not to be returned?"

Pulling out the note he left me, he understood. " Forget it..." He murmured as he draped his arms around me. I reached up and pulled off his mask. His body went tense as it fell to the floor. I gazed at his face, though ugly to the world was beautiful to me.

I got on tip toe and for the first time in his life Erik knew what if felt like to be kissed.

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Behold! It is over! Much love to all who reveiw regualrly! You guys are my muses

Always online and sleep deprived,

Bella