Author's Note: I'm back and very glad. I know I said it would only be a month or so until I started to write again but I was temporarily side tracked by my very large, very noisy, visiting family. Then I got into a excellent series of books and didn't see the light of day for a week because I was inside with my head stuck in a book.But,I got over my laziness and started to write again. There is some good in not updating for a while though. I did a detailed outline of the rest of the story and so at least I know where I'm going and how I'm going to get there. I also got very inspired! So yay! Here's reviewer responses fro chapter 9 and 10. Sorry again about that. Thanks to all of you sooo much!

xxtaintedcv- Thank-you for the very complimentary review! I'm very glad chapter 9 made you feel free inside and extremely glad that you like my story! I am very sorry for not updating in so long and I hope this chapter touches you in some way and that you enjoy it.

Torri-Chiobie- I'm glad you like my story and I'm pretty sure you will like the ending if you like angst, that is. Thanks for the great review and I am very sorry for not updating in so long. Hope you like the next chapter as much as you liked ch.9!

LightningAurora- Thank-you for the review and I'm glad that you found the chapter interesting. When I thought over how I would write Kai with a sense of humor it seemed to me that the only obvious choice of humor to pair his personality with was a wicked one. That Kai, what a devil! Hope you enjoyed chapter 10 and will enjoy this chapter as well!

ShadowandKnucklesgirlforever – Thanks for the very complimentary review. It's very nice to hear from people who enjoy your writing. I can tell you're a fan of romance/angst. Myself, it's my favorite genre of writing. Anyways, hope you enjoy the next chapter and sorry about the wait for an update.

Goddess-Hope- Thanks for the review and I hope you have fully recovered from your sickness that you previously had. Or at least you did, when I talked to you last. Don't worry, Kai will defiantly find out what's wrong with Hilary, though he will have to wait a bit. I'll give him clues and then we'll see if he picks up on them and figures it out or if someone will have to tell him. Anyways, I hope you like this next chapter and sorry for not updating for so long.

Nubia- I'm very sorry for not updating in sooo long. But, I did get my whole outline for the story done and hopefully, I'll be able to update on a regular basis now. I…hope your loss of words that you mentioned in your last review is a good thing. Are you speechless at the talent of the writing? Appalled at the horribleness of it maybe? Or are you just shocked that Kai almost kissed Hilary? Anyways, I hope you enjoy the next chapter and thank-you very much for reviewing both chapter 9 and 10!

kami's right hand girl- The 'string' is a very important clue to what is wrong with Hilary. You'll figure it out soon and then you'll understand. I'll explain it in the last chapter anyways. I hope you enjoy this next chapter and I'm very sorry for not updating in such a long time. Thank-you for reviewing both chapter 9 and 10!

Hutchy- Thank-you for reviewing both chapter 9 and 10! And yes, you could say Hilary has to leave them forever in a sense. Sorry about delaying with the updating and I hope you enjoy this next chapter.

Chikoro- I'm glad that you like my story and I am very, very sorry for not updating in so long. Thank-you for reviewing both chapter 9 and 10! Kai and Hilary will not both die. I can't say anymore than that else I will give away the end. Keep guessing though, you'll find out what's going to happen soon enough. Hope you like the next chapter!

Beaten But Not Broken- Thank-you very much for reviewing both chapter 9 and 10. As for your question 'how old are you?' if you guess in your next review how old I am, based on how I write and act like in my writing, I will tell you in the next reviewer responses. I want to thank-you (and a few other people) for making a guess on what is happening with Hilary. I won't tell you anything much, but I can tell you that you are the closest so far. Not exactly right though. I think you've underestimated my vengeance as a writer though. Anyways, sorry for not updating in so long and I hope you enjoy the next chapters to come. I'll drop some more clues to the ending as well, keep guessing!

Chibi-Kari- I am so sorry that I haven't updated in such a long time. But, thanks for reviewing both chapter 9 and 10 anyways! I had lots of fun in Hawaii and a great tan! Anyways, I've planned out the outline for the story and it's probably going to have 19 or 20 chapters exactly, though it could vary a tiny bit. The ending, if I write it good, will hopefully knock your socks off, so to speak. I very much hope it does! I'm glad that you enjoyed the last chapter and I hope you will enjoy this one just as much!

AngelofLight- Well, I hope whatever you were thinking at the time of your last review was good and that you enjoyed the last chapter. Thanks for reviewing both chapter 9 and 10! Sorry for not updating in so long and I very much hope that you will enjoy this chapter.

ERALDA- I'm very sorry that I haven't updated in so long. I'm glad you liked the last two chapters and I'm really sorry for torturing Hilary, but you have to remember that this is an angst fic. Don't worry, I feel sorry for her too. I'm glad you liked the last few chapters though and I hope that you will enjoy this one too. Thanks for reviewing both chapters 9 and 10!

Random Reviewer- Yes, Kai did almost kiss Hilary. I thought it was about time; I was debating with the idea for a while, though in my next story I think I'm going to let them connect a little more first. This was just a spur of the moment kiss. It's funny you should say that you always pictured Hilary making the first move. I've always thought of it the other way 'round. Hilary might have liked Kai first, but in my mind, she would always give up thinking there was no chance he could ever love her back and wait until he showed her affection back. Anyways, thanks for the reviews and I hope you enjoy this chapter! Sorry for not updating in a while!

Kais Devil- Make no mistake, Kai will find out what the heck is wrong with Hilary. Pretty soon I should think with his determination. As for what is wrong with Hilary, you'll have to read to find out or make a guess! I left clues and I'll leave more! Thank-you for reviewing and waiting patiently for my update! Hope you enjoy the next chappie!

akuro- Thank you for the very complimentary review! I'm glad you kept reading even though you weren't so hooked on it at the beginning. I can't tell you exactly how the story will end but I will tell you your guess is very close. I'm very glad my story has helped you with your english, though it doesn't seem so bad to me, and I will defiantly continue the story in the same way. Sorry for taking so long to update and I hope you enjoy the rest of the story!

Lady Paine- I'm taking it that you liked what you read so far. I'm very glad you want the next chapter and also very, very sorry that you had to wait so long on account of my laziness. I hope you enjoy this chapter though and thank-you for the review!

Mrs. Sumpter- It's o.k for not reviewing chapter 9. I do that all the time. You're probably very busy, just like me. Anyways, I'm glad that you enjoyed the last chapter and it is really too bad that Hilary had to push Kai. I mean, how could you push him away, he's so adorable? I am very, very sorry for updating in so long and I want to thank you for reviewing chapter 10. Hope you enjoy this chapter!

- A very insistent review and I have to tell you that it inspired me to write as soon as I read it. Thank-you for reviewing and expressing your concern on how often I update. I have to apologize that it took so long to update in the first place, but its good to know people care. Anyways, I hope you've enjoyed what you have read thus far and hope you will enjoy the rest!

Penguin Pop- Thank-you for the wonderful review and compliments! I'm very glad you are looking forward to read the next chapter and hope you have enjoyed the chapters so far. I have to say, I love your story as well. Anyways, I am very sorry for not updating in so long and hope you enjoy the next chapter!

knowlee- Thank-you for the review and I will check out your story ASAP! Keep writing Kai/Hil fics, it's the way to go! I'm glad you like this story and I hope you will enjoy the next chapter. So sorry for not updating in a while!

Phew! I'm pooped. That was about 3 pages worth of reviews, but it was worth every one. I'm sorry if I forgot anyone and keep in mind, these were the answers to chapter 9 and 10 reviews. I just wanted to point out that I think the first and last part of this chapter are ... exceptable, butI have my doubts about the middle. It will be very hard to understand and till you know what is wrong with Hilary. Anyways, on with the story!

Heaven's Call

The Will to Fight…

Love, can withstand a storm

In the finale hour

We'll find the joy in living.

2 weeks later…

The morning dawned bright and there seemed not be a flaw in the cheery sun, outside of a certain brunette's window. Though even at the early hour she was not close to the realms of sleep and the sun's rays reached her opened eyes, brightening them into two sparkling, ruby orbs.

Hilary lay unmoving, staring up at the ivory ceiling above her. If you had stood near her you would have seen her eyes were not just staring. They were full of memories those ruby twins and you would be lost in them, just as Hilary was lost herself. Her pain was once again, exposed to the harsh reality of the world, but it did not hurt her now. For she was filled with the hurt of something different. Something that she could shed no more tears about, because tears, though sufficient to rid you of frustration would not confront and conquer your problem for you.

With the knowledge of this unfair reality burning in her mind Hilary was mourning at a loss of what to do. She knew she had made a mistake, but how to fix it?

Kai fiercely launched his Dranzer into the expanse of pavement, tearing a gap into the hard stone. His yells echoing and reechoing across the walls of the abandoned warehouse. His rage, though being transported in the form of voice to encourage his blade, was not meant for the little piece of blue metal. His thoughts were elsewhere in a little park near the dojo.

Avoiding thoughts of Hilary had been in vain for they came to him even in his subconscious mind. He was torn between raging curiosity and furious anger at her actions. He had not once talked to her alone over the last two weeks for she also seemed to be torn between the desire to see him and embarrassment of that starry night.

His eyes narrowed as a vision of her danced in his mind again.

Make no mistake Hilary, I will find out what you're hiding.

The tone of his thought was not one of kindness but of frustration. With much practiced ease Kai put his anger under raps and continued training, with maybe just a little bit more determination then usual.

Hilary's toes wiggled distractedly in the soft carpet of her room. Her mind was anchored on the slate haired captain of the Bladebreakers who was at this moment probably cursing her name. Bitter tears of self-sorrow welled up in her eyes as she glided over to the window of her room and hugged her arms to herself. Below her she could hear the sounds of pots and pans and then a voice calling her name.

Hilary heaved a sigh and pulled up the sleeve of her gray sweater. Her fingers ran softly over the paneled wood of the windowsill, as if reassuring herself it would still be there when she got back. The stairway she took slowly and entered into the light of the small kitchen. She calmly eyed her mom's movements and the mess of dishes that littered the shelves and counters. Her mother turned and smiled at her, but Hilary saw a glimpse of hidden emotion in her eyes.

"Oh, Hilary dear, you're up. I thought you were sleeping and so I didn't want disturb you. But I knew you would want lunch, so I called you down." Her mother gently guided her to the table and pulled out a patterned chair for her to sit down.

Hilary rested her head on her chin and mumbled a reply "I was just…thinking."

"Well, you should have come downstairs. I would have served you breakfast. Oh, by the way Hilary, where did you put thegroceries you bought for me yesterday?" Her mother said, barely audible with her head positioned deep in a cupboard.

"What gorceries?" Hilary dug her face deeper into the sanctuary of her arms wishing dearly for solice from the memories that seared her mind. So disracted was she that she did nto really contemplate the meaning of her mothers words and completely missed the surprise and hurt cross her mothers face.

"Oh- Never mind!" This time Hilary did not miss the sharp gasp, like this hiss of pain from an animal in a trap. She looked up shocked as the impact of what she said setteled on her shoulders. Her mothers voice carried up into high pitches of mock happiness,opposing the small hurt that had exited her mouth minutes before.

"I don't know what I'm talking about so never mind Hilary, dear. Now, what do you want for supper tonight? We could have lots of things. Let's see here-"

Hilary's chair fell with a clatter that seemed to the two of them to echo, like thousands of ripples in a lake that would never fade from the inescapable confines of their minds. "Mom. What groceries? I don't remember any groceries. I don't…remember! I don't remember!" Hilary's voice screamed hysteria. Her mother's eyes welled with tears that only clungon for the sake of her daughter.

"Hilary…sweetheart. It's o.k... Calm down-"

"Whatgroceries mom? What groceries?" Hilary took a step toward her mother between gasping rips of breath and voice mingled with salty tears and amazing determination.The space of yesterday in her mind was gone.

"…I asked you to get me somegroceries yesterday…I sent you to the store with money and you came home soon after… I thought you had gone…" her mothers voice shook slightly with delicate fear and her eyes lanced with sorrow.

Hilary searched her mind for recognition of the indicated moment but all she could remember was a faint, black fuzziness. A hollow blackness that was somehow familiar. For this blackness was slowly consuming her body, soul, heart and mind. A terrified gasp, half way between a scream and a sob escaped her lips and she turned and fled back to the safety of the windowsill in her room.

"Hilary, Hilary!"

She hastened up the stairs and collapsed into a sobbing, broken state of mind.

"Just let it be over, just let it be over…"

The threads of sorrow would always be sewn into the world, but at least in the protection and shade of her windowsill she could watch the world, but it could not reach her with its tentacles of misery.

Ruby eyes watched the setting sun with blank desolation.

All things have an end. All things endure this pain. But why? Why do I have to do it alone? I need you, I need you...

Delicate fingers traced circles in the dust, while the others stroke the smooth surface of wood. Tiny wings outstretch in defiance, a sharp beak lets out a silent shriek of anger at any who mock its purpose. A spirit, rich with joy and compassion has fled and all that remains is a broken battlefield. A misery has settled over the room like a mist that blinds and flirts, leading innocents into danger. It seeps into everything, and nothing seems to matter. Not now, not now…

... to take away the pain.

Is it so hard to except this fate? Others, many others have already endured it and passed on. You are not alone in your sorrow. You give up on yourself to easily. Fight this. You can. Fight not to win and be granted happiness, but fight nonetheless. Fight for what you love and hold so dear to your heart. You care, but let it go? Why? What is left to lose?

I want you so bad. Come to me... take away my pain. For nothing else matters now, at the end of all things.

Never thought you would see him did you? Never thought it'd be him, clouding your thoughts when your hope runs dry and spirit wears thin? He haunts your dreams and you do not know why. It frightens you this love. This love that strikes hard and fast and grips at the very center of your being. But you give up faith, for how could he love you? But what have his actions shown? The quick passion that you know makes his heart beat fast and his blood boil? He contradicts your thoughts. You want him and yet let go. Fight. Fight and win, at least this small victory. Nothing left to lose now.

Fight? Fight... That's what I'll do. Nothing else matters now. Nothing left to lose. I will do at least this right, and win you back...

Author's note: Yeah, I know a lot of you will be thinking 'What's with the groceries?' I'll just let you know right now that's it not the groceries thatare important, it's the fact that Hilary can't remember her mom sending her to buy them. It is actually a very dramatic moment. Also, the bottom couple paragraphs are written kind of differently. It's meant to be Hilary thinking and another voice sort of talking to her. Kind of like her conscience but not quite. Anyways, I hope you enjoyed it despite the weirdness. If you don't understand what's going on, you will soon enough in a few more chapters. Then everything will be explained. Hopefully I'll update sooner, which I probably will. RR, with your opinions!