"GRR! THIS IS STUPID! IT'S BLOODY POINTLESS!" I screamed as I tore the sticks apart, damaging as much as the "house" br as I could. Everyone that was camped near me had all gone to the caves, and the nearest person to me was Shannon, so I br could scream as much as I wanted and not wake anyone up. After I had calmed down I packed my rucksack so I could move br to the cavesbrbrbr "What are your doing?" asked Sayid.br "Why do you actually care what I do?" I asked him fiercelybr "Why? Why not, would be a better question"br "okay then, why not you …hang on, why don't you not care … why do you not, oh that's just confusing! I'm outta here!" I br grabbed my bag stormed off into the jungle.brbrbr

I wandered round and round this tree for about an hour, its actually quite fun when your in a bad mood…, anyway I was in the br jungle and I saw a man! He was a very small man, but not like tiny hobbit size, he was like the same size as me, which is quite small.br Anyway there was a man in the jungle and he was facing me. He was eating some weird fruit that looked disgusting! Though most br of the fruits here look horrible, though I like the bananas, and the coconuts but there are like two coconuts on the whole beach! br Anyway, the man was looking at me and eating the horrible fruit thing, id never seen the man before, and he had a knife strapped tobr his trousers, he looked dangerous now, though I was kind of attracted to danger so I walked closer to him, he looked more scared br of me then I did of him, which is weird because I look small and innocent… anyway the man ran away when I got like 20ft near him,br "hmm, that was weird", I thought. Maybe he's part of a civilisation that was on the island before us, and they like take people and br force them to join them, and they kill all of the others because they are mean. Hmm… maybe…!brbrbr

Anyway, I spent the rest of the day just wondering around the jungle trying to find the caves, they should put up signs! So it was br about 12, it was boiling hot, I had no idea where I was…then, as if by magic, I walked up to an area of water-it was like a big pond br thingy. So I took out my bottle and filled it with water. As I was putting my bottle back into my bag I found the journal of my dads br and the picture of everyone except my mum. It was pathetic how I hated her, it was obvious that she hated me for what I had done,br but I really did deserve it! And I hated her back, that just made me look immature and pathetic, I should have got over the whole thing br years ago, instead of holding a grudge and letting it get me depressed for years.brbrbr

I picked up my bag and filled it with anything heavy I could find, like stones and logs, I zipped it up and jumped into the big pond thingy.br There was nothing left for me in this life, I had thrown it all away, the same as I had thrown away my life.