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Lyrics taken from: "Get Well soon" By: Reggie and the Full Effect
They say we won't make it what do they know? They say we can't do it but I got to know Is it getting better? Is it getting worse? Was it ever worth it? Was it just a curse?
After Hermione felt a little better she decided she could make it to dinner in the Great Hall. She sat down in her normal spot with Ron and Harry, she was glad to see them she felt like she hadn't talked to them in an eternity.
"Hey guys" Hermione greeted them cheerfully.
"Hey Hermione" they both said back with food falling out of their mouths.
"Did you guys find everything that you need today?" she asked trying to make conversation.
"Yea but it took a long time to find the sweat of a ghost" Ron said
"Yea none of the potions were easy to find" Hermione agreed.
"It's been a while since we've gotten to talk" Harry said
"Yea…umm…I've been busy lately" Hermione said uncomfortably.
"Yea….we noticed" Harry said picking at his food.
Hermione was feeling extremely guilty…how hard could it be to just tell them the truth? After all look at how much they had been through together. They had been there for each other through the worst times of their lives. Hermione couldn't think of a time that she had needed them more than she needed them now. But it would kill them to know that Draco was the father. After all the torture he had put the three of them through there would be no way that Harry and Ron could understand this. Hermione knew that they would never be able to handle it either. "I know…I'm really sorry guys…as soon as this project is over I know I'll have more time to spend with you" Hermione promised.
But she couldn't do that…she has already been pregnant for almost a month and soon she would start to show. Thank goodness it was starting to get colder so she could hide her stomach with her robes. She would just simply say that she was really cold and that's why she didn't take her robe off. She had no idea what she was going to do. Maybe she shouldn't have this baby after all.
"It's ok we understand that you're busy and everything…being head girl can't be easy" Harry said.
"No it's not" Hermione replied.
"Are you okay?" Ron asked
"Yea I'm fine, we should get to class" Hermione said flashing a fake smile that was real enough for them to believe it.
As they were on their way to class they met Draco in the hall, talking to his cronies. There it was again…that look that he always gave Hermione…the one that made her weak at the knees. She hated it and loved it all at the same time. She never wanted it to end…but it had to. She looked away quickly so that Harry and Ron wouldn't see who she was looking at.
When they got to Snape's class Harry, Ron, and Hermione said their goodbye's since they had to sit with their partners. Hermione took he seat and a few minutes later Draco took his next to her. Hermione couldn't concentrate…she was thinking about the baby too much…and whether or not she should keep it.
"Hey" Draco whispered elbowing Hermione's arm.
"What?" Hermione asked.
Draco pulled out a piece of parchment and began writing something and then slid it over to Hermione. It read: What's wrong?
We need to talk later…I've got a lot on my mind, it what Hermione wrote.
"That can't be good" Draco murmured under his breath.
"What was that Mr. Malfoy?" Snape asked loudly.
"Nothing sir" Draco answered sitting up straight like a soldier.
"Very well" Snape said and went on teaching whatever lesson he was teaching. The rest of Hermione's classes were just a blur, she didn't pay attention or take notes or anything. That was very out of the ordinary for her but she just couldn't pay attention. As soon as classes were over and everyone had eaten dinner Draco went to their dorm to find out what was wrong with Hermione. She was sitting on the couch when he got there.
"What is it that you need to talk to me about?" Draco asked sitting down next to her.
"Draco….this is so hard to say…it's just that with the circumstances and everything I just…I don't see how this is going to work" Hermione said tears welling in her eyes.
"What are you talking about?" Draco asked with confusion on his pale face.
"We are hiding this baby from everyone Draco. I don't know how to tell Harry and Ron and I don't know how to tell my parents but I had better do it soon because they're going to find out here in 8 months. You're not going to tell your father or your mother. I mean Draco we're already ashamed of this baby and it's not even here yet. What kind of life is that?" Hermione said through sobs.
"What are you saying?" Draco asked with fear in his voice because he already knew what she was going to say.
"I'm saying I don't know if I want to have this baby or not" Hermione admitted.
"So you want to kill it" Draco said.
"I don't know…I don't know anything right now Draco…I'm so confused" Hermione said.
"Hermione look at me" Draco said grabbing her shoulders and making her face him "I want this baby…I need this baby…if I am ever going to know that I am not my father then I have to do this…I have to prove that I can love my own child" Draco's grey eyes bore into Hermione's.
"Draco I'm so scared" Hermione laid her head on his shoulder sobbing hysterically.
"I know….baby I know" Draco kissed the top of Hermione's head and held her in his arms.
"Don't you worry about what anybody else thinks about this…if your family and friends don't support you then they don't really care about you…but you have me Hermione…you always have me" Draco said.
"But what does that mean Draco? I mean do you love me?" Hermione asked sitting up so she could look at him.
"Hermione I don't know if I love you…I've never felt love before…but I know there is a big part of me that wants to protect you and be with you…I know that I care about you" Draco answered.
"Are you sure you'll still feel that way once this baby gets here?" Hermione asked.
"Yes" Draco answered firmly.
After Hermione was calm she and Draco did the lying potion, which had been ready for a week they just hadn't had time to do it. Draco took the potion first and Hermione asked him questions and then recorded his answers. She asked him simple things about past quidditch games and school. They waited for the potion to wear off then Hermione drank the potion and Draco asked her questions. Only Draco hadn't been so nice, he asked her if she had ever had a crush on Harry. Hermione replied "no" which actually meant yes.
"You had a crush on Potter!" Draco exclaimed after the potion had worn off of Hermione.
"Yes" Hermione replied blushing red as a cherry.
"How could you have wanted him over me?" Draco asked playfully.
"Oh I don't know…maybe because you tormented me for 6 years" Hermione answered and Draco got quiet suddenly.
"I'm sorry about all that…I've always been so angry about everything…and I guess I didn't know how to deal with it so I just took out on other people" Draco admitted.
"Well I can understand with everything that you've been through" Hermione said understandingly.
"It's still no excuse" Draco said shamefully.
"We better get some sleep…it's getting late" Hermione said changing the subject.
"Yea I guess we should" Draco said getting up and heading for his room.
"Draco" Hermione said.
"Yea" Draco turned around facing Hermione.
"I don't want to sleep alone" Hermione said walking towards him and grabbing his hand.
"After the day I've had I just don't want to be alone" Hermione explained.
Draco picked her up and carried her to his room and laid her down on the green silk sheets. Draco took off his shirt, leaving his pants on and lay down next to her. Hermione put her head on his bare chest and fell asleep to the rising and falling of his chest.
A/N: Please review! Let me know what you think!
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