Couple of days later…

Olivia woke up in an empty bed. She stared at her ceiling for a while and just figured it was for the best since they went through too much this week and it couldn't be the same.

She got out of bed and put on her work clothes cause today was her first day back. She pulled on her gun and badge and went out of the room.

James and Jenny were sitting at the table eating cereal and not talking at all.

"Good morning" Olivia said as she poured her juice. Both of the kids just waved and kept their eyes on their breakfast. Olivia said nothing and took a sip of her juice. They heard the doorbell ring. Olivia opened the door and Mark was standing there.

"I just came by to get my badge and gun," He explained. Olivia nodded and moved out of the way.

Mark came in the house and saw the kids "Good morning guys" Neither said anything nor waved. James got off his chair and past by Mark and put his bowl in the sink. "No greetings?" Mark tried again.

James turned around to look at him "What's so good about it?" Mark just looked at him "You know I never thought I could hate my own father but I just proved myself wrong" James said and grabbed his book bag and left the house.

Mark's heart just sank hearing that his own son hated him. He quickly took a deep breath cause he felt tears coming to him. Jenny got off her chair and walked past him and put her bowl in the sink "How's Danny honey?" Mark tried again.

Jenny turned around to look at him "Like you care."

"Don't speak to your father like that" Olivia spoke up seeing that Mark was getting teary eyed. Jenny said nothing and grabbed her book bag and turned to leave the house.

"Don't walk out on your mother" Mark said looking at her.

Jenny turned and looked at him "Your right that's your job. Just so you know dad you broke your children for life" She said and stormed out of the house.

Mark looked at Olivia "They think I asked for the divorce?" Olivia said nothing and kept looking at his sad watery blue eyes "Congratulations Olivia you just got custody of our children" Mark said and went to their bedroom to get his badge.

"Mark I didn't tell them that" Olivia said following him.

Mark grabbed his gun and badge and put it on his belt and walked back to her "It's fine baby, you'll get to have our children everyday, I'll see them once a week, they will hate me, just what I wanted when you asked for a divorce." He whispered as he fought back tears. "Be careful at work, goodbye" He whispered and left the house.

Olivia just buried her face in her hands and fought back tears.

"Mommy?"

Olivia looked up and saw the twins standing there "Yea?"

"When is daddy coming home? We miss him," Mike said in a sad voice.

Olivia walked over and kneeled by them "Guys daddy won't live with us anymore, but daddy will come by when he can to see you guys"

"Why wont he live with us? Is he mad at us?" Matt asked also in a sad voice.

"No, no, he isn't mad at you guys, daddy is mad at mommy and mommy is mad at daddy, so sometimes adults have to separate when they are very mad at each other" Olivia tried to explain. The twins just nodded slightly.

They heard a doorbell. Olivia got up and went to the door. She opened it and her sister in law was standing there.

"Hey Kristen" Olivia said with a small smile.

"Hi, I'm taking care of the twins today right?"

"Yea," Olivia answered as she moved out of the way. Kristen came in and closed the door behind her.

"Liv you hurt him," She said looking at Olivia.

"How's he doing?" Olivia asked knowing that Mark spent the nights at his sister's house.

"He hasn't slept any of these nights. The other night I woke up and saw him looking at a picture of the twins on their birthday."

Olivia just nodded "I have to get to work, if you need anything just call" She grabbed her jacket and left the house.

She got to work around 7.

"Hey" Elliot greeted when he saw her.

"Hi" She said quietly as she sat down "Were your kids mad when you and Kathy got a divorce?"

Elliot shrugged a little "Maybe but are situation isn't the same, I was hardly home and when I was I didn't talk."

"The kids think that Mark asked for the divorce and that he broke up the family and Mark being Mark he took the blame for it. So now they are mad at him. This morning James actually told him that he hated him"

Elliot just looked at her and felt extremely bad for Mark since he always got the short end of the stick because he was such a good guy. "Liv that isn't fair to him, you know that Mark loves the kids and it's going to crush him to think that his own kids hate him. You need to tell the kids that it wasn't Mark's fault"

Olivia just nodded knowingly and opened a file on her desk.

Mark sat in his office for a while and just looked at a picture of their wedding. They looked so happy. What happened?

He went out of his office and went down the hall. He knocked on a door and waited. George opened the door and just looked at him.

"Come in" George said moving out of the way. Mark said nothing and came in and flopped down on his couch. "I heard what happened with you and Olivia"

"You gossip like a little girl?" Mark teased staring up at the ceiling.

"Actual John told me" George answered smirking as he sat down at his chair.

"Well John is a girl too"

George just smiled "You came to talk or make jokes?"

"I make jokes while I talk"

George just chuckled "What's going on?"

"James told me he hated me this morning," Mark answered. "Jenny told me that I ruined the family. The kids think I asked for a divorce"

"But Olivia did?"

"Yea"

"Why didn't you just tell them it wasn't your fault?"

"And have them hate Olivia?" Mark asked looking over at him "Do you know me at all?"

George smiled "You're still protecting her, how come?"

"You know why"

"You still love her?"

"Hell yes" Mark answered staring up at the ceiling. "I need to get you a girlfriend George"

"Were here to talk about you not me"

"My sister is free, you can be around me all the time and shrink me cause I'm going to keep bothering you until I move on from liv"

"If you still love her why are you divorcing her?"

"Because its what she wants. If it makes her happy then it's worth my misery"

"You really think she is happy without you?"

"I don't want to talk about this anymore" Mark said and turned to the side to face George "So how's life been treating you?"

"Fine thank you. Maybe we should stick to this" George suggested smirking.

"Did I tell you I have a fifth kid?"

"I heard"

"John again?" Mark asked smiling.

"Fin"

"Those two are like little school girls"

George couldn't resist not laughing.

"Oh my god he laughs, it's a miracle" Mark teased smiling. "You would get along with my sister very well, I give you permission to date her."

"I'm fine thanks"

"Hey my sister is pretty, better then you could ever pull off" Mark teased as he sat up on the couch. "I'm going to go"

"If you need to talk I'm here" George said with a small nod.

"I know, thanks man" Mark said with a nod and left his office.

Olivia got home around 6. James and Zane were arguing and Jenny was in the middle trying to break them apart.

"Dude who the hell do you think you are to delete my stuff on my computer!" James yelled angrily.

"I needed the computer and your stuff was slowing it down!" Zane yelled back.

"C'mon knock it off!" Jenny yelled at both trying to hold back James from hitting Zane.

"What's going on?" Olivia asked stepping in the middle and separating them.

"Your stepson that's what" James answered crossing his arms on his chest.

"Relax shrimp download your rock music again" Zane said coolly and walked past him and went outside. James swung his hand to hit me but Olivia grabbed him and gave him a warning look. James rolled his eyes and walked away to the kitchen.

Jenny and Olivia followed. "James please don't fight with him," Olivia pleaded as she sat down at the kitchen table.

"Why is he even living with us?" James snapped as he paced around the kitchen.

"He needs to stay here until his lawyer changes his address, he will be gone soon" Olivia told them "I don't want you two talking to your father like you did this morning, he loves you very much and he doesn't deserve that from you two"

"Mom he is divorcing you and he just gave up on us," James snapped.

"What makes you think he asked for the divorce?" Olivia asked looking at both. Both of them looked at her confused.

"You asked for a divorce?" Jenny asked raising an eyebrow.

"Yea" Olivia answered nodding "We just needed some change and both of us went through too much to still be together"

James just looked at her and shook his head and walked out of the kitchen and went to Jenny's room since he was sleeping there while Zane slept in his room. Jenny said nothing and just followed him. Olivia let out deep breath and buried her face in her hands.

Olivia woke up at 6 to an empty bed again. She rolled her eyes and told herself to get used to it. She got dressed and put on her gun and badge and left the room.

Jenny and James were sitting at the table exchanging CD's into each other's CD cases.

"Mom you have to pick me up from school today cause Jenny has to go see that college thing and you said I cant skateboard with my wrist" James said holding up his wrist that had a cast on it.

"What about Kelly?" Olivia asked as she poured orange juice and took a sip of it.

"She's out of town with her parents" James answered.

"Ok, I'll pick you up" Olivia said nodding.

"Oh and Aunt Kristen picked up the twins already so when you get James go get them cause James can watch them" Jenny said grabbing the car keys.

Olivia just nodded. Both grabbed their book bags and left the house. Olivia grabbed her own car keys and left the house.

It was around 2 in the afternoon and Olivia was getting ready to leave. Her phone rang. "Benson"

"It's me" Mark's voice said.

"Hi" Olivia said quietly as she walked to the hall.

"That attorney called me and he changed the paper work so I'll come by later after work to pick him up cause Nicole left him her apartment so were going to stay there"

"You want me to drop him off cause I need to pick up James from school and then the twins from Kristen's?"

"Yea sure thanks"

"No problem." Olivia said quietly as she left the precinct and went to her car.

"Ok…bye" Mark said finding it awkward not to say I love you before he hung up the phone since he was used to it for 17 years.

"Ok…bye" Olivia said also feeling awkward. Both closed their phones at the same time.

Olivia drove to her house and picked up Zane.

"Mark called and your going to stay your old apartment cause your mom left you that," Olivia said as she drove to James's school. Zane said nothing and just nodded. Olivia said nothing and kept her eyes on the road.

Both kept quiet until they reached James's school. James came out and got in the back seat and just looked at Zane.

"Relax kid, I'm going to my place you'll have your room back" Zane said feeling his eyes on him.

"Thank god" James mumbled as he put on his seat belt. No one said anything. Olivia drove to Kristen's house and picked the twins up and then drove to Zane's old place.

No one said anything as they road through a green light.

"Mom!" James yelled as a van came full speed and passed the red light on the other side and hit the rear end of their car. Their car spun a couple of times and went off a small hill and spun upside down and landed on the roof of the car.

The car quickly caught fire since the gas was leaking.

Zane opened his eyes and looked at his arm that was bleeding from the broken glass. The side if his head was bleeding and he was hanging upside down. He looked over at Olivia and the side of her head was bleeding and she was already unconscious.

"James?" Zane yelled out. No answer. He moved his head a little even though it was in horrible pain. James cast was soaked in blood from his broken wrist and his neck was bleeding from the broken glass and he was unconscious also. He looked at the twins and both of them were unconscious.

Zane put his hands on the roof of the car and pulled himself up cause the seatbelt was tight on his neck cause they were upside down. He reached for his back pocket of his jeans and pulled out his pocketknife that his late grandfather gave him and he always carried it for good luck because it was the only thing he had of him. He cut his own seatbelt and fell down on the roof.

The window by him blew up from the fire "Fuck!" he screamed quickly covering his head. He crawled out of the car and went in the back and broke James's window with his foot and then pulled open his car door.

He crawled under James and cut his seatbelt and pulled him out and dragged him out of the car to the grass up the hill.

He ran back and another part of the car blew up which sent Zane flying back a couple of feet. He got up now the back of his head bleeding and feeling like a thousand pounds. He ran down the hill and slid on the grass to be away from fire that was now engulfed around the whole car. He crawled in again and cut the twins seatbelt and crawled back out. He heard sirens and a bunch of officers running down the hill.

"Get them" Zane said and started coughing from the smoke around him. He handed Matt to an officer and then pulled Mike out and gave him to another officer. The top of the car exploded and the whole car caught on fire.

A bunch of officers grabbed Zane and started to pull him out.

"No! Let go! I have to get her!" Zane screamed trying to reach for Olivia but they kept pulling him out.

"The car is going to explode! We have to get you out!" An officer yelled grabbing his legs and pulled him out. Zane sat up and punched the officer in the face and kicked the other away and crawled back in the car.

The window by Olivia exploded and Zane just moved by her so the glass didn't hit her. He cut her seat belt and wrapped his arms around her waist "Pull!" He yelled. The officers grabbed his legs and with all force pulled him out and him holding Olivia. His pocketknife fell out of his hands and got lost in the fire. The officers grabbed Olivia and carried her up the hill and another officer picked Zane up and carried him away.

Couple of seconds later the whole car exploded. Everyone flew to the ground from the loud impact. Zane sat up and looked at the burning fire and knowing he would never again see his pocketknife, which was the only thing that was passed down in his family. He quickly passed out from the blood loss.

Mark and a couple of his agents were dressed up in vests on a building and with the SWAT team around waiting for their perp. Mark's phone rang.

"Now?" Logan asked looking at him.

"Shut up" Mark mumbled and put his weapon down and pulled out his cell phone "Anderson…WHAT? Are they ok…I'm on my way" He closed his cell "I have to go" He said and ran down the stairs.

"What happened?" Logan called.

"Family emergency" Mark called back and took off his vest and threw it to the ground as he ran to his car. He got in and put the sirens on and drove off full speed.

Mark ran into the hospital as fast as he could he almost skid to a stop at the service desk "Olivia…Benson" He said out of breathe.

"Room 220" The clerk answered. Mark sprinted up the stairs not even bothering to wait for the elevator. He ran as fast as he could down the hall and got to room 220. He opened the door but she wasn't there.

He turned to look at a nurse "I'm Olivia Benson's next of kin. Where is she?"

"She is in surgery…"

"Surgery?" Mark cut off in a loud voice "What the hell happened?"

"Maybe you should speak to the doctor" The nurse suggested and led him to a room. She knocked on the window and a doctor came out "This is Olivia Benson's next of kin"

"Mark Anderson, I'm her husband" Mark said looking at the doctor in total shock.

"Sir I'm sorry to say but the baby…"

"Baby?" Mark cut off in a loud voice. "What? What baby? I think you got the wrong patient. My wife isn't pregnant"

In that second a couple of nurses rolled Olivia out with an oxygen mask over her face. "Is that your wife sir?" The doctor asked looking at Mark.

Mark's mouth just dropped and kept looking at Olivia "Yea" He uttered in shock.

"She was three months pregnant with a baby girl, the car accident made her have a miscarriage. I'm really sorry sir"

Mark just nodded and watched them roll Olivia into her room. "Do you know were my kids are?"

The doctor looked at his notepad "James Anderson room 218, Michael and Matthew Anderson 217 and Dexter Porter room 215"

"Thank you" Mark said with a small nod still in shock over the baby. He walked down the hall and went into the twin's room and looked at them. Both were still sleeping and had bandages on their heads. He gave them a kiss and went out of the room.

He went into James's room and he was sleeping and his neck had bandages over it and they changed his cast. Mark smiled seeing that the hospital ran out of white casts and put on a pink one temporarily. He grabbed a marker that was by his bed and wrote on his cast 'Pretty in Pink' He gave him a kiss on the head and left the room.

He got to Zane's room. He was asleep and had an oxygen mask over his face and tubes up his arm. His other arm was wrapped up in gauze and he had stitches on the side of his head. Mark looked at him and just like all of his kids he gave him a kiss on the head and left.

He got to Olivia's room and sat down by her and took her hand. Olivia had bandages on the side of her head and was sleeping. Mark gently touched her stomach and felt a tear roll down his cheek. He gave her a kiss on the stomach and then kissed her hand and kept looking at her.

He knew why she didn't tell him. The time was never good. He got raped and he needed her. They found out he had a son and fought and she wanted a divorce. The time was never right. He rested his face on her hand and just looked up at her and kissed her hand as he fought back tears thinking of the baby girl they were never going to have.