Gods, I'm in trouble. I have mentioned that before, haven't I? I'm in trouble and I'm the worst screw-up in the history of screw-ups.

Today I was going to marry Zak Adama. And last night I kissed Lee Adama.

Last night I had been celebrating with some of my female friends, while Zak had been celebrating with his friends. We did everything right, followed every tradition as is expected. And still everything turned out to be so wrong.

When I came home, there was Lee sleeping on our couch. He was staying in our apartment the night before the wedding, as he was Zak's best man. Zak was already dead out. He had had way too much alcohol and Lee practically had to drag him home. By the way, Lee wasn't really sober himself. Neither was I.

So there we were: Lee laying half naked, half asleep and totally drunk on the couch and I, fully clothed but, like I said, also drunk, stumbling over the couch table and falling right on him. I have never been so close to him before. I don't think I have to mention that he was fully awake after that "attack". I swear I didn't plan that, but when I was laying on top of Lee, I never wanted to leave again. Of course I had to, so while I was mumbling some kind of excuse, I crawled off him and sat down next to the couch.

Lee just found this whole situation funny and couldn't stop laughing. Drunken people can laugh about the most stupid things. I actually found this pretty funny too.

Anyway, after we were done laughing, we sat together for some time and talked. And then it happened. We kissed. It was a long, intense, wonderful kiss. The best kiss I ever got. EVER. And it felt absolutely right. Of course it wasn't. I was engaged to his brother. This kiss was so wrong in every possible way. But still ...

"It was the best kiss ever." Little Devil grinned.

"And it was wrong." Little Angel countered immediately.

After we had pulled away, we just stared at each other for some time. A long time actually.

"I ... I'm sorry." Lee finally stammered.

I just kept staring at him. I simply didn't know what to say. What was there to say? I just kissed the best man and brother of my future husband. After staring a few minutes longer I decided I should say something. I couldn't bring out any words though. So I quickly got up and left the room. Once again I took the easy way out and ran away from my problems.

And now here I am. I'm wearing my wedding dress – by the way, it's a very beautiful dress – and in one hour I would be married to Zak. And all I could think of is Lee. Why did he kiss me? And why did he apologize? Couldn't he have just told me that he is deeply in love with me from the first moment we met and will never stop loving me until we were both dead?

"That is exaggerating a bit, don't you think?" Little Devil asked with an arched eyebrow.

Well, maybe a little bit. A simple "I love you" would have been enough. I would have left Zak in an instant for him.

"And that's why he hasn't told you. His little brother loves you." Little Angel pointed out. "Now forget this stupid idiot, get yourself together and march up to that altar and marry Zak!" It practically ordered me. I have never heard Little Angel speak so determinedly about anything ever before. "GO!"

I actually twitched at its shrill voice and when the music began I automatically started walking towards the altar. I only half listened to the priest's words until he asked the ultimate question.

"Kara Thrace. Do you want to take Zak Adama to be your husband?"

Once again I didn't know what to say.

"Yes." Little Angel yelled.

"No." Little Devil shouted.

I stared at the priest a few seconds, then I turned towards Zak. He looked at me expectantly. I knew I should say something, but I just couldn't. Then my eyes fell on Lee. He looked slightly pale as he stood behind Zak, holding the ring in his hands. He looked at me with his blue eyes and it was in that moment that I knew I couldn't marry Zak. Even if Lee shouldn't love me, it wouldn't be fair to him. I stared at Lee for a few more seconds, before I turned back to Zak.

"I'm sorry." I whispered.

"Noo!" Little Angel shrieked.

"Yes!" Little Devil did another version of his Happy Dance on my shoulder.

Now it was Zak staring at me. Well, him and everyone else in the room. I threw him an apologetic look and ran out of the chapel.

Later I explained everything to Zak. He was furious of course, but eventually he understood that I never meant to hurt him. Of course it would have been better to mention the fact that I was in love with Lee a little bit earlier. But when it came to emotions, I was always a little slow. Surprisingly Zak and I stayed friends after that and when he met Melinda again and fell in love with her, I truly liked that woman for the first time.

I knew I was in trouble when Lee asked me out for the first time. He was still Zak's brother and we would probably feel guilty all the time. And I already loved him so much that I couldn't imagine to live another day without him. How am I going to feel after our first real date? I knew I was in trouble. But I was going to enjoy every second of it. Because Lee would be right by my side.

"I always knew Lee was the right man for you." Little Angel exclaimed happily.

"I don't know. There is this cute pyramid player. He would be perfect for you." Little Devil said with his typical evil grin.

The end

A.N.: Special thanks to laurie31 for beta reading this chapter; you're the best :-) Thanks to everyone else for the reviews, they were all very encouraging and helpful. And thank you again to yannik. I probably would have to wait until next year before ff net would have let me post this chapter the normal way. ;)