Warning: This story is about suicide and refers to m/m slash.
Disclaimer: I do not own anyone. They own themselves. This isn't true. It's all fake.
Love Hurts
You just left me. You left me for him. What did I do wrong? I just ran out of the house and drove to my favorite spot. You know, the cliff where we shared our first kiss. God, it was so long ago. Five years now.
You had just turned 21 and we got a 6-pack on our way here. We sat under the moonlight, drank, and talked. You talked about your family, wrestling, Matt and Jeff, and then you mentioned that you had a crush. I figured it was some girl. I remember my heart skipping a beat when you said it was a friend of your's, but you weren't sure they'd ever feel the same way. The person was a few years older you explained.
Suddenly, you were sitting closer to me. I finally worked up the nerve to ask who it was. You looked down and mumbled something I couldn't understand. I asked what you said and you looked at me with a little grin on your face. "It's you" you said. I think my heart stopped for a minute.
I looked away for a second, trying to hide the huge smile on my face. You said you shouldn't of told me. I told you I was glad you told me. You said you were surprised I wasn't mad. Our faces were inches apart. I leaned forward and kissed you. You pulled back with a shocked look on your face. Then next thing I knew your tongue was in my mouth. Man, was I happy that night. We drove to my house, which wasn't the brightest idea since we had three beers each. We made love that night, as we would many nights after that.
The next few years were great. We barely ever fought and our friends were cool with our relationship. A few months ago everything started to deteriorate. You would tell me you were hanging out with Jeff, but sometimes he would call to see if you were home. Then he'd ask for Matt. I remeber the first time I asked you why you lied to me and you denied the whole thing. You said I was worrying over nothing and that you loved me more than anyone. I believed you.
I can just imagine what you're doing right now. Probably waiting at my house for me to come home. You'll be waiting a long time. I'm infront of our tree. Our tree. You carved our initials in it. I remember that too. It was our one year anniversary and we came here to celebrate. I guess I'll just leave this here. I'll nail it in so you can find it. If you even think to look here. I really did love you. I still do. But I guess I didn't make you happy enough. Enjoy your new life with Matt. I hope he takes good care of you. I'll leave my ring here too. You promised to love me forever. Until death do us part, remember? Well, now we won't have to get a divorce. Goodbye, Shannon.
Shane